I feel something cold hit my face and I immediately shoot up and gasp for air. I cough up the cold water that went in my nose. Someone is patting my back. Mikey is in front of me. He looks relieved. Maybe what just happened was a dream. Maybe I was hallucinating. I look up and study the faces. My eyes land on his. It's not a dream. He's alive. Baji is alive. I feel myself relax. He's alive. Then I remember. He's been gone for a year and a half. Mikey and Draken knew the whole time. They couldn't tell me? Even when I was in so much pain? Even when Mikey stopped me from falling off a building and ending everything? And where the hell was Baji? He couldn't text me? He couldn't come to see me. I stand up and slap him in the face, hard. I can see my hand print on his face. Then I turn and grab Mikey's collar pulling him close to me.

"Tell me why I shouldn't punch you to a pulp right now you asshole?" I say feeling hot tears fall down my face. "You knew, you knew the whole time. And you didn't tell me. Draken? You couldn't tell me either?" I look up at Draken and he looks away, ashamed.

"I don't have a reason that you shouldn't punch me. You have every right to. I'm not going to stop you, Hana. Hit me till you're satisfied," he says looking at me with sympathy.

I scoff, but push him away from me. "Who else knew huh?" I ask looking around.

"No one did, don't get mad at them, it's on me," Baji says.

"You don't get to talk to me. How could you do that to me? I saw you die!" I scream in his face.

He doesn't falter. I push him. "You fucking left me. I visited your mom every day of the week. How could you hurt me like that?" I push him again.

He doesn't stop me when I punch him in the face. I feel myself start to cry even harder. He puts a hand on my cheek trying to calm me down, but I smack it away. "No! You don't get to touch me."

He looks at me, hurt. "Hana I-"

"I hate you Baji," I spit in his face.

"I hate you Mikey. Draken how could you?" I say looking at him.

He betrayed me. Draken has always been there for me. He has always helped me. As have I for him. And this is how he treats his friends. "You guys don't care about me at all. You let me go through all that pain. You should've let me fall off the building Mikey," I say.

"Wait what?" Baji says looking between Mikey and I.

I shake my head and give him a smile filled with poison. "You don't get to pretend to care anymore. I'm leaving," I say walking away from them.

"Hana, please," Mikey grabs my arm but I pull away.

"Don't touch me," I say starting to run.

I feel myself sob while I'm running. I can't see where I'm going. I just need to get out of here. I start running across a street and I hear honking. I freeze in my steps and see a car about to hit me. I can't move. However, someone pulls me away from the car. I stay still in shock. I could've died right there.

"Hana, Hana look at me," the voice says grabbing my face.

My eyes finally still and I see Mitsuya. It looks like he was just crying, too. I grab his shirt and cry into his chest. He pulls me in close to him, letting me cry. I feel so pathetic. This whole thing is bullshit. How could the people that I thought were my friends lie to my face for a year and a half knowing I was hurt?

"Come on, my place is around the corner. You can stay the night," he says leading me down the side walk.

I stay close to Mitsuya, letting him take me away. I can hear him talking but my brain can't grasp onto the words. I can't stop thinking about it. Baji's alive. I'm relieved but so angry at the same time. I thought he trusted me. I trusted him enough to have sex with me. Hes seen me in my most vulnerable states. I guess I was wrong. Everything feels wrong now. I feel my phone ringing but I ignore it. Its most likely Draken and Mikey calling me. Mitsuya opens the door and as expected, it's not perfectly clean. I'm too worn out to say anything though as he leads me to his room. Usually, when I spend the night, he takes the couch. But as I lay down under the sheets, I feel lonely. More lonely than I have for the last year or so. I get up and check the time. It's about 12:30 am. I sigh and walk out of the room. I look at see Mitsuya on his phone on his couch. He notices me walk out.

"What's wrong?" He asks me.

I scratch the back of my neck. "Can you... sleep with me?"

He looks at me surprised, being frozen there for a minute. He gulps and nods. He gets up and follows me back to his room. I lay down and I feel him lay down next to me. I notice how stiff he is and I sadly smile to myself. The first time Baji and I shared a bed it was exactly like this. I cuddle closer to Mitsuya and he eventually relaxes into me. He holds my waist close to him and I breathe into his chest. His thin t shirt in my face. I slowly but surely fall asleep in his arms.