"Taehyung please just make sure-" I start, hating that I've been missing a lot of important meetings. It's not that I don't trust Taehyung. I do, but the rest of the board don't exactly have the same values and ideas when it comes to the direction of Kim Group and my brother is not as assertive.

"Kim Soa, I know you want to help, but please rest and trust me," He sighs into the phone. "I've got this, okay?" I understand his frustration as we've had this conversation multiple times in the last week. With me being at home, there's not much to do.

I sigh, "Okay, I'll leave you to work."

The call ends with Taehyung promising to be home earlier than usual because clearly I need the company. He's not wrong. Hosoek and Irena are around most of the day and I'm thankful for the company. They're like a breath of fresh air. We just lounge by the pool most of the time.

Jin and Fei come around now and then with Shaun. It's good to catch up with them because it's been a while. I don't think any amount of time spent together could ever be enough. My oldest brother has always been an important figure in my life and now with Namjoon hours away, it's good to have someone else to ask for advice.

I stare up at the ceiling in my room. A heavy sigh leaving my mouth at the loneliness and boredom I've been feeling for days now. Mother had taken the term bed rest quiet literally. I feel like a modern day Rapunzel, minus the prince charming. Because while I'm staring at blank walls and uninteresting Netflix movies, Jeongguk is having the time of his life in Italy.

As days passed, September came quicker than any of us were prepared for. And just like the days crept up on us, so did Jeongguk's twenty-seventh birthday. A day usually spent celebrating quickly became awkward encounter because while he was out hopping bars, I was indoors wondering how exactly our relationship had deteriorated into a situationship without the sex.

I'd seen his instagram posts and celebrations. Flashing lights, parties and a lot of alcohol which makes sense because he's finally officially taken over Jeon Corp. Taehyung and Jimin acted like nothing was going on. I appreciated their avoidance of the subject. It was sweet.

The man of the day had decided to contact me with a sweet little massage reading: "Although it's my birthday, I want to thank you for being an important part of my life up until now. These years haven't been easy, but you, your love and support have made it all worthwhile. I'm sorry that we can't spend it together like we usually do, but when I'm back in Seoul, I'll make it up to you. I love you, Kim Soa. I'm sorry for being an idiot when I was 26."

The message was a sweet reassurance that we were leaning more toward the side of okay, than breaking up, I can't say that I still feel uncertain about everything. How could we both allow ourselves to go without contact for so long for the sake of distance? And now just brush over it as if it never happened?

I replied with a lame: "Congratulations CEO Jeon. You've finally made it. Have fun, but don't be reckless. I love you too and I'm hoping we'll get through this phase soon."

I sit up, reaching for my phone because I can't go a day longer without speaking to Jeongguk about what exactly were we're doing. I've talked to both Namjoon and Yoongi. Both of the males called us childish and I agree. A relationship can only do well if there's communication.

The phone rings and I know that he's most likely asleep. Different timezones and all, but I still have hope.

"Hey," Jeongguk answers, but it comes out like a question. A deep and sleepy tone of voice filling my ears and making me emotional. Why did we let this continue for so long?

"I'm sorry," Sigh, "Guk what are we doing?" My voice cracks,  showing him and myself that this break has been affecting me. I almost roll my eyes at just how quickly I'd let my emotions come out. "How long are we going to continue this break up-"

"It's not a break up." He replies quickly.

"Then why do I feel like you've dumped me?"

There's shuffling on his end, "Soa, I can't talk about this over the phone right now. Please, just understand that we needed this break. If we're getting married, I don't know about you, but all the business that goes along with that scares me. What if we mess up and sign our lives away only to realise we no longer want each other? "

I note the if. My hope dies as soon as the words have settled in my ears. "Why would I leave you? You're literally my first boyfriend-"

"Marriage is much more than that, Soa. It's a lifelong commitment-"

"That I want with you, Jeongguk." I interrupt.

I feel like we're reliving the past. The scene reminds me of the day Jeongguk told me he'd gotten a girlfriend. A whole girlfriend while I had been in high school daydreaming about our future together. A future he'd agreed to.

"I'm coming back to Seoul next week and I'd really like to talk about everything in person. I don't think it's a conversation we can have over the phone." He sighs out taking on the role of the level-headed one again, but I let him.

"Okay," I agree, deciding to change the topic with, "How was your birthday?"

He falls into it easily. Not sparing any details on how he'd partied hard with some friends he made while in Italy. Hearing that he has a life outside of Seoul makes me slightly jealous because I can't relate, but I'm happy for him. He managed to have fun.

"I missed you guys though. Taehyung sent me this long voice recording. Jimin sent me some money and your brothers and Yoongi just kept telling me how much I've grown. Dad finally gave me the company, so it was good. All that was missing was you." He finishes, leaving a little silence.

"I'm assuming you were crying after the message I sent you?" Jeongguk teases.

It's embarrassing to admit, but I reply with, "Yeah, I did, but only because I've been on bed rest and it gets lonely." He laughs over the phone. "I'm sorry too. I miss you and I love you. Please let me know when you're back."

He ends the call with a promise to see me before he goes anywhere else. As usual he makes a kissing sound while I blush at the affection. Maybe we will be okay.

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A/N:

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