As I look back in the past,

I am scared, I feel so lost.

Did I do right, or did I do wrong?

Can't be sure, it's been too long.

I remember, not clearly,

You brushing me off so lightly.

In trouble, you were my need,

But you didn't come, and I was hurt indeed.

I still feel so hurt, I feel so lost,

Was I right to cut you off?

Tearing down our friendship without a thought?

If so, then why do I miss you now?

When back then I was so sure, I did not bow?

So many factors that affected me then,

Insecurity, betrayal and an emotional mayhem.

I was scarred and I was hurt,

And surprisingly the feelings still lurk.

Yes, it's been a long time, and I know you've moved on,

I've seen you with your group, and reminisced our days a lot.

Even though we no longer talk,

You still have a place in my past;

An important one, my first good friendship,

One that altered me so much, it now makes me sick.

Stuff has happened in the years that've passed,

And I almost lost all hope that our paths will ever cross.

You know what they say, that time heals all wounds,

It has healed mine a lot, enough for me to be able to let go.

I think I'll finally forgive, though I can't forget,

I don't want to carry the burden any longer,

But the time I have has made me stronger.

I'll still say I regret nothing that I did,

I hope you understand why I did what I did.

The world is too small and my hope too big,

So now I hope we meet again, and when we do;

I probably won't look ready to bite your head off,

And maybe, just maybe, I'll even smile,

We'll probably make up

And it'll all be alright.

Maybe like old times, we'll sit in my room,

And have a breath-holding contest,

Maybe, like old times, we'll also watch a silly movie,

And it'll all be like it was

When we were two carefree tweens, without any worries.