WOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooo....oooo....ooo. wh o o?? ?

So I won't sugar-coat. I've had a pretty shitty month. I haven't gotten any real writing done in a long time. My head gets fuzzier and fuzzier and I can't seem to think straight at all. I waste entire days sitting around doing LITERALLY nothing. Even writing this short journal is ridiculously draining. It's frustrating because I'm really inspired!! I've got like a gazillion ideas that I'm really excited about!! I just can't seem to jot it down. It's disheartening, as I'm actually on meds again. I'm supposed to be getting better, but it's like my life adjusts itself accordingly to leave me back at square one every time I try and take a step forward. It's... not a great feeling.

And, as of today, I'm 24 (like a decade older than most of you). I have literally nothing to show for it. I have to go get a really invasive medical exam in a couple of hours, and I could cry just thinking about it. Then I have a few hours of downtime until I have to go to my job that I cannot stand. My mom and siblings got me presents that I plan to open in the afternoon, which was nice for like an hour, but my sister has already withdrawn hers after spending a couple of hours screaming at me at four in the morning. Because I'm a bully, apparently, but I won't get into that now. It would take a whole year.

All in all, I guess I've at least made it another year. I'd say something funny, like "at least it can't get any shittier than this!" but I feel like that would be inviting some kind of meteor-related tragedy.

Happy birthday to me!!! I guess???