hello. im alive and deeply in my feels.

☽♛☾

ethan sat whining at you about your relationship. he wanted you guys to move in together and you had so much on your plate already. you were going through a dark time and ethan was just adding more.

all he ever did was talk about the both of you getting married one day, it felt so suffocating.

"...and me and grayson can film downstairs or something. it's gonna be so fun for us. i'm gonna be so happy." he smiled. you stood up and attempted to smile but it quickly fell.

"yeah," you agreed. "but what about me?"

his face went into a confused state as he stared at you. "what do you mean?"

"you didn't even bother asking me about all of this. you just planned it without even consulting me about it." you sighed. "what if i don't want all this?"

he stood up. "you don't want to be with me?"

"that's not what im saying, ethan. im saying, what if i don't want...i don't know. never mind," you dismissed the idea. your thoughts were scrambling around your head and you had no clue how to properly say what you felt.

ethan came to your side and grabbed your hands into his. "what do you want? do you want to be with me? or do you want to call it quits? you're not making sense right now, y/n. are you okay? can i help with something?"

you shook your head as you brought him in for tight hug. "don't let me go."

"i wouldn't think of it. you're my everything. there's times where i feel suffocated when im not with you. im madly in love with you and i will never let you go. not now, not ever."