*

"Chanyeol, have you drank your medicine?" He cringed at the mention of the bitter tasting medicine that he has to take everytime he get those painful headaches. That's why sometimes he better endure the pain than forcefully swallow the pill as the bitter taste spread inside his mouth.

"Yes mom." And sometimes he also has to lie about it. After hearing what the doctor said, the medicine won't be any help to get rid of his cancer so what's the use of suffering from the bitter taste of the white pill?

"Okay. I'll be leaving now. Baekhyun's coming over." His mother planted a soft kiss on the giant's forehead. Chanyeol couldn't help but smile after hearing his best friend's name. He's coming over and he'll not be alone anymore.

"Bye mom. Take care." He said as his mom closed the door behind her.

Pure silence.

That's all he could hear.

He's alone again but not for long.

"Channie! I'm here~" The loud but sweet voice of his bestfriend broke the deafening silence.

"Thank goodness you're here. I'm bored." He whined like a playful kid he was and Baekhyun only chuckled at the giant's childish gestures.

He'll never change. Baekhyun thought to himself but then a frown replaced his bright smile on his face remembering that his bestfriend's life was on countdown.

2 months.

That's all the time they have for each other.

"Why are you crying Baek? Is there a problem?" He didn't notice the tears that were falling one by one not until the giant mentioned it.

Just the thought of losing his bestfriend was so painful.

Why can't he live longer?

Out of all the people why him?

"Are you sad again because of me?" Chanyeol sighed, hurting to see his best friend crying because of him.

"No... no i'm o-okay." Baekhyun wiped his tears and forced a smile to him.

"Promise me one thing Baek." The giant walked infront of him and cupped the shorter one's face between his hands. "Promise me that you'll not cry on my funeral."

He was shocked at the sudden words of his bestfriend. Just by hearing the word funeral was heartbreaking. He couldn't even imagine himself at his own bestfriend's funeral.

"Chanyeol what are you saying? Funeral? That's not gonna happen." He awkwardly chuckled, trying not to take anything seriously.

"Baek, you know that's gonna happen and when that day comes i don't want you to be sad." He engulfed the midget one inside his arms as he felt the tears rolling down his cheeks.

He's been acting strong infront of everyone but now he has let his guard down and let all the pain out.

He's told himself before that it's better if he's the one to leave than to be the one who's to be left.

But seeing everyone he loves mourn because of him breaks his heart even more.

"Why can't you stay any longer Yeol? I thought we'll gonna graduate together?" Baekhyun sobbed and that made Chanyeol's tears more freely to escape from his eyes.

Hearing his bestfriend cry makes him want to bury himself 6 feet underground.

He thought leaving them was easy but it's not.

"Hey... We're gonna graduate together. I promise you that. Understand?" He pulled away and looked at the older one's puffy eyes.

Baekhyun nodded and presented his square smile which was one of the things that Chanyeol loved about him.

Love.

It has different of kinds.

Brother-like.

or

Partner-like.

And if you're gonna ask what kind of love Chanyeol felt for Baekhyun.

Well,

It's the second one.

But what's the use of telling him now if he's gonna die anyway?

He kept telling himself that.

It will only hurt Baekhyun more.

So it's better to keep it hidden forever.

"Come on. I hate to see you cry." Chanyeol wiped the wet cheeks of Baekhyun using his thumb.

"Sorry." The midget said shyly. They were both smiling now but the thought of losing Chanyeol passed through Baekhyun's mind again but this time he didn't let it come to him again.

He knew that it hurt Chanyeol to see him crying and that's the last thing he wanted his bestfriend to feel.

"So what should we do?" Chanyeol smiled as he saw his bestfriend's cheery mood. He actually didn't know why people were calling him the Happy Virus when Baekhyun should be more deserving to be called that.

Just by seeing Baekhyun smile completes his day and that's one of the things he'll surely miss.

Death.

He didn't know what will happen to him when he dies. Will he be kept in the dark forever?

Oblivion.

He's scared that everyone will forget him. He's afraid that everyone will just forget him and move on with their lives. Well, he wanted them to move on without him but he hoped that he will always be remembered.

"What are thinking Yeol? You're spacing out." He shook his thoughts stopping himself from going any deeper. Lately, he's been thinking about what will happen to him.

He's afraid....

Afraid for the people he loves that he will leave...

And afraid for himself also.

"Nothing Baek. Let's just watch some movie?" He suggested, avoiding the sad topic of him dying from being discussed furthermore.

The little one agreed, knowing that it's better than talking about death which both of them were afraid of.

Both of them settled down on the couch, wrapped in each other's arms, just enjoying the time they could feel each other's presence.

In the middle of the movie, Baekhyun was snoring lightly and Chanyeol couldn't helped but stare at the sleeping boy's face.

He looked so peaceful and it made Chanyeol happy. He wanted to leave this world with Baekhyun happy so confessing his love will never be in his to-do list. He wanted Baekhyun to find someone who will love him more than he has loved the midget and there he could die peacefully.

"Forever is a long time..." He mumbled as he gave feather-light touches on the milky skin of Baekhyun. "But i wouldn't mind spending it with you."

"But sadly, i can't spend that with you." He sighed and kissed the latter's forehead before drifting to a peaceful sleep aswell.

*

"Mom, i can handle myself. You don't need to do that." He promised Baekhyun that they will graduate together but now it's nearly impossible.

"Sorry Chanyeol but i can't let you risk yourself. Sorry but you need to stop studying and sadly you won't be graduating." His mom looked at his son with sympathy. It hurt to see his son losing hope but as a mother she needed to do the right thing.

"But i promised Baekhyun that we'll be graduating together." He weakly said before slowly taking a seat on his bed.

"I'm sorry son but i think this is the best for you, to focus on your health first." He wanted to blame his mother but he couldn't, he knew that his mother was only worried for him.

"Okay mom. I'll tell Baekhyun." He said, biting his lip to stop his tears. This news will surely make Baekhyun sad and he couldn't bare look at Baekhyun's sad face as he tell him his mother's decision.

Every passing day was just getting more and more difficult for Chanyeol to deal. But thank goodness his headaches subsided for a while.

"I'm really sorry." His mom left the room, leaving those words to him.

What have he done in the past to suffer from this?

All he did was to be a good son, brother, friend and person.

What could be the reason for all of this?

He grabbed his phone from his nightstand and looked for the familiar name of his bestfriend in his contacts.

To: Baek

Can you come over? I have something to tell you.

Sent.

It's better if he tell the news in person than through this electronic device.

He fiddled with his fingers as he waited for Baekhyun's reply.

And after a few minutes, his phone lit up flashing Baekhyun's message to him.

From: Baek

Sure. Coming there in 10.

He smiled knowing that he will see Baekhyun's beautiful face again. He exited the messaging app and clicked his photos.

Every single photo was occupied by Baekhyun. Most of them was stolen shots.

Either Baekhyun was smiling or laughing which he will always remember whatever happens.

"Hey. What are you gonna tell me?" He hurriedly closed his photos and met the eyes of his bestfriend.

He was too caught up with Baekhyun's perfect features that he didn't notice his bestfriend's entrance inside his room.

"Uh... yeah." He was nervous, nervous of what his bestfriend's reaction will be.

"My mom wants me to quit studying." He breathed out and closed his eyes for a second to calm his nerves.

And once he opened his eyes, disappointment was written on his bestfriend's face. He already expected that but it hurt more to witness it with his own two eyes.

"W-what? D-does that mean y-you'll not graduate?" He uttered as his eyes sparkle of the tears building at the brim of his eyes.

"I'm sorry Baek. My mom thinks that this is the best for me... for my health." He said, his voice getting weak as he feel the throbbing of his head.

He held his head in his hand and closed his eyes to atleast stop the pain.

"C-chanyeol, are you o-okay?" Baekhyun ran to his side and was panicking.

"Y-yeah. I'm okay." He massaged his temples and took short breaths. His headache needed to stop or else he has to take his bitter tasting medicine.

"Where's your medicine Chanyeol?" Baekhyun proceeded to the giant's drawers and searched for the bottle that contained the solution for his headaches.

"N-no Baek. I'm o-okay." He said in between the unbearable pain he was suffering from.

But Baekhyun didn't listen and grabbed the bottle from one of the cabinets. He took out one pill and handed it to Chanyeol.

"Baek, i don't need that." He was gritting his teeth and clenching his fist. There's no way he'll let that bitter medicine enter his mouth.

"But you need this Yeol. Come on." Baekhyun insisted and pushed the pill closer to Chanyeol.

"I said i don't need that!" Baekhyun was taken aback when Chanyeol swatted his hand away causing the pill to be thrown out somewhere inside his room.

He stood there, shocked at what just happened. He didn't know what to do, that pill was the only thing he knew that could help his bestfriend.

"S-sorry Baek. " Chanyeol sighed as his headache started to vanished much to his relief.

Baekhyun was still standing there with no reaction. And that made Chanyeol afraid.

He's afraid that this may affect their growing friendship.

"N-no. That's okay. I'll go now. I need to do my homework." And before he could stop the midget, Baekhyun had already closed the door.

He knew that Baekhyun only wanted to help him.

And now he felt like a jerk. A total jerk.

*

"Chanyeol, it seems like your headaches are wearing off.The medicines were a big help." Chanyeol's eyebrows furrowed at what the doctor said. He haven't drank any pill so how could that happen? He just kept quiet than ask any more questions.

"Really doc? That's good news." His mother teared up at the good news about his ill son.

"But we still can't assure that this means his cancer is also wearing off." The doctor reminded with a frown.

Chanyeol wasn't even sad to hear that. He already accepted that there's nothing that could heal him.

"Have you been experiencing vision, balance or hearing problems? Vomiting?" The doctor inquired.

"No doc. Just these headaches." Chanyeol replied and that made the doctor wonder how could that happen?

"Okay then. Just continue taking the medications and after a week you'll come back for another check up."

He silently snorted at the mention of the medications that he'll never take in inside his mouth. How funny that they were thanking that stupid medicine that's not a help to his headaches.

It's been 3 days since he last talked to Baekhyun which was that incident inside his room.

And today, he's planning to talk to his bestfriend and apologize.

And he hoped that it will work out.

*

"Oh. Chanyeol, come in." Mrs.Byun ushered the boy inside their cozy home.

"Uhm. Is Baekhyun home?" He asked, roaming his eyes around the house hoping to see the familiar blooming face of his bestfriend.

"Yes. He's inside his room and i'm getting worried of him." Mrs.Byun sadly sighed.

"Why? Is there something wrong?" He asked, now worried for his beloved bestfriend.

"He's experiencing these headaches and he's been a bit clumsy. I don't know what's happening to him but he doesn't want to go to the doctor."

What?

That's all Chanyeol could ask himself.

"Can i check on him?" He asked for permission. He's been here for a hundred times already but since Baekhyun was mad at him he needed to ask for permission first.

"Oh sure Chanyeol. And can you please convince him to go see a doctor sooner or later?" You can see how worried Mrs.Byun was and ofcourse Chanyeol promised to do so.

He knocked softly on the door of the midget and waited for a response.

"Mom, i'm okay. Don't worry about me." He missed that voice. That voice that made him happy any other way.

"Baek, it's me Chanyeol. Can i come in?" He asked with crossed fingers.

"Okay." He heard the response of the midget so he twisted the doorknob and entered the room.

He gasped as he took in the surroundings.

Baekhyun's room was a mess.

Broken glasses were scattered on the floor and his clothes were everywhere.

Baekhyun was a clean freak, leaving no spot inside his room so this was a shocking view to see for Chanyeol.

"Baek, are you okay?" He slowly walked towards the fragile boy sitting at the end of his bed. He can hear choked sobs from Baekhyun making him frown. What could be happening to him?

"I'm such a mess Chanyeol. I'm a wrecking mess." His sobbed became louder every passing second.

Even though he didn't understand anything, he pulled the crying boy inside his arms without any second thoughts. That's what Baekhyun needs. A hug.

He soothingly rubbed Baekhyun's back to calm him down.

He's feeling bad for leaving his bestfriend on his own.

Those 3 days, Baekhyun was suffering from something and he wasn't even there to help him get through that hence he didn't even know what's Baekhyun's problem was.

"Baek, what's the problem?" He cooed at the broken boy's ear.

"I don't know what's happening to me. I've been wrecking things around the house and i can't even balance myself."

Hearing those Chanyeol convinced himself that he's wrong. No no no.

"Baek, you need to see a doctor." He adviced.

"Okay... Would you accompany me tomorrow?" Baekhyun looked up with those puppy eyes.

"Ofcourse. I'm always here for you." He snuggled closer and kissed the top of Baekhyun's head.

"Always." He added.

*

"W-what?" He took a step back and looked at the doctor in disbelief.

"I'm sorry Mr.Park and Mr.Byun but it seems like the results of your tests got exchanged."

"So that means Baekhyun's the one who has a cancer and not me?" Chanyeol was gasping for air as he take in what the doctor has said.

What could be worse than this?

"Yes Mr.Park. We're very sorry. We will take full responsibility for this."

But nothing could help the two person who was having a hard time to digest the news.

All this time they have thought Chanyeol has a brain cancer but it turned out that Baekhyun was the one who was suffering.

"But how could that happen?" Chanyeol pondered, doing his best to not lose himself.

"Both of you had the test almost at the same time. And that's how the results got exchanged."

The doctor's given information didn't even made sense to Chanyeol.

Baekhyun never mentioned to him about taking a test so how could that happen.

He turned his attention to Baekhyun who was been quiet this whole time.

"I'm sorry Chanyeol for keeping this to you. I've been experiencing headaches and vomiting so i secretly took a test but then i found out that it was just because of tiredness and lack of sleep so i didn't pay that much attention anymore." The midget explained as he tried to hold himself together.

He's afraid of death and knowing that he's bound to die scared him even more.

How could this happen to them?

Is fate playing games with them?

*

"Isn't it ironic Yeol? I ended up the one who can't graduate." Baekhyun joked and that made Chanyeol tear up even more.

It's their graduation day today.

After knowing that Chanyeol didn't have cancer, he immediately returned to studying but unfortunately Baekhyun on the other hand had to stopped.

"I'm so happy for you Yeol. I'm sorry that i can't graduate with you." Baekhyun gave him an apologetic smile. He looked so weak and pale.

His condition was getting worse so he needed to stay at the hospital to be monitored by the doctors.

"Chanyeol, i want you to promise me something." He tighten the grip around the giant's hand. "What is it Baek?" The giant weakly smiled at his bestfriend. He'll do anything for Baekhyun and whatever he needed to promise he will do so.

"Promise me you'll never cry on my funeral." Baekhyun repeated what Chanyeol had asked before.

Chanyeol on the other hand blinked away his tears. Now, he knew what Baekhyun felt when he asked him that before.

"I promise." He said even though it's against his will but for Baekhyun's happiness he will do anything.

"And promise me you'll be happy without me."

"Baek..." Chanyeol hugged the older one and cried his heart out. Without Baekhyun he will feel like his other half will be missing.

"Shhh. Don't cry Yeol. Don't cry." He heard the angelic voice of Baekhyun and then the sound of the heart monitor.

He pulled away and looked at the sleeping figure of Baekhyun.

The sound of the heart monitor was deafening and he tried to wake Baekhyun up.

"Baek please. No. Wake up please. Don't leave me."

Everything happened so fast that all he could remember was being pushed out the door and the doctors rushed in reviving Baekhyun.

He slid down the wall as the tears streamed down non-stop.

This was supposed to be a happy day for both of them.

After years of hardwork, they could finally graduate but it turned out to be the day one of them will be leaving the other.

*

Everyone around him was crying making it hard for him to keep his promise.

He's trying his best not to cry swallowing the tears from the pain his heart was feeling.

And after everything that happened there's one thing he regretted so much. And that was, he didn't confess his love for Baekhyun.

He had all the chances to say what he truly felt but instead he let fear eat him up and now he's too late.

"Baek..." He let out a sigh as he caressed the carved out name of Baekhyun.

Who could've thought that everything will change?

And he ended up being the one who will mourn upon Baekhyun's death.

The turn of events was all so fast.

As if in one snap of a finger, this happened to him.

"Baek, i miss you." He traced every letter of the carved name.

"I hope you're happy up there. I'm trying my best to keep my promise. See? I'm not crying?" He chuckled to himself. Everyone had left since the ceremony has ended and he insisted to stay and so they let him knowing how much pain he was feeling right now.

"I'm sorry i wasn't there when you needed me the most. You've been so selfless that you thought about me rather than yourself."

The passing wind comforted him in a way that he felt Baekhyun's presence.

"Baek, is it okay if i break your promise? Just this once?" He questioned. The wind blew past him again and he took that as a sign to let his tears flow down freely.

"I love you so much Baek. I'm sorry that i didn't tell you sooner. I was afraid that i'll end up hurting you." Chanyeol curled up to his knees to cry even more.

It hurt so much.

"I wish i could take back everything and make it right." He was rocking back and forth to atleast calm himself.

"Sorry Baek. I'm so sorry." He covered his face to block his sobs not wanting to grab any attention.

"Chanyeol, please don't cry." He felt a pair of arms wrapped around his waist. He turned around and there he saw Baekhyun kneeling down infront of him with that square smile of his.

"Please don't cry. I love you." Baekhyun's figure slowly faded from his sight and that made him sob even more.

He missed Baekhyun so much. Everything about him. His eyes, his lips, his cheeks, everything. Just everything.

He was still sitting on the grass, sobbing to himself. He hear some footsteps but he didn't dare look up.

"Hey mister, are you okay?" At first, he didn't want to look up but he did anyways.

He met an unfamiliar face so he wiped his tears away and composed himself.

The stranger handed him a handkerchief and he slowly took that to wipe his face completely.

Do you believe that...

"Hi. What's your name?"

"I'm Chanyeol. Park Chanyeol."

When someone leaves...

"I'm Do Kyungsoo."

Someone new will arrive.

The End.

"Every second in our life is important. So don't waste it and do everything you wish before it's too late."

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Author's Note; This is my first time writing an angst so i don't know if i did any good T____T please tell me what you think :) Thank you :)

I want to dedicate this to Angel4eve for being there for me always. Saranghae~

06/08/16
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