"Matteo right?" I said softly

"Speak up love" he smirked causing me to blush

"Your name, it's Matteo right?" I asked

"Indeed it is why?" He asked

"Your too mature for being thirteen" I said

"Because I'm not, i'm fourteen" he said

"So are you going to Hogwarts than?" I asked

"Yes i will be starting soon rather too soon if I must say" he said

"Like next year cause this years almost done right?" I asked

"Prosaically, but don't worry love I don't plan on loving you so soon" he said and with that left me alone with my thoughts once more

I sat on the edge of my bed pondering what was going to happen next year at Hogwarts, what was in store for me and my friends. I mean I knew in a few years I'd be forced to become a death eater with Draco, but what else was planned for me. Everything planned through my parents even after their death whom I have yet to get revenge on of course. Even if they were my parents part of me try's to find why they did what they did to me, why they possibly had those thoughts about me. Part of me always wanted and tried to make them love me and make them proud of me, but it never worked on my behalf before. Now their dead and things don't exactly go any better than they did when those two pests were alive. And now even in death they hate me still, they laugh at me, they torment me, they do everything as if they were still alive. How they do so I'm unaware, but I'm also clueless on the fact there is an arrangement for me and Matteo to marry. It's ridiculous if I'm being honest, why marry him if he's not going to love me, i wanted and daydreamed about finding my soulmate. What if he isn't them, what if he's bad for me and things turn south even with his reassuring i still don't feel happy about this.

I know now that he can probably still hear my thoughts, but i can't help it being negative about the entire situation. Don't get me wrong he looks good and I can't imagine how hot he'd be in the future, but what about my choice in this. Oh crap I called him hot and he probably can hear my thoughts damn it why do I do this to myself. I took a deep breath and ran my hands through my hair when Narcissa came into my room with a odd expression on her face, i couldn't tell you what feeling it gave off, but it wasn't happy thats for sure.

"I know you think things aren't fair, but you have to understand we are only marrying you off because it was their request not my choice or I'd have it a different way" she said sitting beside me

"I have to tell you something about my parents" I said softly

"What is it dear?" She asked

"They used to beat me and now I see their ghosts and somehow they can touch me" I said

She sat there shocked and gasped softly placing her hand over her mouth as tears formed in her eyes.

"Oh you poor thing, if i had know" she began

"You couldn't have stopped it, Draco was the only one who knew" I said

"I'm still so sorry you had to go through that" she said

"Did they leave?, and what rules was Lucius talking of?" I asked

"I'll explain soon sweetie I promise you"? She said