Warning: this may trigger something inside..it did for me. I cried as I wrote it..it hit to close to home for me...so im sorry if this is to depressing.

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The late summer sun was beating down on Erebor City making the city swelter in its grasp..the air was so hot you could see it moving off the pavement and streets in waves. Each breath that was taken was like breathing in a sauna ...hot humid and thick. The only relief the inhabitants of this city had was inside their homes where the air conditioners were working overtime in combating this oppressive heat wave. In a large brick building in the center of town the whirring of the fans could be barely be heard inside..being over run by the beeping of monitors within the various rooms of the sick occupants inside this enormous structure...Erebor Hospital.

In such a room the cool white walls made the room feel cold and sterile ..further lending a depressing feel to the space. Upon the bed in the center of the room was a woman with sparse black hair that was being combed by a teenage boy who sat upon a chair next to her bed...each stoke of the brush through her hair was tender and slow so not to pull , causing more pain to the sick woman. Her eyes settled upon the young 14 year old there..he had thick summery blond hair that framed the sweetest blue eyes upon his face...that at this moment was red rimmed from trying to hold back his tears as he gazed down at the woman laying there. Her eyes that normally was as blue as the young mans next to her was hazy and greyish at this time...her black hair that used to be thick and luxurious was thin and sparse now. Her body that was always volumptious and full figured, now was thin and wasted away into absolute nothing of her former self...her breathing as she laid there was raspy and labored sounding to the two men in the room with her. Slowly her eyes moved to focus upon the other man, who was older, standing off to the other side of the room..where he was watching how tender the young man was being. She could feel her heart was pounding as it skipped a beat..knowing her time was drawing close to the end and she gathered her breath to speak before she died.

"Fili...Thorin." her voice was raspy and thin..almost a whisper as they gathered close to hear her...each taking a bony hand into their own.

"What is it Dis? Do you need something little sister?" Thorins blue eyes gazed down lovingly upon his younger sister that was fading by the moment because of the cancer that was eating away at her body...consuming the last bit of this strong woman. She trembling tugged upon his hand to bring him closer..as he leaned in he could feel her shaking upon the bed.

"i want...want you both to know that...I love you...both. Please..please take care of each other. I ...I..." suddenly her heart monitor beeped erratically and her breathing became fast...eyes went wide and then closed...forever as the machine let out a long piercing wail as her heart stopped. Both men began to shake as nurses rushed into the room...pushing both men away from her body as they attempted to restart her heart..it was no use, Distani Durinson was gone...succumbing to the cancer that riddled her young body. The nurses pulled the sheet over the woman and began to leave the room..their eyes filled with sorrow as they passed by the two men who were holding onto each other...tears falling from their eyes in their grief.

"MOMMA!" the young boy wailed into the older mans shoulder who held onto him tightly as he too mourned his sister.

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It had been several days since Dis was laid into the ground..her funeral was attended by many loved ones who came to pay their respects to this amazing woman. The day had been clear and there was a nice wind to ease the heat upon the land...some believed it was Dis smiling down to make this day a tiny bit more bearable to those below. A soft wind was blowing..caressing the hairs upon Thorins and Filis nape of the neck...birds were chirping a sweet melody up in the trees as the coffin was being lowered into the arms of the cool earth...welcoming her body in its eternal rest.

Now here they were, both men sitting in the office of the lawyer Gandalf Gray, who was assigned by Dis, some time back, to handle her affairs. His office was soothing with its soft blues and creamy whites gracing the room to ease the tension any one would have in meeting with a lawyer. Mr. Gray was a tall man with a well maintained white beard and soft grey blue eyes that exuded calm to anyone who saw him..his well tailored suit was soft greys and a light stormy blue tie that added contrast to his outfit as he sat in a soft cushioned chair...eyes peering in compassion upon the two grieving men before him.

"I thank you both for coming to meet me today. I know this must be hard for both of you and I offer my condolences on your loss." Thorin nodded his head as he rumbled out his thanks for the mans words..his eyes noticing how Filis shoulders stiffened as he fought so hard to not collapse into tears in front of this man...Gandalf cleared his throat and continued ..trying to expedite this process so the two could be left to their grieving in peace. "I have Distani Durinsons last will and testament to go over with you today and...a letter she wrote to the both of you to read." he laid a sealed envelope upon the table before them. "She wrote this a few months ago when she knew she was dying and left it here with me to give to you, upon her death." Filis eyes were focused upon the white paper laying there...barely hearing Gandalfs words as he read his mothers will to them...only when he felt his uncles hand upon his shoulder did he look away from his mothers final words to them. He vaguely heard some of the mans words...his attention so taken up in the sight of that letter...a deep hunger to read it but afraid of what he would see ate at him...finally it was time to read it. Thorins large hands opened the seal and pulled out the beautiful white sheets with her neat handwriting upon it....Fili whimpered as his mothers smell flowed off the sheets from the perfume she always wore...soft, earthy floral notes with a hint of vanilla teased his nose. Thorin began to read in his deep rumbling voice..slightly wavering as he fought to not cry as he read those precious last words.

Dear Thorin and Fili,

I know if you are reading this letter, then that means the cancer has finally taken me and I have passed onto the other side...leaving you both here on earth without me. I am sorry this has happened and I had to leave you both, but this separation isnt forever. I wanted you both to know that I love you both so much and truly wished I had more time to show you how much you mean to me. In this letter i have left my final words and wishes to each of you..to give comfort, even though I am no longer there in physical form, during your life.

~To Fili~

My dear son Fili. I love you so much, never ever forget that. The day you entered my life was the day I felt my life truly began. I was the second person to hold you..the first was your father who cried like a baby at the sight of you. I looked into your sweet blue eyes and knew I would do anything for you from that moment on. Your laughter was always so joyful to hear as you played, that it always lifted my spirits, even after your father had died..it was your laughter that pulled me through those dark times. Please, my son, dont forget to laugh and smile as much as you can...for your uncle and for yourself. Please remember all the good times we had as we danced in the rain..whenever we laughed so hard we both cried that time when you had gotten a heat rash on your bottom that needed powdering and how you farted out a puffy cloud of powder. All the laughter and all the tears we shared together will be the tapestry of our life that you should look on...not in sorrow but in joy of all that we had. I hope you will watch over your uncle and try to be patient with him during these hard times...he needs you as much as you need him. Always remember how much I loved you.

~To Thorin~

My beloved older brother Thorin. I am so sorry that I had to leave you with all of this to do alone. I am entrusting to you , big brother, my greatest treasure I have...my son. Fili means more to me than anything in this world..hes the most precious treasure I have to give and hes now being placed into your loving care. Help him to remember how to smile and you too..remember all the things we did as we grew up with fondness. Like that time you thought it would be funny to put a frog down my one piece jumper and it got stuck in the pants of it screaming with this frog croaking away in fright on my butt...or that time when I fell and skinned my knee really bad that you had to carry me two miles back home because I couldnt walk. The whole way as I cried you whispered encouragingly to me , telling me it would be alright...you were going to watch over me. Well , big brother, its my turn now to watch over you both. I want you to know, Thorin, that you are the best brother i could ever have been blessed to have in my life. Thank you big brother...for being there.

~To You Both~

My last request to you both is this. Take care of each other..always watch over the other. Remember to laugh loudly...live as if each day is your last...and love with your whole being. When you find your love , no matter who they may be, dont be afraid to love them...hold onto them tight and never let go. Also, please remember me with laughter and not tears..Im not really gone..just my body is. Ill be watching over the both of you more clearly, up above...always smiling down on you.

Love for all of eternity,

Dis.

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Every year on this very day that Dis left this earthly form behind, Thorin and Fili would go to her grave together and tell her about the happenings that had occurred within that year. They would bring flowers each time to lay upon her headstone , along with food and drink, having a feast and a toast in honor of her...sharing laughter as they sat there. Eventually over time they found love who shared in the laughter and love these two men had for one special woman.