I hunger for open arms
—I quest to find a home
to accept me
I beg for an ear to listen
—I drink blood flowing
from my own veins

I hug myself
through the night
—cry myself to sleep
just to delude myself
that I'm not alone

After centuries of looking
—centuries of questing
yearning
—wishing
hoping—
begging

It only comes to light
that I've been left alone
for a long time now
I am alone
when the stars
cast their faces away
I am alone
that even my words
deserted me
I am alone
because in my plight
I chose to be

april 17, 2021