"Today you have a few more takes on this scene. We will shoot it later on today." Francis tells me, referring to where I have to react to Josh on the screen.
"Please," I beg,
"It's hard to watch him so many times. I can't see my baby in pain this much. I promise, I'll cry."
"You can live through it, buddy." Liam pats my back.
"It's worse than the singing," I cover my face,
"I just miss him so much."

"Don't worry, you'll see him soon when he has to choke the life out of you. Then an entire next movie!" Sam assures me.
His comment makes tears spring my eyes.
"What scene am I doing right now?" I ask Francis.
He checks his watch and then looks behind him.
"I guess we can start a scene between you and Gale, I mean Liam."
This causes everyone on set to laugh. I would normally find it funny, but something is missing.
"Chin up, cheer up. It's time to bring a happy attitude!" Sam nudges me.
Keep positive. I tell myself. But how am I supposed to? When was the last time I have even seen Josh? I haven't spoken to him either with my long work hours. I bet he's home in bed with his dog, wishing that he were here.
I wish he were here.

"Action!" Francis calls, so Liam and I film various scenes we have together. Being around Liam and Sam after a few hours makes me feel almost myself again, but not quite.

Lunch is called, and I walk over to the junk food table first, looking at the cinnamon roll tupperware. I am tempted to take the container and bring them to Josh like I usually do. Only he hasn't been here. To make myself feel better, I take a cinnamon roll and eat it. I then stroll over to the lunch display and take multiple slices of pizza. I walk and take a seat next to Willow.
"Hey what's new, Jenni?" she jokes, using the nickname she has for me.
"Nothing, how's it going little duck?"
"Good, but you look out of it today." she replies.
"Well, I feel out of it, too."
I take out my phone and check my messages.
I got one from Josh and nearly flip over the seat.
It was a few hours ago.

Joshy: good morning, have a wonderful day. tell everyone I say hey

I've never texted back so fast before.

me: I miss you like crazy. I want to see you asap.. I ate some cinnamon rolls for you

I didn't get my hopes up on him answering right away, but he did.

Joshy: I miss you too beautiful. I'll make plans to see you I promise. enjoy the rest of your day save me a cinnamOn roll. Love you

I answer with something just as sappy, and then talk with Willow. She's the next best thing to keep me from collapsing today.
The rest of the day goes by completely slow, and I complain about everything to myself. I smell like garbage. I could use a shower. I'm hungry. Taking a nap on the floor seems like a good idea. I miss Josh. I repeat those three words in my head four hundred times before people start telling me it's not in my mind I'm saying it in.
I feel like hallucinating as I grab Liam's shoulder for balance.
"Do I smell? Do I need to shower?" I ask him.
"No, you said you showered this morning remember? You walked in with wet hair." he says sternly. He sounds totally done with me.

"I'm sorry, Maybe I'm going to go over here by Willow. You seem fed up with me. I'm just gunna.."
I stop talking when I realize I'm about to cry. I don't think anyone notices.
"You're gunna what?" Liam looks at me worriedly, regretting being rude.
"I'm just gunna go to the bathroom."
"Jennifer." he says, with softness in his voice.
I'm already in my trailer and sitting on the edge of the toilet with the door locked before anyone can stop me.
My breathing becomes unsteady, and my body shakes as I reach for my phone.
I calm down enough to dial his number.
It rings a few times and goes to voicemail.
Tears run down my face and I call again. And again. I sink to the floor and let out a soft sob.
The last time I call I decide to leave a message.
At first the voicemail only picks up my breathing, because I have a loss of words.

"Joshy? Hi Joshy. It's Jen. I miss you. I don't feel good. I'm on the floor of the bathroom in the trailer that we share. I still miss you. I want you to be here with me. I want to watch you eat cinnamon rolls, and want to see you act because you're so fucking good at it. I want to sit and joke around with you all day. I just can't wait to see your smile again. Did I ever tell you that you're pretty? I want to see your pretty face. Please call back. I don't want to go back to work yet. I have to do the scene where I cry because you are in the Capitol. Doing that seems worse than singing in front of everyone. I really care about you Joshy. Please pick up the phone. I wanna hug you and tell you that I love you." I quickly hang up and cover my mouth with my hand to keep myself from crying anymore.
I hear the trailer open and I wipe my face from tears and I breathe.
"Jen? Are you in here? What are you doing? We have shooting to do!" I hear Liam and Sam.
"I'm taking a shit!" I answer, hoping they won't try to open the bathroom door.
I hear Liam chuckle and leave, but Sam walks to the door and I hold my breath.
"Jen, are you really okay?" he asks.
"I'm fine!"I laugh, "It's not like I have diarrhea or something.
Sam laughs through the door, and I convince myself that he thinks I'm fine. Which I am. I just miss Josh.
"Well, we have one more scene today, be on your A game for it. Promise me, okay?"
I have to promise. I just have to. After me being a droopy self centered crazy woman, I have to get this last scene right. For Josh.
"I promise."
Although I thought we really didn't need anymore shots for this scene. I shake the thought off.
I adjust my district 13 suit, and wash my face from any sign of hurt or tears. I smile in the mirror. I can do this, no problem.
I walk back into set, and everyone is in the room. The makeup artists, the cast and crew, all the extras are in their spots for the scene, the costume designers, even Woody and Elizabeth stand next to Phillip and Julianne. This puts extra weight on my shoulders. But I promised Sam I could do it. I walk to my spot next to Liam, and take a deep breath and wait for action.
After what seems like forever, everyone takes their phones out and starts recording. Francis calls action.
What's really going on?
I begin speaking my lines.
"Peeta." I cover my mouth and the clip starts to play. I don't have to force any tears. They come naturally watching Josh stand there. Wait. Wait. Josh is standing there. I look to my left, and he walks out from behind the set. I scream at the top of my lungs, and run over to him, tripping over the tables that stand in my way. I'm still screaming by the time I reach him. I jump into his massive arms, and he picks me up and rocks me side to side. By now I'm sobbing. This is basically a military Dad coming home to his family.
"Hi baby." He lets me down and I hug him so tightly we fall over. I continue to cry in his arms as everyone else seems to be crying watching, too.
"I got your voicemail, did you miss me a little bit?"
I bury my face in his jacket and sniffle.
"YeAH." I squeak.
I look up at everyone around me.
"So I never had to film this scene again in the first place did I?"
Everyone laughs and says no.
Josh wipes the tears from my eyes with his fingers.
"Don't cry, baby."
I press my lips to his for a brief moment and everyone cheers slightly.
"Did everyone know about this?"
"All except you, you little moppet." Liam says.
I stand up, pulling Josh with me, and we hug Liam and Sam.
"The gang is together again mates." states Liam.
"Shut up Liam, you're a bear." I smile at him.
Everyone else is eager to greet Josh, because of his long absence.
He eventually finds his way back to me, and engulfs me in a long hug.
"How did you even get here? You came from LA?" I look up at him.
"Of course I did. To surprise you." he kisses my temple.
"You're not leaving, right?"
"I'm not going anywhere, staying right here with you. Coming back to your hotel and everything."
"I love you, Joshy."
"I love you, Jenni." he kisses my lips, and right away I know I won't be the first to let go.

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A/n thanks for reading this short story! It's dedicated to everdenn who is my best friend in the entire world. I love you alli you slay.
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