Pouring out my emotions through these words

Dump all the hate and malice and all that I feel

So that one day maybe I can finally be starting to heal

Its like I had all this joy but someone came to steal

And I don't even know who or what is their deal

Just soaks up all my happiness like water in dry sand

And this is a desert, water is pretty hard to come by

But when it does come by I pour it there, still its dry

What do I really need, is it some alcohol or weed

What substance can make me feel, once again

In the positive side of my mind, the memories remind

That I was once normal and felt everything was good

Now I sulk around, unable to stop my being rude

Even when I fake my smiles and laughter it passes away

Even when its genuine joy, it doesn't stay

For even a few seconds, just melts away

Gone away so fast, while the sadness stays there

Like my mind is its permanent resting place.