I say that I don't care

But then why does it hurt?

I say that I'm never scared

But then why is my blood pumping so hard?

I feel tiny, I feel small;

Congrats, you made me feel insignificant after all.

I look indifferent but I'm really not;

Inside is just a broken kid who cares a lot.

So what if I don't break down in front of you?

That doesn't mean I've got no tears to cry.

So what if I laughed to prove I'm happy to you?

That doesn't make a truth out of a lie.

I keep pretending that I am okay and they keep believing it.

It's becoming frustrating but I can't bring myself to tell them

I feel like only if they cared a bit,

They'd see I'm suffering through my armor's chink.

Why don't they understand that my guards are not up because I'm strong?

They are up only because deep down I'm more fragile than glass.

One hit will break me, it will take weeks to stand up;

I'm tired of holding the fort, I just want to give up.

Maybe one day I will find someone sweet,

Someone from whom I wouldn't have to hide from in the deep.

Someone who'll understand, someone who'll still keep

The broken and damaged me, and cherish it for real.

And if the day comes, I promise to come out of hiding;

Let down my guards and finally see life for what it is.

Maybe I'll learn to love, maybe I'll ultimately trust.

But till then I'll be standing in my tower of betrayal

I'll keep looking at the merry kingdom far off;

While inside it kills me to the point that it's fatal,

It's the kingdom that I once used to be the princess of.