I loved him from the deepest corners of my heart

I trusted him with all the faith I could muster

I idolized him like a devoted devotee
I was a seed requiring nourishing and direction

He nurtured me with care and patience of a father

He spoilt me with everything I ever wished for 

He loved me like none other
I was his baby

The baby for whom he could even take death upon himself

But then why did he break my
sweet bubble of life

Made me witness the last breath of my father

I still see flashes of
My dad suffering and writhing in pain

My family crushed under the blow of betrayal

I was numb
I was broken
I was confused

My heart begged me trust him
Trust the man who always protected his family like a shield

The man who took the oath of taking every upcoming problem upon himself
But my mind didn't agree

It made me despise the man who hurt his family like a prick
Crumpled our belief like a piece of paper
Broke our hearts with a click of the gun

But this was not enough that another shock came drilling in us
He did this for money, for a piece of paper

I suddenly became aware of this power hungry world
The steely and crafty minds of people

I had ignored people say about families fighting with their own blood for money and property
Thinking it to be crap

But I never knew that this ruthless experience awaited me

The little Rudy boy shuddered and hid inside
What came out was the rude and tough
Rudra Singh Oberoi

The RSO who broke rules and did everything he was told not to 
I crossed my limits, my ideals long forgotten

I did everything my shivaay bhaiya would never want me to do
Cause I wanted to hurt him the way he hurt me

When he came back the Rudy in me was out
I wanted to go and hug him
But the chains of ego and disgust pulled me back

Blackmailed me to stab his heart with poisonous words

I was stuck in a emotional jinx

One part of me wanted to scream my pain out , punish him

But one part wanted him to slap me and pull my ears for my behavior

I saw my superman broken and vulnerable

My heart ached to see the once strong and mighty SSO change to a weak man scared of everything

The man who claimed to be the bright sun was now succumbing to the eerie silence of the dark

The man who's phone was broken in every ten seconds now remains untouched

He lost everything that made him SSO
And I lost my shivaay bhaiya who made me Rudy

I hurt him, not once not twice but thousand times with words

Played with his emotions like a toy

But what I didn't realize was that while hurting him I was loosing bits of myself

I broke my tube of frustration on him

Did something that I wanted to slap myself for

I hit him and o

But one fact that made me happy was that the SSO was back

He changed
He started changing me
I craved for this
I loved this
I wanted this, didn't I

But still the flashes of that day didn't stop haunting me

Every thought of him
Every memory of us
Continuously Played around in my mind

I once again saw the concern filled eyes of his when the goons were beating the pulp out of me

Witnessed the rage he had against everyone who even touched me

He saved me not only from the clutches of betting but also from the clutches of revenge

He made me realize that he did not change I did

I scrapped every thought pulling me in the spiral of revenge and hate

And

He brought pieces of me back and made me his Rudra....

🔼🔼 The end 🔼🔼

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Hey guys, just as promised here is Rudy's pov... Wanted to write this from a long time... Also I guess not many people are reading this book as they think it does not have shivika.... But it does  ...loads of it is coming up... Share the word with as many as possible.... Also do tell me if you guys want anything specific.....
Ik you guys ain't telling anything.... But just saying jic....

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Yours truly,
Kamakshi.