He's right there and he wants to help me,

He's beckoning to me softly.

But my feet are stuck in this concrete so firmly;

It's the concrete I laid out to protect me.

I can't break free of its restraints and go to him;

I want to accept his support,

To let him cradle me and warm my soul.

But I can't because I have a fortress around me,

It is impenetrable you can try and see:

However hard you do, it won't crack or even creak.

So I'm in here waiting impatiently, howling to be free.

What do you do when you are betrayed multiple times and want to trust again?

When your heart wants to give in, accept the comfort but your brain won't stand it?

It has you wrapped under infinite protective layers, and they won't fade,

Just like the scars they gave you in the moments you still can't forget.

Is it okay to let him in? Give him the weapon to destroy what I slowly remade?

Is it okay to let down the guard and see how it turns out if I let it?

Because you know what, it gets a little lonely sometimes, sitting here alone;

My eyes are glued to the table where it's ringing: my phone.

I'm shutting myself from the world with all my power,

While he patiently sits outside the door and waits for it to be over.

Does he love me really? Or is it another illusion?

I really wanna know and end this confusion.

I wish from the deepest part of me that it's true, that he is real;

I know I wander this earth alone, but I could really use a companion.

I'm tired of being betrayed, I'm tired of not being able to trust;

I'm just tired and at this point people believe my heart is just crust.

But it's so not true, I am me. I still feel but I do it differently.

I hate being vulnerable and letting them see

That my heart riots too, that I am afraid as well;

That I feel out of control too, and that it is hell.

They see my smile and call me pretty;

Boy, what about the broken girl behind the fabricated fantasy?

So I gather my courage and ask him:

Can you handle her? Still be the same around her after knowing what she's been through?

Can you heal her with your existence in a way she never saw coming?

Can you be her oxygen and be her grave; be there for her in every way?

Can you make her your priority like she wishes she was? Can you make her forget everything she has lost?

Can you put her before everyone else and love her like no one else even dared to?

Can you accept her flaws and love her imperfections? Can you show her you're different from the ones she knew before?

Can you make her the queen of your heart and the princess you treat gently?

Can you come between her and her insecurities like a wedge? Can you cradle her softness and still sharpen her edges? 

Can you fill her cracks without her knowing that she has them? Can you make her feel like she is a gem?

Can you stay long enough to see past all the ugly to the tiny flame that makes her up?

Can you see past the blood of her fallen warriors to the purity she bears?

Can you take away her fear and be her strength? Can you protect her no matter to what the lengths?

Can you be the wings that let fly and still be the pillar and keep her grounded? Make sure she never again feels alone even when surrounded?

Can you feel her soul, see her for what she is and still cherish her? Boy, can you promise to forever love her?

He couldn't,

He left me.

I'm alone again,

But hey, I got me.

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A/N:
I know it's kinda sad, but we've all been here before or might be there. If you haven't and don't ever find yourself in such a situation, consider yourself lucky and don't forget to thank God.

Love you guys. Thanks for reading. Stay safe and I hope you guys are well and happy.

Until next time, all my love.
Vaish.