I always overload myself with projects and I've gone and made it worse!! I've committed myself to eventually drawing up reference sheets for ALL of my main original characters— that's at least 23 people. At least. 25 if we're including the fact that two of them go through some costume changes.

I've had to accept the fact that I'm just really bad at actually DRAWING. Like, anatomy. I reference way too heavily and can't freehand a person for shit. But in the process of updating my deviant art, I stumbled upon horrific powers... YCH commissions. Pay to use bases. Patreon reward reference sheets. All totally legitimate and properly credited/paid for ways I could solve my anatomy woes! I mean, not YCH commissions, but utilizing those allows me to not worry about it by paying someone else to draw that particular picture instead.

To make a long story short, I've been faving things like mad in search of a perfect reference collection. And I've commissioned like four art pieces. I've only technically won and paid for three and am still bidding on the fourth in an auction, but I intend to win it, so we'll say it's four!

Anyway, uh. Would any of you actually consider commissioning me? For art, I mean. It's probably something I won't have set up for a while, but my family could really use some extra income (especially now that my father's fuckin dead and we don't have his little bit of extra financial help to rely on anymore) and I've been thinking of ways to do relatively cheap, easy commissions to make a little side money. Right now I'm looking into making some adoptables, and I already have some SUPER CUTE ideas for them! I've got four planned as of now. Along with the usual eight thousand other things.

Anyway, check this adorable shit out! One of the people I commissioned works ridiculously fast and she finished this artwork of my new avatar. I will definitely utilize it here in some way!! (The background is showing up black for some reason. I guess Wattpad doesn't recognize transparent images.)

In other news, I'm gonna go see Welcome to Night Vale LIVE for the third goddamn time on Wednesday, and I actually made a new friend via work! Went over to his house twice last week and actually had a good time. It's almost got my mind off of my SOUL CRUSHING DEPRESSION :'D

Yeah tbh I'm in a really shitty place right now and half of these projects are just my way of making myself get excited enough about something to get out of bed. I keep having recurring thoughts about how much better off everyone around me would be if I died. I'm not exactly suicidal, but it's not a pleasant feeling. :/

That said, I'm trying. I'm trying my damnedest.