Well, guys, I just read chapter 83 this morning. I wasn't able to read it right after it came out because I was at summer camp without any phones or internet! Yay! I opened up my WattPad this morning and @Ackermanlet had posted a new chapter on their book and I went, "OH WAIT. SHIIIIT. I'VE GOT TO READ THAT."

I went and read it.

Mid-chapter, I looked away from the screen and cried. No, no, I sobbed. I stopped and sobbed. Right when that random character dragged Erwin up onto the roof, I had a major realization, and I cried. Can I admit something really fast? I didn't cry at all when Armin died. I don't know if it was just because I wasn't in the AOT mood when I read the chapter or if I instinctively knew that Armin was probably going to come back to life just because there was this serum floating around. I dunno, guys, I dunno. I don't know why I didn't cry because Armin's my favorite character! (Whoa, yeah, it's not Levi, haha.)

Even though I didn't cry when I initially believed that Armin was dead, I cried really hard when I realized that he was breathing and that Levi would have to choose between Armin and Erwin. I shouted, "I KNEW IT," and then continued sobbing like a baby.

Here's the thing ...

I feel like this chapter is splitting the fandom right down the middle - #teamArmin or #teamErwin. Some might say, "No, just split the serum in half," but there are many flaws with this if it happened. We saw that when Rod Reiss licked the serum off of the floor in way earlier chapters when we were all unsure if Historia was our enemy or not, he was deformed. He became a retarded titan. Now, we don't know if this was caused because he didn't eat another shifter or if it's because he took the wrong dosage, but I don't know if a rooftop in the middle of a battlefield is the best place to experiment with that.

Even if taking the wrong dosage isn't what made Rod Reiss deformed and it was the titan shifters, then there's still the problem of ... there's only one Bertholdt to be eaten since Zeke has stolen Reiner and plus, they'd have to cut Bertholdt in half. Even then, even then, if they cut Bertholdt in half, as soon as one of them eats him, are Bertholdt's titan powers gone? Do they leave? If the powers leave right after his spinal fluid is ingested, then that means that they have to eat him at the exact same time - and I mean exactly the same time - or one of them is a mindless titan forever.

So it does look like one of them is going to die. We don't know which yet, but it doesn't seem like it's gonna be both, at this point. Maybe Hanji comes in and is like, "Back off; I'm actually great at First Aid and can save Erwin!" because honestly, Armin needs the serum more than Erwin. Erwin's in critical condition, but Armin's in an extreme critical condition. Armin not only is burned to a crisp, but has fallen 60 meters. With this logic, Armin should be dead. He should be, but he isn't. To me, that kind of pissed me off, because I felt like Armin had such nice speech before his death and to have him be brought back after only one chapter feels a little wrong. Don't get me wrong, I love Armin as much as the next dude, but I felt like his speech and his death had such a nice powerful impact that it was the time to end it.

There are those who think that Armin's character has served its purpose. He was the tactical person in the Shiganshina trio who helped Eren and now Bertholdt is captured - not dead yet, but close it - and Eren's gonna go see the ocean for him and all that. So now, they say, Armin doesn't have much else to do.

I completely disagree! Completely and absolutely disagree with them. Armin has so much left to do. This is going to be a bit biased because I am emotionally invested in Armin (but I'm also emotionally invested in Erwin) and I think Armin's the most like me, if I were anyone in the AOT universe, but I really want Armin to see the ocean. Armin has had such a sad life. His parents died and I have plenty more theories on them later, but so did his grandpa and I feel like no one appreciates just how hard his life has been. Armin is actually really strong but he just didn't seem to realize that, but right there at his speech I felt like Armin felt truly good about himself. He told Eren that he wasn't brave and Eren was like, No, no, you've got it wrong, but Armin I feel like fulfilled his goal of being the brave one that saved lives.

Then again, it could also go the other way because at the same time, I was getting a sort of vibe like Armin still thought he wasn't brave enough and all he could ever do was be the one who was supportive, never doing the actual glorified deeds. I would hate it if Armin died believing that, but I'm more on the side that Armin was pretty content when he died. Armin had to make himself content because who wants to die with regrets? Nobody in this universe does and it actually hits on that very openly with Levi's character.

Talking so much about Armin but there's also Erwin and Levi's emotional attachment to Erwin. This entire choice is going to be decided by Levi who was entrusted with the serum by Erwin. Back in chapter 82, I think Levi had the idea in his head that if he can only save one person, it was going to be Erwin without a doubt. He knew Erwin was either critically injured or dead but he held onto the hope that he would find him in the mess of bodies on the battlefield or something along those lines. However, he knew that if he didn't find him quickly, then he'd have to use the serum on another soldiers. Levi was reluctant to do this because Erwin was his first choice, but while fighting that horde of titans, I think Levi was starting to accept that Erwin had died and that he had to avenge him by making sure everything went according to plan and the mission succeeded.

So, Levi's very upset over the fact that he can't save Erwin, and he finally reaches the top of Wall Maria, titan blood evaporating off of him like he's some mythical being come from the fog. Zeke sees Levi and has what seems to be more of a frustrated, "Oh, shit, really??" moment for a panel or two and then he calls Levi some sort of monster. This is not the first time that Levi's been called something like this. During the uprising arc, Levi had the squad attack an MP post and they cut off their legs and stuff, remember? Levi's interrogating someone by a tree and then the man yells, "You're insane!" and Levi just looks at him with a cold face and goes, "Maybe I am," and shoves his boot in the man mouth. I just thought that was an interesting correlation. I think it's because people will look at Levi's actions and on the outside, Levi acts pretty insane. He's a pretty interesting character.

I was watching a YouTube video and somebody mentioned the fact that Isayama played favoritism with Levi but somebody else asked how could it possibly be favoritism if everyone in Levi's life has died?

Well, there are two types of favoritism: the kind where all the experiences happen to someone and they get everything they want, or the kind where all the shitty stuff happens to one character.

I like to think that Isayama does a good job of balancing this out. Like, he doesn't play lots of favoritism, but I'm looking at Levis character and yeah, Isayama has played some reverse favoritism with him. Levi lost his mom, lost his uncle, never knew his dad, lost Farlan and Isabel, then he lost his entire squad, and now he's going to lose Erwin, too? I just think it's kind of unfair to the character. However, it's not too bad because everyone in AOT seems to have had a shitty past.

Connie lost his mom as she was turned into a titan (no one seems to care that Connie handled it super well)

Sasha was pretty much shunned by her hunting village because she ate so much food

Jean was bullied as a kid for being bigger than the others

Eren's mom and dad have died plus the other kids resented him

Armin got bullied and lost both his mom, dad, and grandfather

Mikasa's family was murdered right in front of her

Levi has lost too many people

Erwin's father was killed by the MP's and it's all Erwin's fault

Marlo died

Since I've been listing these, I've realized we don't know too much about Hanji or have I just forgotten when we discovered lots of info about her? We do know that Hanji's squad was killed by Kenny Ackerman when they went with Levi, though.

You see, everyone's had some bad stuff happen to them, but Levi's is like W H O A that's bad.

The point is, Levi doesn't have too many people left. He has Hanji and Erwin. Levi has lost too many people in his life and he doesn't want to lose another one. So he was all depressed that he couldn't save Erwin and the loneliness was probably just setting in as he stood atop Wall Maria. If you look at his face, he looks tired.

He also looks sad. Honestly, he just looks done with the world. His face is the epitome of the phrase, "Fuck this." At this point, he doesn't know where Erwin or Hanji is and those are the main people that he cares about right now. Those are the two people he has left that he really, really cares about. They've been his friends for the five years that he should've felt loneliest.

Have you ever noticed that everyone from the Ackerman family has a person they protect? The Ackerman bloodline was a bloodline that was genetically enhanced because they were the natural protectors of the royal family, which explains why Levi and Mikasa are just super OP at times, and thus protecting is just a natural thing that they do.

Mikasa protects Eren.

Kenny protected ... that one guy that I just half an hour looking for. It was the one Kenny admired.

Levi protects Erwin, I think, more than Hanji, but essentially them both.

Protection runs in the family.

Okay, so Levi honestly on the outside, Levi's like this giant ball of stone-wall-ness like, "I'm badass and I can kill anything with no emotion! YEAH!" but on the inside he's like a little mama bear saying, "Sh, sh, Eren, it's cool I'll protect you and make sure you make it out alive and Erwin, don't you fucking dare say anything about dying because I won't allow that to happen! Hanji, you okay? Mikasa and Armin are okay, right? How many men did we lose this time? I hope not too many ..." He looks cold on the outside but he's warm and cuddly on the inside. He's my favorite type of character that's nice and well-rounded. You can really get into Levi's mindset and just think for a moment like how he thinks.

I don't know if you've noticed or not, but Levi's old. He's a full grown adult and he feels tired. He's sad, he's lonely, he's tired, and he honestly wants to stop fighting and settle down. He has the sense that he's done so much that he just can't take it anymore and he wants all of his friends safe and sound, living with him. No more death and dying and stressful missions. Peace. Safety.

Also, I just love indirect characterization, guys. It's great.

This choice on who survives is in the hands of Levi. Levi has been acting really emotional these last few chapters. In chapter 81, instead of killing Zeke automatically like he should've done, he wanted Zeke to suffer for causing so much harm and damage, I think, to Erwin mostly but also the entire Scouting Regiment. Levi acted emotional by stabbing him through the roof of his mouth and out through his eye instead of slitting his nape right then and there. He paid some consequences for that, absolutely. That was not normal Levi behavior, but now Zeke's really hurt people he cares about and people pay for that crap.

Not to mention, Levi shouted in the middle of a battle, "I PROMISED HIM!" referring to Erwin and he actually had multiple facial expressions. Recently, Levi has been looking sad, tired, angry, upset, and alone. None of these are the preferable emotions I wish for this character to feel, but there isn't much to be happy about. He doesn't know about Hanji and he doesn't know about Erwin, at that point. The first time I think I've seen Levi look content is when Historia went up and punched him right after Kenny, his uncle, died. Remember how everyone was like, "Holy shit she actually did it!" but Levi gave a sort of smile and played it off. I think this was because the main thing that'd been nagging him was that he didn't understand why Kenny left him and perhaps Levi believed that he was the reason. I think Levi lived his life believing that he'd done something really wrong to push Kenny away from him, but in reality Kenny was just too much of a puss to care for a kid. Kenny got overwhelmed with sudden father syndrome and couldn't do it. Kenny didn't believe he could be a good enough parent to Levi.

All Levi's ever wanted in his life was a family who he could care for and they would love him back.

I think Erwin and Hanji have become this sort of family to him. Levi has not made any real emotional connection with Armin but he has all this backstory and feelings with Erwin who is colleague, best friend, and person he trusts the most. Levi really cares for Erwin but Levi knows next to nothing about Armin and I don't think he'd be too affected by his death if it happened. However, because he cares for Erwin so much, no one should be surprised that Levi changed his mind so quickly. Not a single person. Levi wanted to save Erwin already but since he couldn't find him, Levi had accepted that fact and just said he was going to save another "important" person. But Erwin shows up and Levi's like, "Oh, great, yay, I can save you!"

In the media, it shows Levi's face right when he realizes that Erwin's right there and he has the opportunity to save him. What do you think his face shows? Which emotions? I think it's surprise and shock. Underneath the surface, I think Levi was feeling relieved, like he could've taken a giant sigh and went, "Oh, thank goodness, I thought you'd died."

So there are multiple factors in how this going to be decided. I don't think you can save both of them, but maybe if they use the serum on Armin and they somehow make sure that Erwin doesn't lose too much blood, then maybe that's how it happens. But I'm pessimistic and have to say something about it.

So Erwin is kind of old, too. Erwin's been reaching the end of the rope for a few chapters now and I think that he's pretty tired as well. He's like Levi in a lot of ways - tired of all the fighting and just wants to free humanity. Erwin has great intentions and he feels truly guilty about all the soldiers he thinks he's sent to their deaths, which he really has. Erwin is the commander of the Scouting Regiment and people die a lot in that corp. It's a fact of joining, but Erwin feels like if he'd done things differently then he could've saved so many people.

The most impactful thing I've seen of Erwin was when Isayama showed a panel of Erwin standing atop a giant pile of bodies that contained Mike, Levi's squad, and a few other honorable mentions just to show how much it really weighs down on Erwin's soul every single day. It'd be hard to wake up as Erwin because you'd feel like you'd killed so many people. It would be awful. Farlan and Isabel were among the ghosts that surrounded him in another panel. The deaths of his comrades weigh down heavily upon him.

With the suicide charge he pulled, I think Erwin felt like he was finally paying for all those deaths. He gave his all including his humanity and his arm and all that's left to give is his life. Erwin feels he needs to pay the dead back but then he thought he'd done it with the charge. He'd served his time for humanity.

Because this is how Erwin feels, I have a theory that I believe is pretty practical in context. Levi obviously cares a lot about Erwin and will be almost injecting Erwin with the serum when Erwin suddenly gains consciousness and has a talk with Levi. I bet you that Erwin is going to insist that Levi give the serum to Armin no matter what. I brought up Erwin's age earlier and I legitimately think that's going to play a role in who gets the serum, as well. Erwin is done. Erwin is ready to move on, but saving Armin could mean that the new generation has a good leader as well. Over time, Armin will eventually become another Erwin. Armin and Erwin are the same character from different walks of life essentially.

Erwin's totally gonna say, Levi, I've served my time, it's time for somebody else to take over. Levi is going to protest it. He's always believed in Erwin and his message and his orders, but this will be one of those orders he will have a hard time accepting. When Levi gives the serum to Armin, he's killing Erwin.

That's what I think is really going to happen next chapter.

There are more theories, though, involving the way that Mikasa and Levi were looking at each other right before the chapter ended.

So Levi said they were giving the serum to Armin and she comes and steps up and you would expect her to look ready to fight him since Eren has already just glared Levi down and Armin's been her best friend since childhood, but she looked more worried and on the edge of just freaking out entirely. Like: "A-Armin ... ? Armin?" I feel is what's going through her mind in that moment. But anyways, Levi and Mikasa look at each other and she does look like she's ready to protest with a shaky voice but at the same time, depending on how you look at it, it sort of looks like she and Levi are on the same page. I think Mikasa understands where Levi is coming from wholeheartedly but she doesn't want to accept it. I think Eren has done the same thing as well because when Levi says he's saving the man who can save the world, Eren backs off with his glaring for a moment and really thinks about it.

You can either think of it as Team Levi and Team Eren or Team Erwin and Team Armin, but since I'm pretty sure Erwin wanted to die on the battlefield even though he also wants to see the basement, maybe it should be Team Levi instead of Team Erwin because Erwin kind of, well, wants to die and that would basically be Team Armin.

So ... what team am I on?

Well, I think the person that should be saved in the storyline is Armin because he does promise hope for generations to come and Erwin is already pretty old. I think Erwin's character is pretty much done. He's just another unfortunate casualty in this long war. It's unfortunate and I'm gonna cry. Armin makes the most sense for the story.

However, if I put my feelings into it, I would want Erwin to be chosen just because I think Levi's had too much heartbreak in his life already. All he'll have left is Hanji. Another member of his family gone and that just really sucks, doesn't it? Too many people have been lost.

Although, I'm hoping for some mysterious third option where both of them survive, like I mentioned earlier, maybe they give Armin the serum and Hanji swoops in and takes care of Erwin's own problems with some magical medical skills. Wouldn't that be great? Everybody saved! But it's unlikely that will happen, but if it does I called it.

Mikasa's actually pretty important this chapter. So on the last few panels, she's giving Levi these looks but before that she readied her sword - in preparation for a fight? Maybe. But who's she gonna fight? Part of me thinks she'll tackle Levi and wrestle him for the serum, but the other part is reminding me that in desperate situations when the people she cares about are threatened, Mikasa's does some sometimes stupid stuff. What if instead of wrestling Levi for the serum to save Armin, she just kills Erwin so there's no choice? What if that happened?

Would I be upset with Mikasa? Probably, but the other half wouldn't simply because I know that Erwin was probably going to ask Levi to give the serum to Armin anyways. Giving the serum to Erwin is such an emotional choice on Levi's part and I think Levi's just been all over the place these last few chapters, y'know? I don't wanna rule it out as a possibility, but honestly, I think Armin's going to end up getting the serum.

Yeah, that sucks. I'm trying not to think about it too much, but with Erwin's epic speech right before he went on a suicide charge, I think he had some great last few words. I think he was a great character. Unfortunately, I think he was sort of like Mike in that people didn't appreciate him enough. At least, not here on WattPad. The Eruri shippers appreciated him, though. So did the EruHan shippers.

But the people who tick me off the most are the ones who think he's some heartless bastard sending people to their pointless deaths.

Another theory is that Mikasa and Levi wrestle for the serum, but in the struggle, it falls off the roof or something and nobody gets it. That would be just tragic, wouldn't it. I feel like that's some Isayama would do to us, but then again he could just give us hell for a month and be like, "Nope, SURPRISE BOTH OF THEM LIVE AHAHAHA. Scared ya, didn't I?"

So we've spent almost 4000 words on Erwin, Levi, and Armin and who's going to get the serum, but there was the whole other factor with Ymir's letter and the theory that Ymir is probably dead. I really hope she isn't dead and is just hiding off the page back in Bertholdt and Reiner's village, but a part of me is really doubtful that this is the case. I actually really like Ymir's character, so it would honestly be really heartbreaking if she died, for me anyways. (YumiKuri wouldn't live ;-;)

Also, just look at how far all the characters have come and I don't think we're seeing character development necessarily, but rather the result of earlier character development. Take Armin, for example, who used to be the least brave of them all and now he's managed to do this great feat. Especially Sasha and Connie! They have become so much braver. They are great and people need to appreciate them more. I will write a fanfic about them if no one does!

Do you think the random soldier that found Erwin is anything more important? Like, does he have a more important role than he's already played? Okay, let's list all the theories:

1. Levi and Mikasa fight for the serum but in the process and end up breaking it; neither of them live.

2. Mikasa kills Erwin so that Levi has to give Armin the serum.

3. Levi goes against Eren and Mikasa's wishes and saves Erwin anyways.

4. Levi is going to give Erwin the serum but Erwin wakes up and tells him to give the serum to Armin. Levi eventually does. Erwin dies.

5. Same as four except Hanji somehow saves Erwin.

6. The fodder character gets the serum.

7. The fodder character was a titan all along.

8. Ymir's dead.

9. Ymir's being held captive in Bertholdt and Reiner's village.

10. Zeke is probably Eren's uncle. (You can't show them side by side and then NOT have them be related like that.)

11. Levi gives himself the serum.

Have any more? Tell me in the comments because I feel like I've analyzed this so much that there can't possibly be more and I'd be really interested to see what you come up with, haha.

The video is "Maya" - Ian Clarke, flute duet with piano accompaniment.

While I was away at fine arts camp for a ten or so days, there were live performances from the staff and other people almost every night. When I say fine arts, I mean all the arts including theater, music, visual art, etc. I have to confess something: I've had a huge, absolutely debilitating writers block (writers' block? writer's block? How do you write that?).

It's not that I don't know what to do next because I fixed that problem before it even started by planning out all my stories before starting them. The problem is the creative part, the choice of words, creating the atmosphere and other things like that. It's not happening. The words are hiding away somewhere in dark, inaccessible corners, taunting me with singsong voices.

Hey, wait, that didn't sound too bad.

Anyways, the creative part doesn't come as easily anymore and I blame puberty, as it's making me grow up and be more ... involved, you could say, in reality. I can't take my mind out of the real world and write the situations as good as I used to. It's been so frustrating to know what's gonna happen, you know how you want it to turn out and yet you can't do it. You can't write it.

This is legitimately the first time I've ever had writers block. I've been writing almost all the time since I was eight-years-old and now it's just not happening as easily.

Well, now I'm getting off point. The gist of this is that while I was at fine arts camp, the faculty played this song and immediately I could feel myself becoming more creative. I saw images of things that were more on the side of fantasy than reality for a change. I think I've talked long enough.

Sit back and enjoy the pretty music.