Her skin, once as clear as crystal

was now covered in wounds of hurt and betrayal.

For every insult that pierced her soul

she gave an ounce of her blood, flesh and mind.

To keep away from the voices in her head,

that told her she was better off dead. 

So she could escape the harsh reality 

to a world without the forsaken souls.

And be the queen of her wonderland,

a mystic world unlike any other.

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blaringlights

Words hurt, its true. While physical wounds may heal and fade away, emotional or mental wounds never do. They always stay in your mind, haunting you and leaves you questioning your worth. Hence in many ways, emotional abuse is more psychologically harmful than physical abuse.

Emotional abuse is more personal than physical abuse, as it's more about you as a person and about your spirit. Always be careful about what you say because the person who says it doesn't get affected, the person who hears it does. These words affect the listener's self esteem and confidence and can in turn change their lives forever.

I've met people who've chosen self-harm as an option because of the names they are called or when the times get tough. They feel good at the time they do it but regret it later on.

A friend of mine, an acquaintance back then, had done this to herself and wore long sleeves to cover them. I was shocked and horrified when I saw them the first time when she's accidentally lifted her sleeves and as soon as the shock wore off, I went over and started talking to her. 

After getting to know her, I suggested she draw what she felt instead of harming herself because she can draw beautifully. With time, she's stopped harming herself and channels all the emotion she felt inside onto her canvas to produce the most amazing pictures you will ever see.

Self harm shouldn't ever be an option you latch yourself to when things get worse. I know its hard, I really do, but don't cave in to the temptation. As much as you want some relief from the pain you feel inside, there are so many other ways you can do so.

Talk to someone, listen to music, go for a walk, journal your thoughts, cry your heart out, watch your favorite movie or tv show, scream into a pillow, squeeze a stress ball, dance to your favorite beats or indulge yourself in an activity that will take your mind of the things that have been troubling you. 

As easy as it may seem for me to say this, I know the process of getting better and choosing a healthier alternative for self-harm is a very long and hard one that takes a lot of tears, energy and mental work. 

So thank you to everyone who has done their best to get out the loop to those who may have tried and relapsed along with those who try their best to stay afloat no matter. I see you and I'm so glad you're here. Thank you for staying, it must have been hard but it'll be worth it. Trust me on that. 

I've always been a good listener, anyone who knows me can attest to that and I guess I'm like this because I know what it's like to not be heard. I listen to them rant all the time and then suggest something that might help them.  So do know:

My inbox is always open to anyone who needs a listener.