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Heaving a deep sigh i close my journal. Sitting across the asylum cell, i fondly gaze at the intoxicating full moon, as a sudden tear rolled down.

I still remember what happened that day.

Waking up from the overdosing sleep i found myself surrounded by my friends worried faces. Jolting up with a throbbing head, my dried mouth croaked out that one particular name,

"Alex!"

They consoled me by saying that the mansion was abandoned since last ten years thus it was impossible for me to meet someone there.

Pointing towards the same room— i first saw him, to my horror was sealed with no signs of opening . Dust and cobwebs adorned the musty lock. Looking down i noticed myself still in that simple t-shirt and jeans i wore the first day i came there in that ill-fated road trip.

"You lost consciousness and we found you laying here," Lisa told me.

"Did you catch sight of that entity? Locals said, he had been killed by his parents and now he seeks revenge. He's wicked and cruel and whoever disrupts his peace he kills them!" a horrified expression crossed over Sana's face making me pause.

Maybe the entity indeed killed a part more precious to me.

"Thank God babe, you're safe! We were so worried for you. If we knew, we would never have come here in the first place. Now let's go. We're already late."

My brain was hazy as they helped me get up. Chaotic thoughts clouded my mind as i whimpered for an illusion that never happened.

How ironic it was that i fell for a wandering soul who craved to be loved by his parents before they buried him alive. He was nothing but just a figment of my imagination.

No one saw him, except me.

No one felt his unspoken pain, except me.

No one loved him, except me.

I thrashed, kicked, screamed, begged them to release me. Why wouldn't they understand that i loved him? Why were they trying to keep me away from him? I must go to him. My Alex needed me!

Several days passed by in a blur with me chanting those same words again and again and again. Doctor confirmed that i had oneirataxia as my schizophrenic symptoms were kicking in, so i needed immediate treatment.

I was in utopia; i never wanted to come out from.

But i had to. Just like he had to go too.

I used to sleep so that we could meet. But you never once came. It would seem like no one ever existed like you.

Once discovered like an evanescent for a moment, you sank back into the eternal night's autologous again.

The difference is, no matter what people say, for me, you're still there, in my heart like a forbidden jewel. You'll continue to live in my heart forever.
For eternity.

And i would find my way back to you in another lifetime again.

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