I read the note you left me in the pocket of your jeans

I now know the way you meant to leave me

How dare you think it was okay?

How dare you think I'll be fine?

How dare you think I'll be happy again

When you're now no longer by my side?

You did this on purpose

Why? Were you really that unhappy?

Was my love not enough to hold you to me?

Why did you have to go?

Why did you have to run to His arms?

Why did you have to leave me?

How dare you think that I'll be okay?

How dare you think that that the note would console me?

How dare you leave me and promise to watch me forever?

But since you are, I want you to know

That my love, I loved you the most

I'm mad now, but I'll find a way to forgive you somehow

Because even in death I love you the most.

I hate what you did, but I understand you somewhere deep down

Because I saw you struggle with yourself for so long.

I wish I was brave enough to fathom a life without you

But I am not mentally that strong.

Your absence is already taking a toll on my core.

My mind, my body, my soul all sing your song;

And I know I'm crying now, but I'll be okay somehow.

Know that my heart will forever be willing to be your host

Cause baby, alive or dead I still love you the most.

i wrote this after i read Me Before You by Jojo Moyes

that book was beautiful and i highly recommend reading it

Me Before You is the first book in the trilogy and u'll cry a lot when u read it, but it's so beautifully written u'll love it regardless