There's has got to be something wrong with me

The way I keep running back to you lately.

Despite anything and everything you do,

Despite how much you've changed, and not for good.

Why do I keep forgiving your mistakes?

Why can't I take a stand?

Why do I keep crying rivers that pool into lakes?

Let myself believe when you say I misunderstand?

Why do I let my love get the best of me?

When you clearly don't deserve an ounce of it;

Why can't I process what I see and snap out of this unpleasant reverie?

Why can't I own up to admit;

That I am in love with the wrong person?

And that he's almost broken me.

That I made a mistake?

It's all on me.

That he has me around his finger?

And I let him do that to me.

That I let a toxic man come into my life?

And victimize me.

That I made a mistake and I'm scared of the aftermath?

I want back the unharmed me.

That I was innocent and naïve?

Now gone is that part of me.

That I let him do his shit?

Don't protest even when I realized he was using me.

That I still believe it, every time he tells me that he loves me?

I'll tell you why;

Because stupid little me is in love too deep, too scared to face the reality.