It was Tom inside my head, speaking and encouraging me to kill them, to teach them a lesson for what they had done to me. What they made me become, who they made me into all of the torment and the beating, the neglect all of it and for what now their dead. Does it make me feel better yes, but no at the same time because their voice still haunts me, their in my dreams 24/7 they never truly die.

"Trinity are you alright?" Matteo rushed to me

I couldn't speak for i was still in wolf form and then he looked around at the mess, saw my wand and then looked where my parent bodies were.

"Them?, how?" He asked

"You see them too right?" Draco asked coming in and pointing to my dead parents

Wait they can see them, they can see their bodies oh Merlin this is both amazing and terrible at the same time.

"Trinity what happened?" Matteo said rushing to me

"She can't speak mate" Draco said

"In my thoughts love show me" Matteo said leaning his head against mine

And i did, i showed him everything, even showed him me killing them, i was evil i thought to myself, a monster, I just killed two people and for what. It wouldn't stop the nightmares, it wouldn't stop the pain at night from the curse my mother cast on me at eight years old. It wouldn't get ride of the scars from my parents or from myself, my claw marks on my body it wouldn't take those things way in fact it might make them worse.

"Shh it's oaky their gone, they really can't hurt you now" Matteo said

"Matteo what happened?, did she tell you?" Theo said running into the room as well

"Her parents were hurting her, she did it out of self defense" he said

"She killed them?" Draco said

"She most likely didn't have a choice Draco, i'm sure it was either her or them" Theo said

"Your right, but how?, what spell because by the look on your face it was the one i think it was" Draco said looking at Matteo

"She had no other choice Draco just know that" Matteo said and placed a kiss to my forehead

Did you think that because of me being your soulmate or was it because you want to ignore the fact i was convinced to kill my parents because of what they'd done to me. I thought to Matteo causing him to turn his head towards me and shake his head before talking to me.

"No love, i know what was right you had no choice" he said through his thoughts

"But i killed them Mattie" I said back to him

(When in italics that means they are speaking through their minds, reading one another's mind so to speak)

"You did it to save yourself, don't think Tom had anything to do with this love, you just needed encouragement to do what was best for yourself and everyone around those vile people" he said

"Oh but Mattie what will people sat about me?" I whined

"You shouldn't need to care my love, only what you think of yourself matters, so think that way do not worry about others" he said

"Mattie am i a monster?" I asked

"No, far from it darling" he said and kissed my head

"Now come back to me human like please" he said

"Please because we need to talk" Draco said

I looked over at Draco and he nodded for me to go on ahead and shift back, Theo was there as well, but Narcissa, Tom and Lucius weren't here. Tom was close enough i could feel him, but how I'm not so sure, but he didn't matter right now what matter what Mattie and whatever Draco needed to say. So, i took deep breaths and let my mind slow down, my limbs to relax and my mind to calm so that i could transform back to human, when i did Matteo wrapped a robe around me to keep my naked part from everyone else. When i was covered fully then i turned to face Draco and Theo without the others who still haven't and probably won't show up.

"Hey" I said softly

"Hey fighter" Draco said

And that's how I knew he didn't hate me for me being who I was or what I could do. He let it go and if he could let that all go then why couldn't I let certain things go as well. Like the fact my parents just tried to kill me and the fact I had to kill then first to save myself for death. After all I couldn't leave Matteo before I got the chance to marry him and have kids at least one or two.

"Your not mad I'm a freak, a monster you name t and I'm it" i said looking down

"Stop saying that about yourself, your far from a monster love" Matteo said making me look at him

"But look what I did I used an unforgivable curse on them and for what to save myself over them" i snapped

He grabbed my face in his hands and looked me dead in the eyes.

"Your not a monster and yes you did what you had to do" he said

"He's right trinity you did only what you had to" Theo said

"Yes they both are right fighter you can't blame yourself especially after everything they put you through, you have to know that deep down" Draco said

"What are you talking about?" Theo said

"They used to hurt me" i said softly

"Oh" Theo said softly while looking down

"But their dead now so you have nothing to worry about princess" Matteo said and pulled me into his chest

I hugged him back enjoying the warmth he radiated and the smell of his cologne, his natural scent which involved cigarettes, weed and cinnamon plus his cologne. I enjoyed the way his arms felt around my waist as he pulled me close and held me liked I'd disappear if he let me go. I didn't like the fact I had to kill my parents to survive, but that deep thought in my mind the one calling myself a monster, or evil was grinning like a mad man at the fact i actually went through with using an unforgivable curse.