sOrTa sMAlL vEnT : bE waRNeD

Alright so there's someone that I'm friends with rn. Let's call them John. I'm normally very outgoing and friendly with them but recently, a wall has gone up between us. I'm not sure if it's my fault that I've been drifting away or vice versa but I don't want to drift away from them either. I've always been pretty clingy with people I befriend since forever but now I'm worried. I miss them right now and I just want to try to recover the friendship but I can't since my sorry ass can't get the courage to start talking to them irl or online since I've always been really self-conscious and lately have been worrying what they think which I didn't do before but now....

I'm not sure anymore. I'm not even sure if they read this anymore but whatever. I could care less at this point since most of the friends I've made at this point I'm going to have to leave because I'm not going to the same highschool as my friends so yayyyy