Frustrated, can't think straight.

I want to scream, but feel like I'm too scared.

I watch around but no one seems okay;

It's all a mess, any perfection we can't locate.

Yeah, I feel so mad, so angry;

There's some angst, but mostly for myself I'm sorry.

I look around more, and troubling thoughts flood me;

What the hell is happening to me?

No peace, I'm sure, for I've been searching for a long time.

The only solution it seems is not to give a dime.

But the days are too short, the nights too long,

My body is cramping and my head seems to throb.

There is dark in the light, it's too dark yet too bright.

Can't see ahead, though I've tried with all my might.

Now I'm scared that I'll just crash and burn,

A great lesson the hard way I'll learn.

The cliff I see, it's invisible to all;

It has been chanting my name for so long, I just pick up her call.

Down I go and drown in deep;

No breath my tired lungs any longer need.

No promises I'll be back from this abyss,

The Satan here seems to love me, sis.

You can be optimistic, though;

I don't want you to feel low.

Just get on with life, you'll be fine without me,

Mine was a mess as you'll probably now see.

Some broken remnants of my life I've left behind,

In you, as memories of myself, all bright.

Hope they'll console you, I hope you'll be okay;

Cause I've gone far too beyond to come back, a fact I'll repeatedly say.

No worries, I'm not sad, you need not be too;

I swear you'll hardly miss me as the years that have passed near two.

You'll get on with your life, you'll learn to be happy,

And I promise you that I'll watch you make that journey.

From my place in the clouds, with tears in my eyes,

Our last words still stuck in my throat, a whispered goodbye.