My knees buckled and I dropped to the floor.

Jimin kneeled down next to me, holding my back. "I know it's a lot to take in, but you had to learn about it since your situation is dragging on for too long now. We have to stop this. You have to stay away from each other before you make a connection again."

I looked up at him. "We... already did..."

His eyes popped out in shock. "No..."

It was my fault...

He was trying so hard to leave me, but I begged him to come back to me like an idiot...

It's all because of me...

I bit my lips. "If he lets me live my life without coming to me and lets me pass away accordingly, we will break this curse and he can finally rest in peace, right?"

He nodded. "You must live with another man, so that your connection with him can die out along with his life."

I heaved a sigh before looking over the snow globes.

"If these really are my past lives, can I see them to confirm something?"

All the diaries... I had to see if it was real by my own eyes.

He nodded and pulled me up to the shelves. Taking the last globe, he handed it to me.

"Place your hand in the slot below it and close your eyes."

I obliged and did as told, fluttering my eyes closed.

I gasped when I saw hundreds of events happening.

What's more shocking was that Taehyung was in almost every single one of them.

"Why don't you take a nap, Sera? It's a long drive," he told me. That was when he put me into an accident, killing me.

I was sure of it now... All the diaries, the weird dream I had, his employees' words, how he left me so suddenly, and why he always seemed to have a sorrowful gleam in his eyes whenever they held me...

My heart cried.

It cried understanding how much pain he had to go through, how much he wanted to end it all but just couldn't bring himself to do that...

I couldn't imagine how much tears he spilled after having to kill me again and again and again.

I, together with time, must have been breaking his soul little by little for centuries.

My tears were streaming down my face as I had trouble breathing. My coughing fit came back and I tried so hard to stop it.

Jimin rubbed my back, trying to soothe me.

"How will I die this lifetime?"

He swallowed hard before muttering, "Cancer... You have two and a half months to live..."

I gasped in horror.

"You should go to the hospital sooner, Rena."

"B-But that's..."

Before I fell to the ground, Jimin held me up.

This early?

Then I don't have much time...

♾♾♾

For nearly a month, I tried visiting my parents and spending time with Taehyung and Evelyn more than before.

She heard everything from Jimin and came to me crying once she did. I tried assuring her that I was fine and that it wasn't his fault at all.

Her state hurt my heart and I felt guilty for leaving her so soon.

With Taehyung, I wanted to spend each second of my time together without regrets, and treasured every single moment we shared together. It was the last time we would be together after all...

I had to free him from his misery.

My condition worsened and even though I wanted to stay with him longer, I also wanted to stop my suffering sooner.

It was time.

Today was the last day I would spend with him... The last day I would live as Rena.

Finishing writing my will for my parents to read, I took my bag and headed out to send it by postal mail. I wrote that I could no longer bear the pain and wanted to pass away earlier.

I knew they would be shocked to read that, but it had to be done. I had no other way...

When I saw Taehyung standing outside my dorm, waiting for me for our date, I ran up to him and crashed into him, squeezing him tight.

"Wha- Rena?"

"I missed you..."

The whole day, I focused on making it the best day ever. I couldn't help but hug him every now and then when a wave of anxiety hit me. He would caress my head and kiss it to ease me whenever I did.

We were now in his house, sitting on the couches opposite each other, chatting and laughing together.

All of my anxiety has disappeared and all I could feel was the love we had for each other.

Taking a sip from the wine, I heaved a sigh before asking him, "Do you have a gun?"

He froze, looking at me in shock.

"W-What?"

I looked up at him with a sad smile. "My death is coming nearer... Don't you think it's time for you to kill me before that happens?"

His breathing seemed to stop and his face became drained of all colors.

"Y-You know?"

I placed the glass down and walked over to him before sitting on his lap.

"I know how long you have been suffering, Tae," I whispered, holding his face. "Being cursed to live as an immortal soul... It must be more painful than anything, watching the people you care about die before your eyes, feeling as if time doesn't exist... I can't even begin to imagine what it was like for you."

A tear escaped my eye.

"Killing me for so many times... It must have felt beyond horrible for you..."

His lips trembled as he began to cry before me. His shiny exterior he always showed me shattered and he looked so broken as he clutched my hands.

"I hurt you this lifetime, too. It's all my fault. I should have listened to you when you said that you were leaving me for my sake... I'm sorry, Taehyung."

He shook his head, sniffing. "I was able to be with you one more time... Don't blame yourself for my suffering."

I took a deep breath.

"I'm sorry I couldn't break your curse this lifetime... I promise you that I will break it the next."

I took out a gun from my back pocket and placed it in his hand as his eyes widened.

"This time, I'm giving you the permission to kill me," I said, smiling and bringing the gun up against my heart.

He inhaled sharply, breathing shakily and crying more. Wanting to tell him it was okay, I held his face again and connected our foreheads.

"Don't worry, pull the trigger now." Holding his hand that pointed the gun at me, I gestured for him to do it.

I leaned closer and took his lips in mine, kissing him deeply. I could taste both of our tears as they flowed into the kiss.

I poured in all of my love in this last kiss, showing him how much he meant to me.

And then... the gunshot echoed throughout the room.

♾♾♾

"I will need my memories for my next life, so please don't take them away from me."

Jimin nodded and led me to an elevator. "I wasn't going to, anyway."

Before the doors closed, I looked up at him with pleading eyes. "Please be by Taehyung's side whenever he's in pain."

With a soft smile, he nodded.

"Of course."

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