it was only a smile, nothing more. 

it didn't make everything all right. 

it didn't put food on the table or protect them when i couldn't. 

it didn't open her eyes or heal her heart. 

it didn't stop me from crying in the bathroom or hating everything. 

it didn't make the pain disappear.

it was only a smile, a tiny thing.

so why did twitching a few muscles convince people i was fine?