Namjoon's POV
Only three reasons?
Jealousy, 'I just hate you' and personal vendetta?
I thought to myself as I continued to stand right at the spot where Jin hyung had left me.

There's no way it could be jealousy since we were sort of on equal standing, we've been through a lot together and because of our past, we've always been grateful and content with what we had. So that's crossed out.

Then the second one being the 'I just don't like you' reason is even more impossible. Since if he had found me annoying or can't seem to stand to see my face, he wouldn't have stuck together with me and the whole gang for so long...

Then that only leaves the third and last reason, personal vendetta. But I don't remember ever offending him in any way. Personal vendetta? That's not possible...unless...
I know Jin's parent's had passed on, plus with our current situation...
Wait a minute. Don't tell me...
Those victims who died in the car accident... It was Jin's parents, wasn't it?

Oh my God...

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Jungkook's POV
I'm trembling so much.
Why though? It's not even cold.

Against my better judgment, my mind succumbed, and currently, I'm huddled up in the very corner of my temporary room. Sitting on the ground with my legs curled up against my chest, my fingers interlocked, hugging my knees tightly.

My mind was running at least thirty miles per second. A little too fast. I couldn't stop myself.
My mind once again starts to fill up with unnecessary "nutritional" information.

Hello, you missed me, Jungkookie?

Jungkook's eyes widened as he tried to reassure himself. He's dead. Don't worry.

Dead? You wound me Kookie. Haven't I said this before?
I am you, and so you are me.

I started to breathe a little heavier, a little unstable. As I tried my best to regulate my breathing. Doing my best to keep it as calm and constant as possible. Go away, I don't need you here.

So mean Jungkook, I am hurt you know.

I don't care, just get lost!

No can do Jungkook. I know what you were thinking and I simply cannot allow it.

What do you mean? What am I thinking?

You were considering of forgiving Namjoon weren't you?

I-I...

What, cat got your tongue?

...

I can't support you in this you know. You need to kill Namjoon and avenge your parents!

But he didn't-

Silence!
But he isn't innocent, is he?
After you kill him, you'll kill his parents too. Don't you think your parents deserve their justice?
Think about it, listen to me!

But what is justice? I questioned myself before looking towards the ceiling as a single tear rolled down my face, just like a raindrop that fell from the heavens and onto my face.

I....no.

No? Why do you mean no?!

You aren't me.
Who am I to speak of what justice is? Who am I to take another's life from him? Who am I to carry out a punishment to Namjoon hyung who is innocent, to begin with, and or to his parents? Not me.
Even if I do, there's no point. It's not like if I kill them my parents will come back to life. I'd rather them live especially with the knowledge that they caused their deaths.

...

It'll slowly corrode their mind, just like how you did to me.
You don't know what's best for me. Only I do. And I'm willing to let go.

No. No. No. you can't!

I forgive you Namjoon.
I forgive all of you.

NO-!

And at that very moment, I felt refresh. Fully stepping out of the dark shadow and chains of the past.
Open, and ready to move on.

I forgive, but never forget.

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Author's note:
I am so so sorry you all 💔
I know I haven't updated in like 8 weeks and I apologise (TT)
I spent like the first 2 weeks crying my eyes out for reasons :) and the rest was just me contemplating why I am in College. (Oh shit I exposed my age😱)

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