Why can't we start over like in the video games

Wanna erase myself, reset my save, remember no names

Remember no dark thoughts, have no shames

Pursue my dreams rather than tame and crush them

Ask my crush out rather than forget about them

I really wish I had the courage to do it, just go and rush them

But whenever I had the thoughts to do so, I just shushed them

And now I'm broken and complicated and the thoughts, I can't articulate them

Darkness inside me to put black to shame, I don't want to disgust them

But the only way to avoid that is to distance them

But then my coldness would incense them

And if not, then how long long can I live a lie to impress them

Don't judge these 3 am thoughts of a mind feeling depression.