Reid's POV-

I didn't know why I had decided to show up here at Adam's house. My first instinct was to go to Tiffany's house because she'd always been the extension to my family. But I knew she was going to check on Ronan and she didn't need more than one person to look after.

So the next obvious choice would be Connor but instead of driving towards his house I drove away from it. It wasn't even a conscious decision but once I started driving I couldn't stop.

I had missed Adam. I'd felt his absence and all I'd wanted in that moment was to be with him again. I knew it wasn't practical, he broke this off with me.

He didn't want to be with me.

It was like snapping out of a spell. I'd missed Adam enough to just be happy to see him again. I let myself get lost in the feeling of having him close but Adam didn't want me.

Adam ended things and that wasn't something I could just ignore anymore.

I looked up to find the blond making his way back over to me with two mugs in his hands.

"What's this?" I asked taking one from him.

"It's tea, I don't know if you drink tea but my dad always makes it for me whenever I'm upset."

"Thank you." I smiled bringing the warm mug up to take a small sip.

It was hot but not too hot. It warmed my mouth in a way that comforted me. I could understand why Adam's dad used the tea as a way to make Adam feel better. Warm drinks had a way of making you feel like you were home.

I had so much I needed to say to Adam. So much the both of us needed to say. I couldn't stay here without having a few conversations first but at the say time I wanted to be selfish. I wanted to push all that away and just stay in this moment.

I didn't want to be left hurt again.

And maybe the only answer was to not have the conversation at all. Maybe I needed to finally stop waiting for people to change their mind. It seemed too easy in my head to just put the mug down and leave. To decide coming here was a mistake and walk away from Adam.

He told me he didn't want me and I held onto this hope that maybe he would change his mind.

I was just the idiot because no one in the past had ever changed their mind about that. All my past relationships I'd clung and held out hope for them to turn around and take it back but every time someone left they never even seemed to hesitate.

"I should go, Connor would let me stay on his couch. I'm sorry I don't know why I came." I set my mug on the table ready to just walk right out.

I didn't know what I was thinking coming here.

"Reid you can stay, I want you to stay." Adam pleaded.

I couldn't hear it, I couldn't listen to it.

"Thank you for the tea and for not slamming the door in my face." I forced the smile onto my face as I stood up.

"Please Reid-,"

"No." I shook my head. "You broke things off, you said you didn't want to be with me. Every second I'm here I'm imagining that things might change and my heart can't take being hurt again right now. I shouldn't have come and you shouldn't have to play pretend just because I'm technically homeless right now."

"I'm not pretending, for the first time in my life I'm not pretending." I could hear the pleading in his voice, the way he so desperately didn't want me to walk away.

It was enough to make me pause. I wanted to hear what he had to say. I stopped where I stood in the middle of his living room and turned to look at Adam.

"You can't do this to me. I can't handle this back and forth. You want me and then you don't, I don't know which one to believe." I felt defeated, really I only had myself to blame for showing up here in the first place.

"I'm asexual." He confessed.

I just blinked. It wasn't what I was expecting him to say. I didn't know what I thought he'd say but I knew this wasn't what I had thought.

"I lied when I said I didn't want you. I want to be with you Reid but I just can't give you everything you deserve."

It took me a second to really understand what Adam was saying. He wanted to be with me. He hadn't meant what he said when he broke things off.

I had been ready to walk away again but Adam wanted me, he'd wanted me this whole time.

It was like I could finally take a breath. This was something I could fix.

"Says who?" I questioned.

If Adam really thought that he couldn't give me everything I deserved then he was an idiot.

"I don't want to have sex, I can't ask you to give that up for me." He just shook his head.

"But you didn't ask, you just decided that's what I would want. When I have I ever said that I needed sex from you?"

"You didn't have to say it Reid, I felt it. I know you wanted to go further."

"Of course I wanted to but I don't need to have sex to be in a relationship with someone. I'm only interested in the things you're comfortable doing. I would never ask you to give me more than you are willing to give."

I didn't know how else to explain this to him. I liked Adam and if that meant I'd never have sex again then I'd never have sex again. It wasn't important to me. I'd gone over a year since the last time I'd had sex and it wasn't something I missed all that much.

I watched the emotions flicker across his face. I watched as the tension released from his body. I was already prepping for the words before they even came out of his mouth.

"I should have let you make the decision for yourself. I'm sorry that I took that choice away from you." He seemed to finally believe what I was saying.

"It would have saved us both some hurt but I get why you did it."

I knew that it was scary for Adam to open up like this. We weren't quite at the point where I would have expected him to trust me to accept every part of him without hesitation. He needed some time to understand that I wasn't going anywhere and I'd take whatever he could give me.

"Can we try this again? I really like you Reid and I'd like the opportunity to not fuck it up this time."

"I really like you too." I nodded.

It felt like it's been ages since my lips turned up and that light feeling exploded in my chest. I was happy and when he met me in the middle, pressing his lips to mine I knew that this feeling wasn't going to go away.

A/n:

Enjoy!

I'm going to try to get into the writing mode this weekend but I've honestly been super busy. I have plans this weekend and then like a million appointments throughout the week I need to go to. But I'm going to try to get some writing done so I'm not just disappearing all the time.

Hope you liked this chapter!

-Cora Leigh