Hey guys suddenly had an urge to write tons of stuff and get my mind cleared of a bit. So presenting to you the first article.

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One day i was fine but from the next day I was feeling low, kept crying, loss of appetite and the most difficult part of my day was to TALK

Every small thing hurt me, pierced my heart, slapped my face with failure

I stumbled my way with things I stammered while speaking

I felt lonely though i was always surrounded by people

Loud voices and arguments scared me

The whole day i just wanted to run into the soothing grasp of sleep

The one who was used to talk nonstop started to limit her herself

The one who used to be carefree started to add layers of filters on herself

I always thought I was strong as a mountain but i never knew that there were cracks in me which on touched became scars

I left the buzzing parties resorting to the locked washroom echoing with silent snobs

I wanted people to talk to me help me out but at the same time telling them about me scared me

I built a wall around myself not to make myself away but to see who breaks it to reach me

I waited, wished for a wise superman to come and sort my mess of a life

Then instead of day dreaming of fun and frolic I dreamt of cries and red swollen eyes

I wanted to run away from the prying eyes of the society to the safety of solitude

Many times I wanted to cry but my eyes tired of the suffering didn't let tears out

I moved like a zombie in broad daylight but when when asked about it I put my happy life facade on

Why? I don't know ..I wish i knew

I could not handle it anymore

I didn't want the pretence anymore

I didn't want the fear of being caught crying

I didn't want the constant lines on my forehead

I realised I was distancing everyone

Running away from problems

Wanting to suicide

This was not how I imagined my life

I dreamt of fun and love

I wanted to make it a bed of roses

Yeah the same me

I waited for magic

I wished for happiness

I knew it no one is ever break that wall

Tired of waiting with longing eyes

I rose out of the cage I caged myself in

Broke the wall I once built

Wore the cape of I don't care if you judge me

A mask of genuine happiness

And cleared the mess I created

BY underestimating my power

By considering myself not capable

By hating everything about me

By caring about what family will say

By trying to be the perfect daughter, student, friend and sister

I became my superwoman and saved myself from falling into the pit of depression

'God help those who help themselves'

Trust me there is no better go to person than yourself

You have the power to heal your heart and stop it from falling into the traps of dark emotions

Cry when you want

Don't let anyone judge you

'Your tears are your tears none of their tears'

Express if not to anyone else do it to yourself by speaking loudly in front of the mirror

It works wonders

Discover yourself

Love yourself

Have dates with yourself

Party alone jumping on the bed with snazzy songs playing

crack inside jokes that only you and the mini you inside you know

Don't get worried about people calling you mad

They have the tendency to forget in a second

Tease, joke around yourself, share your day in videos

Keep these videos in the deepest chambers of your phone and cherish them

Rejoicing to the old you

Celebrating the new you

In all these ups and downs FIND AND DISCOVER THE REAL YOU

I know Its easy said then done

But you got to stand up, dust the weight of feelings off

Stand straight with head high with pride

Carry the smile that gives you butterflies in your stomach rather than the one which gives you a pit in the stomach

Find your own mantra to smile

Because

When you smile everything is fine

When you smile everything will be perfect

Once you cheer up we will sort out everything

If you are good everything is better 

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       Hola guys hope you like this one!! It came from the deepest corners of my heart!!  I wanted to start this book with a social awareness!!  This topic was on my mind due to the world mental health day!! I hope I was able to do justice to the emotions!! Do comment and share if you feel this article deserves it!! 💕💕💕

Also do tell me if you want me to write on any specific topic!!! I am wearing my writing cap!!

Yours truly,
Kamakshi.