K i m  T a e h y u n g

I listened quietly to Namjoon's playlist in the car as he was the one driving. Jungkook and Yoongi were singing along while Jin and Hoseok were busy taking selfie. Jimin sat beside me and from the corner of my eyes, I noticed that for every second he would check on me.

"What is it?" I asked Jimin, but my eyes never left the window view.

"Do you remember anything about yesterday?" He asked hesitantly.

The others started to stare at me worriedly. I know they were trying to avoid asking question like that, except for Jimin who was curious as much.

"Barely. I only remember moments with Jinhee," I told him, a small sigh escaped from my lips.

"Well, you really clung too much on her yesterday," Jimin bluntly said. I rolled my eyes at him, yet I could feel my heartbeat raced at the thought of it.

"What exactly happened yesterday?" I asked, but not really wanting to know what had happened. It was kind of predicted.

"You punched Minhyuk. He made it out alive. Thanks to Jinhee."

I frowned when he didn't explain the details properly. "Why Jinhee?" I asked him as I furrowed my brows, not liking the idea of involving women in my fight.

"Because she was the one who managed to stop you. It's kind of hard to believe, right?" Jimin playfully smirked.

I let Jimin's words sunk in before letting out a deep sigh again. A moment of silence passed by as the music stopped playing.

"I dreamed about Jinhee today."

Shit. The words just blurted out from my mouth. I didn't mean to say it out loud. I was thinking too much about it that it came out unintentionally.

"That's like your normal routine, right? To dream about Mia–" Jimin turned to look at me almost immediately that I heard a crack.

The next thing I knew, everyone looked at me with widened eyes while Namjoon took a glance in the rear-view mirror with furrowed eyebrows.

"Wait, did you say Jinhee? Not Mia?" Jimin asked again for confirmation. He couldn't seem to accept what I had just said. I didn't even know whether it was a good thing... or bad.

Yoongi looked at me carefully before he spoke. "Taehyung, it's good to hear that you have moved on a little from the past, from Mia. But... are you attracted to Jinhee because–"

"I'm not, hyung. I'll stick to my promise." I looked away as I took a sharp breath and clenched my jaw. I could feel my chest tightened and my body felt weak just at the mention of her name.

Because every each second that passed, I missed every bit of her.

I missed seeing her smile, I missed listening to her sweet voice and most of all, I missed hugging her and felt her heartbeat against mine.

I held the urge to let any tears escape. I have decided not to replace Mia over anyone, and certainly not Jinhee. That was my promise to myself and Jimin.

Bangtan boys knew about my past because they were there, witnessing my worst nightmare that appeared so often in my dreams, haunting me down even after two years.

"Taehyung, we just want you to be happy. So stop feeling guilty about your past." Jin said, looking concerned. They knew I could be very sensitive when it came to Mia.

"If Jinhee can make you happy, then why not take your chance? We like her too. She's comfortable to be with." Namjoon spoke from the front.

"There is just something about Jinhee noona that makes her different from the other girls." Jungkook scrunched his lips in wonder.

"But let's just not mention that she nags a lot," Hoseok said and everyone laughed at his remark.

I let out a smile. Jinhee sure loved to nag a lot but I thought it was cute. And it was understandable when these idiots gave her a hard time almost every single day.

I looked over my shoulder when Jimin was not being his noisy self. When I saw a frown on his face, I just knew what he was thinking. I slung my arm over his shoulder.

"Let's not think about it alright? I won't replace her with anyone. She would always be in here... and here." I pointed to my chest, then moved to his hard chest.

Kwon Mia... She was our childhood friend. Jimin, Mia, and I would always stick together. It was hard to see us apart. She would always say 'let's go together'.

Together... and always together. Who knew one day she left us and no one could say the same phrase anymore. Not with the same voice and same smile as hers.

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"We are here! Let's go Bangtan boys!" Namjoon pulled the handbrake and everyone excitedly scurried out of the car.

Lotte World. It held the memories of her as well.

I furrowed my eyebrows when all of them seemed to be waiting for someone at the main entrance.

"What are you guys doing? Let's go in?" I asked, confused. Everyone shot me a glare which made me puzzle even more.

"What kind of guy are you? We ought to wait for the ladies." Jin shook his head as if disapproving my lack of manners.

"Ladies? Who?"

"Someone please tell him that Jinhee and her friends are going to join us today," Hoseok rolled his eyes as he sat on the bench.

I walked over to Jimin and smacked his arm. "You didn't tell me that Jinhee is coming along," I said through my gritted teeth.

"Ouch! Dude, I have told you just now but you weren't listening!" He practically yelled back and frowned.

Did he? I must be in my own blank space again. I shrugged and waited along with them.

"When are they coming, great, two minutes have passed." Yoongi became impatient as he kept checking the time.

I played with my phone. When I glanced up, I saw a familiar figure smiled and waved at us with her bright smile. The smile that never failed to make my heart skipped a beat.

She was wearing a black and white striped tee, covered with a white cardigan and a flippy A-line black skirt. Simple, yet it looked perfect on her.

"Hi boys, have you guys waited long?" Jinhee asked with her innocent look.

"You guys are late for–" Before Yoongi could finish, Hoseok covered his mouth.

"No! Of course not. Let's go in." Hoseok showed his perfect white teeth and let the ladies walked first. But weirdly, Jinhee waited for me.

"Are you feeling better, Taehyung?" She asked as her brown eyes shimmered, waiting for my response.

"I don't know what are you talking about. Do I look like I'm not okay?" I gave her my usual emotionless look and decided to ignore her gaze. It's better to stay away from her. I can't replace–

"Um. Yeah... You look just fine." She forced a small smile out and walked away from me. I almost regretted with my words when I saw her looking down, disappointed. 

How could I stay away from her when she always had this thing that made me want to look at her for every second?

Kim Jinhee, what are you to me?

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T E A S E R

"Are you jealous hyung?"