Happily time skip to Friday :D

  Sayori POV

    I woke up in the 4 in the morning. Sitting up, staring into the night, all lights are off but the street lamps in the neighborhood. I then checked my mobile phone, looking at the massages sent with Monika.

  I grinned while reading it thinking of the time we've been through, she is always that sweet in my opinion, that is also a reason that I like her.

Yes, so you are not that special to her.

No perhaps I'm not that special but at least she cares about me! Leave me alone, rain clouds!

Perhaps she is just playing with your feelings.

No! She loves me and I know it!

I didn't pay attention that my hand is moving near a rope until a message broke my train of thoughts.

Monika

[You alright? I feel like you are in a bad mood.]

                                                                                                    {Yeah but how do you know?}

[I-uh just have this feeling]

                                                                                                   {Okay(?)}

[Need me to come over?]

                                                                                                  {nah I'm fine~}

                                                                                                  {See ya later~}

[Yeah sure!]

I slowly close my eyes and drift to the land of dreams again.

"Morning! Sayori, I'll be here soon, I don't want you to be late again~"

    I smiled at the glance of the message, I stood before Monika's house and sneaked in it, hoping to give her a surprise. 

   I sat on her couch, waiting for her to come down. Then I saw a figure coming down, she wore only her unbuttoned dress shirt, I looked at her body.  She had abs, though it isn't really obvious in that situation, I'm pretty sure she had. I also saw her thighs, gosh they are muscular.

Dang, she's so hot. I thought with my face heating up.

"Sayori?!" She asked with her eyes widened.

"Hi M-Moni....." I stuttered in excitement and being very shy of what I just saw.

"Give me a moment." She said walking up stairs. Her voice bit disappointed.

My brain started messing around again.

Why are you doing dumb stuff again, No one likes you

You are messing up things, you always do.

Failure.

"A hug, comin' right on!" I heard Monika's voice before someone hugged me from the back.

"Hush~ It's fine~" She said quietly. I feel tears rolling down my face, but I let out a grin. Somehow staying with Monika makes me feel better than before, at least I don't need to disguise myself infront of her.

We then walked to school, holding each other's hands.

"Hey lovebirds!" I heard a sharp voice screamed. It's Natsuki.

"Where is Yuri?" I joked "You can't live without Yuri now can you?" Monika added, winking at me.

"S-Shut up! It's not like I care about her or anything!" She said, looking on to the ground. 

   We then walked up to the classroom together, I bid goodbye to Monika before entering the classroom with Natsuki. My homeroom isn't same as Monika's She is in 1A while I'm in 1B.

     Natsuki sat on her seat while I sat on mine. A few classmates came to me and told me to come out with them. Natsuki looked at me concerned while I walked out with them. I gave her a small smile to indicate that I'm just fine.

They brutally shoved me to the locker.

"So I heard you dated with Monika right?"

"Gay!"

"You seduced her didn't you? She doesn't like someone like you does she?"

The words went in my brain, my eyes lost focus, I feel like I'm not myself. They beat me up, probably as hard as they can, but I can't feel a thing, my heart hurts.

I wanna feel things.

I WANNA FEEL THINGS.

I WANNA FEEL THINGS.

  They slowly lost interest on me as I don't fight back and doesn't even beg for stop.

 Just like a broken toy that nobody plays with.

I went to the bathroom quick to cover up the bruises that aren't that obvious. I suddenly heard someone in the cubical. Sucking air from their teeth, seems like they are in pain.

  I knocked on the door of the cubical.

"Are you okay there?" I asked curious, and worried at the same time. I might be a mess but others deserves better than me.

   I heard that person gasped and a metal clang was heard. I was shocked at the second.

   "W-who are you?" The person asked.

   "Oh! I'm Sayori! Sayori Hamano! Nice to meet you!" I tried to sound as enthusiastic as I can.

   "Oh, its just Sayori..."She seemed relieved, and slowly opened the door.

   "Y-Yuri?" My mouth hung open in shock. Looking at the knife in the cubical and the scars on her arms.

  She hurts herself?  I thought to myself, what if she hurts me too? I am scared and I started walking backwards and away from her.

  She's a creep.

  She's a creep.

  She's a creep?

 I inhaled and exhaled, calming myself. Turned around, walking back in the restroom. Seeing the cubical locked again.

 I knocked the door again.

I shouldn't judge them by their hobbies... And she helped me in the first place.

 "Yuri? You still in there?" I asked concerned.

 "j-just leave me alone..." She said.

 "Look I'm sorry, I didn't mean to walk away, I was in total shock and I don't know what to do." I explained."And you are my friend so I can't leave you like this."

The door creaked open a bit, but she didn't open it all.

I gently opened the door.

  All I see is Yuri sitting on the floor, blood still flowing from her cuts, on her right hand is the knife with blood stained on it.

  She looked up, her eyes seemed helpless, it's an expression I never seen from her, she is usually calm and she never panicked in my memory

  "I... Can't....Stop thinking...." she mumbled as she tried to cut herself again.

 I pulled her knife from her hand and stopped her from reaching it.

  "Stop harming yourself or I'll tell Natsuki!" I screamed. And heard the door to the restroom closed.

  "I- uh- Uuuuuuu....." She looked down in shame, tears then dropped to the ground. 

 I hugged her, "It's gonna be okay," I comforted her.

  She then simply treated her cuts a bit before leaving the restroom.

   I also walked back into the classroom.

  The bullies looked at me with pure hatred and rage while I walked pass them and sat on my seat.

  "Sayori you okay?" Natsuki asked, her hands reached and poked my bruises.

 "Owie!" I shrieked, then I grinned."Nothing much, I just fell off the stairs myself, Ehehehehehehe~" I let out an awkward laughter, acting as if I'm fine.

  Natsuki looked at me curiously but then turned away, looking back at Yuri.

 I felt relieved that second, then the bell rang. 

 Lesson time...