⚠️ Warning : Suicide Attempt ⚠️

Olivia's P.O.V.

She is dragging everyone down with her problems !!!

Leave her, Focus on your career.

You have your career ahead !!!

Tears rolls down my face when her words floats in my mind.

Those words have been playing on a loop in my head ever since.

We will send her to an orphanage.

She is just a burden now.

"N-No" I shake my head as tears are streaming continuously.

Mr. and Mrs. Hernandez left their burden on you guys.

"NO N-No No- t-that's n-not- true" I let out a muffle whisper.

I am embarassed, Olivia.

If not for you atleast think for me Olivia !!!

The man I thought loved me saw me as nothing more than an embarrassment. My sobs increases to the point where I felt my heart aches.

She is just a burden on you guys !!!

She constantly need someone to babysit her !

WE ARE GOING TO DISOWN OLIVIA AND SHE CAN'T LIVE HERE IN THIS HOUSE !

She can't just sit around doing nothing.

"Nooo please, stop this" I clench my eyes shut and hold my palm tightly on my ears.

We all have our personal life, we can't just monitor her 24/7.

She can't even walk.

She is just a disabled girl.

"I-It- hurts" I let out a painful sob.

She is a burden on everyone.

She is a burden.

She is a burden.

She is a burden.

"N-No- No I am n-not- a b-burden- n-no-"

Tears start to roll down my face, my breath hitching as the weight of all these words crushes me.

She is dragging everyone down with her problems.

We all have our personal life.

We can't just monitor her 24/7.

You can't just babysit her, she is nothing but a burden.

The pain in my chest growing with each hiccuping breath. My breathing becomes uneven, but I can't focus on anything other than these hurtful words.

Burden.

Disabled.

Embarrassment.

"Nooo please-" I cries. These labels are suffocating me.

She is a burden.

"N-No- I-I don't want to become a b-burden- I-I- d-don't-" I hiccups.

I glance at my side and a knife is placed on the table in fruit bowl.

"I-I- c-can't h-hold them b-back- I can't become a b-burden- to t-them-" Wiping my eyes, I gulp a lump. My hands tremble as I reach for it, tears blurring my vision. The cold metal feels heavy in my hand.

I look at the knife in my hands.

"Everyone will be so happy after this." I sniffles, "T-They will be free from me."

I'm holding everyone back, ruining their lives with my presence. I can't hold them back.

Closing my eyes, I prepare to end it all. Just as I'm about to plunge the knife into my chest, someone jerks my hand away with a force that makes the knife clatter to the floor.

My eyes snap open, and I see Noah standing there, his eyes dark with anger and fear, his jaw clenched tight. "OLIVIA, what the fuck are you doing ?" he demands, his voice shaking with emotion.

"Leave me," I cry out, struggling against his grip. "I just want to die! I can't do this anymore !"

He tightens his hold on me, his grip like a vice. "STOP IT, OLIVIA! JUST FUCKING STOP !" he shouts, his voice breaking.

"NO PLEASE LET ME GO, I WANT TO DIE", I wriggle and fight, but he doesn't let go. My sobs grow louder, my body convulsing with the force of my despair, "I DON'T WANT TO LIVE- LEAVE ME"

"Olivia, calm down- listen to me- Olivia- please listen-" He holds my both wrist in his one hand and touch my face, but I jerk it away, "NO- LEAVE ME- I-I D-DON'T- WANT TO BE A B-BURDEN- I can't l-live like this-" I choke on my tears.

Noah's eyes soften, "Are you fucking out of your mind, Olivia ?" He immediately left my wrist and cup my face in his large hands, "You are not a burden listen-"

I push his hands away, "NO YOU ARE LYING. I-I- know I-I am h-holding you guys b-back-" I hiccup, "Please, just let me go," I beg, my voice barely a whisper now. "I'm just a burden. I can't live like this."

His eyes Harden, "Who told you all these shits ? Stop fucking believing on others, Olivia. I am telling you, right ? You are not burden-"

"I AM" I can't help but shout. He is not understanding. He never did. "I WANT TO DIE- P-PLEASE- LET ME DIE-"

Before I could complete my sentence, my face jerk side as I felt a sting on my cheek. He slapped me.

My hand immediately flew to my cheek and tears rolls down my face.

"OLIVIA" I flinch slightly and looks at the source of the voice.

"What are you thinking, Olivia ? I am calling you since minutes. Are you okay ?" Jane says, looking at me with her worried eyes.

I gulp and looks around me.

"I am ok" I mumbles and looks down.

It's hard. Everything is hard. I am tired.

It feels like each and every thing is screaming at me to kill myself. I don't want to be a burden on people, who left me years ago.

But why are they not leaving me yet ?

Why are they still surrounding me ?

Why was Sophia even fighting for me with her parents ?

Why didn't Noah let me die ? 

Why do they care now when they didn't look back four years ago ?

"Stop being so hard on yourself, Olivia" a soft voice pulls me out of my thoughts.

I sigh.

After yesterday's incident, they are all trying to cheer me up since morning. But is it even worth it? All of them, especially Hazel and Sophia. I don't know how, but right now, I am with Jane. And we are both in the mall.

I am in the wheelchair. Usual.

And Jane is beside me, trying to cheer me up.

I denied her many times, but she literally begged me to come with her. So here we are, sitting in the cafeteria of the mall, after buying lots of dresses that I'm not even going to wear.

"I am not doing anything, Jane," I sigh, playing with my fingers. She lifts my face, and her eyes soften.

"Do you know, Olivia? I always adored you. Always. Not because you are Noah's sister, but because of your courage," she mumbles softly.

My eyes glisten with tears.

What have I done to myself ?

Why am I crying again and again ? I was never a crybaby before. What changed now ? Everything, Olivia, everything changed.

"The way you always helped me when someone bullied me. The way you always took a stand for everyone. The way you were never scared to put your point before anyone. You are younger than me, Olivia, yet your nature, your behavior, everything impresses me to the core."

She finishes with a soft smile.

I stare at her face.

She adored me ? My behavior impressed her ? The same behavior because of which my brothers called me a 'bitch' ?

"Please never change yourself, Olivia," she continues. "I always see you as a courageous little girl. Trust me, Olivia, you are the strongest girl I've ever seen. And we are all humans, Olivia. Bad phases come in life. And with time, it will be fine. Everything happens for a reason, darling, trust me. I don't know if you will believe it or not, but trust the process."

I gulp a lump that forms in my throat.

I don't even realize that I am crying until her hand is on my cheek, wiping away the lone tear.

"No more crying, okay ? We are here to enjoy, not for crying," she smiles. "Tell me, what do you want to eat?"

I shrug. "Anything will be fine by me."

"Umm, not anything. Say a particular name," she thinks for a second. "Wait, I'll give you some recommendations like burger, pizza, white sauce pasta, fries, fried rice, chicken nuggets, tacos, burritos, lasagna—"

"Tacos and burritos," I interrupt her, my eyes twinkling. Cravings.

Jane chuckles. "Okay, and I'll go with white sauce pasta. Wait for a minute."

She leaves.

I look around, trying to distract myself from my own destructive thoughts.

Families and friends are scattered throughout the cafeteria, their laughter and chatter filling the air.

A group of teenagers is sitting a few tables away, joking and laughing loudly, their faces lit up with genuine joy. I envy their carefree existence, their ability to find happiness in such simple moments.

Why can't I become like them ? Carefree.

My eyes wander to a nearby table where a father, mother, and their little daughter are sitting. The father is gently feeding his daughter, his eyes full of love and tenderness. The mother watches them with a soft smile, her hand resting on her husband's arm. The little girl giggles, her face lighting up with pure happiness as her father makes funny faces while feeding her.

A pang of jealousy hits me hard, and I feel my chest tighten. I long for that kind of care, that kind of love.

My parents used to look at me with pride and love, not with the disappointment and frustration that I see now.

I feel a lump form in my throat as I continue to watch the family. The father wipes a bit of food from his daughter's chin, his movements gentle and patient. The mother leans in and kisses her daughter's cheek, eliciting another giggle. They are so happy, so content.

They have something I've lost, something I fear I'll never get back.

Sighing, I look on another side.

How different my life is now !!!

How every day feels like a struggle !!!

How every smile feels forced !

How it-

I narrow my eyes at someone familiar siting in the cafeteria.

My eyes widen and a smile immediately forms on my face.

"Lucas" I let out a whisper.

My heart leaps with an unexpected rush of hope and excitement. I haven't seen him since he said those cruel words, but maybe this is a chance for things to be different.

Lucas is sitting at a table with another man who looks to be in his early thirties.

Strange, that man is not his best friend James.

I narrow my eyes at the man.

Have I seen him somewhere ?

There's something familiar about him, but I can't quite remember where I've seen him before.

Must be his Dad's employee. That's why I feel like I've seen him somewhere.

From a distance, I can tell that Lucas is frustrated, his body language tense. The man he's with looks equally angry. They exchange some heated words, but I can't hear what they're saying. After a moment, Lucas says something that makes the man nod curtly and leave.

My focus again shifts on my boyfriend. My smile grows wider. Maybe he's calmed down, maybe we can talk and make things right.

Should I talk with him now ?

Obviously, Olivia.

Just then, I heard a voice, "What happened, Olivia ? What makes you so happy suddenly ?"

I turn back towards the voice.

Jane sets a tray down with a smile on her face.

"It's Lucas," I say, unable to hide the excitement in my voice. "He's here. I want to go talk to him."

Jane looks unsure, but she nods. "Okay, let's go," she agrees, her hand gently resting on my shoulder as she begins to wheel me towards him.

Just as we start moving, I see a girl approach Lucas from behind. She wraps her arms from behind him and suddenly a smile comes on his face ?

Jane stops herself from pushing me forward.

That girl leans down and they kissed ?

My eyes widen as I felt my breath hitch. My jaw drops as I look at the scene infront of me.

Lucas is kissing someone else ?

My heart clenches. I could feel my chest tightens as my eyes glisten with tears.

I felt a squeeze on my shoulder.

A tear rolls down my face.

He is kissing someone else ?

"Olivia- let's go from here" Jane says softly.

Tears well up, blurring my vision, but I can't look away.

I wipe the tears from my eyes, trying to steady myself. I have to confront him. I can't let this go unanswered. I wheel myself closer to them, my hands trembling on the armrests.

As we approach, Lucas notices us. His eyes widen in shock, all color draining from his face. He stands up abruptly, pushing the girl away from him.

"O-Olivia," he stammers, coming towards me quickly, "This isn't what it looks like."

Is he even serious ?

I look at him in disbelief.

"Lucas, you were kissing her ?"

"No Olivia- she was forcing me-" Before he could say anything, that girl gasps.

"What the fuck, Lucas" She comes towards us, "I was forcing you ? Seriously ?"

Lucas glares at her, "Shut up, bitch. I will not going to give you any money."

He turns towards me and sits on his knees to match our level, holding my hand. "O-Olivia, this bitch is blackmailing me for so many days. She's demanding 1 lakh dollars. I don't have that much money, that's why I'm doing all these things."

He says with glistening eyes.

I want to trust him. I seriously want to trust him.

"I-I- *gulps* C-Can you p-please- help me a little-, c-can you p-please- give me 1 lakh dollars- I swear I will return it-"

Jane gasps from behind me.

He continues, "I will throw this money to her face and after that we will live our life peacefully-"

Before I can control myself, my hand makes contact with his face, and his head jerks to the side. His hands instantly go to his cheeks as he looks at me in shock.

"Did you just slap me ?" He asks me in disbelief.

I glare at him, "I can't believe I loved you, Lucas. You are still lying to me on my face ?  I-I- loved you, Lucas, I really loved you. And what are you doing ? Cheating on me ?"

I holds his collar, "I FUCKING HATE YOU, LUCAS, I FUCKING HATE YOU"

I push him and he falls down.

He looks at me with his widened eyes. Suddenly, his face turns neutral and then, he smirks standing up from his position.

"So? What, did you think I loved you ?" He chuckles. "Did you see yourself, Olivia? You can't even walk. Why should I love you ? Even your parents left you, and you're expecting me to stay with you ? Ridiculous."

My heart shatters. My eyes glisten with tears as I look at him in disbelief.

"Shut up, Lucas," Jane steps forward, her voice firm. "Mind your tongue."

He narrows his eyes at her. "You're Noah's girlfriend, right ? That guy who never cared about his sister."

Jane's eyes darken. "That's their personal matter, Lucas. You have no right to interfere in their lives."

Lucas chuckles. "Same goes for you, Madam. This is our personal matter. You have no right to interfere here."

Jane clenches her fist, anger simmering beneath the surface.

"You are a sick bastard, Lucas fucking Johnson," I grit my teeth, the fury burning through my tears. "IF YOU DIDN'T LOVE ME, THEN WHY DID YOU EVEN COME INTO MY LIFE ?"

He smirks, "For money and reputation, darling"

He comes near me, leaning in close. "You know Hernandez has a name everywhere, darling. From school to business. Everywhere. When I first saw you, I thought I'd ask you for a one-night stand."

My heart aches as tears roll down my face.

He continues, "But then, I heard you were Michael's sister. Olivia Hernandez. The one and only daughter of the Hernandez family. And at that moment, Olivia Hernandez, I decided to make you fall for me."

"But your bastard brothers," he curses under his breath. "Your bastard brothers tried to warn you about me. But you," he laughs, "you are a foolish girl. You never believed them, and that made my work easier. I incited you against them, darling, and you, immersed in love, started listening to me like a puppy." He laughs out loud.

I clench my jaw tightly as fresh tears roll down my face. I am a fool. I believed him. I always believed him. He made me hate my brothers, and I always believed him.

"But I loved you, Lucas. I was serious about this," I mumble, wiping my tears.

He glares at me, "Love? Where is the love here, Olivia? You never let me fucking touch you," his eyes harden. "We were in a relationship, but still, you didn't want to have sex with me-"

"BECAUSE, I WAS NOT READY FOR IT, LUCAS" I yell at him, "I was fucking not ready for it, I-I am only 16- and I wanted it to be a special. I-I thought- y-you loved me and you will wait for me-" 

"Wait ?" he sneers. "Grow up, Olivia. The world isn't a fairy tale. You were nothing but a means to an end for me. A way to get close to the Hernandez name and all the perks that come with it."

His every word pierced through my heart.

I gasp when Jane suddenly slaps him.

"Enough," she grits her teeth. "I've had enough of you."

Lucas looks at her with darkened eyes. He turns towards me, and a sly grin crosses his face. "Your sisters-in-law are always fiery, huh ? First that Mason's girlfriend, Ria, and now this Jane."

"But, alas, you never listened to them." He suddenly gasps. "Hey, I remember how desperately Ria and Mason were trying to make you understand that I'm not good for you, but you," he laughs, "you were always foolish enough to believe me. And in the end, you killed her."

I stiffen at that.

My breath hitches as I realize he is right. I never listened to them. They warned me. But I never listened to them.

Jane's grip on my hand tightens, her anger palpable. "You're a vile excuse for a human being, Lucas. Get out of here before I call security."

Mason is right. I killed her. I killed Ria.

And now, I am getting this punishment.

A heart-wrenching sob leaves my mouth as Jane immediately pulls me into her embrace.

"Don't listen to him, Olivia. He's just putting words in your brain. Please don't listen to him," she gently says.

He smirks and leans down closer to me as I pull out from Jane's embrace.

"I always used you for your money and reputation, Olivia," a grin spreads across his face. "You were beautiful, Olivia. I made my reputation in front of my friends because of your name. You were my ATM, Olivia. I always got money whenever I wanted. I made you an enemy of your brothers. I planned to continue our so-called relationship until my last year, but alas..."

He sighs, "You became disabled. I lost my interest in you and started maintaining my distance. Still, I wished to keep in contact because you, idiot, were still giving me money." He laughs, "Your brother Michael always called you a loser, right ? He was right. You definitely are."

I'm speechless. Shock, anger, and disbelief wash over me as I stare at him.

He comes near me again and whispers, "Because of you, I got everything in college, Olivia, except your virginity. And I would have taken that too if your bastard brother hadn't come in between that day—"

Before he can finish his sentence, I lift my hand again and slap him on his cheek, this time harder than before.

He stumbles back from the sudden force.

His eyes darken as I clench my jaw.

"You bitch—" he immediately raises his hand toward me, and reflexively, I cover my face with my hands.

I hear Jane gasp, but I don't feel anything.

I open my eyes to see someone unexpected holding Lucas's wrist.

"You are one hell of a man, Johnson, raising a hand on a girl."

Lucas clenches his jaw and glares at him. "Leave my hand, Martin."

Rocky chuckles and jerks his hand away, making Lucas stumble back.

(A/n : Rocky Martin is that guy of the college who keeps bullying everyone. Olivia's enemy, incase you forgot.)

He turns towards me, and I swear, his eyes soften a bit.

"Pretty Hernandez, didn't I tell you that your brothers have good taste, but you don't, hmm ?"

He is right.

Fuck, even Rocky was right.

"Martin, leave from here. This is between me and my girlfriend," Lucas grits his teeth.

I look at him in disbelief.

Audacity.

Rocky chuckles, "Living in delusion, are we, Johnson ?"

"Martin, I am warning you, get out from here—"

Before Lucas could complete his sentence, Rocky interrupts him, "Or what? What are you going to do to me, hmm ?"

His voice sounds cold.

Jane squeezes my shoulder, trying to comfort me.

Rocky chuckles mockingly, "You've already shown your true colors, Johnson. Cheating on your own girlfriend ? And then stooping so low as to raise your hand on her ?"

"Enough, Martin," Lucas says dangerously.

Rocky smirks, "Why ? Did your fragile male ego get hurt, huh ?"

"YOU BASTARD !" Lucas instantly grabs Rocky's collar to punch him, making us gasp, but security intervenes and holds both of them apart.

They pull Lucas away from Rocky.

"I WILL FUCKING KILL YOU, BASTARD!" Lucas jerks himself away from them and glares at us.

"Excuse me, Sir, you're breaking the rules. Please leave before we call the cops." One of the security guards instructs him.

He scoffs and leaves, followed by that girl.

My heart sinks as I watch him walk away.

"Thanks, Rocky," Jane murmurs softly.

Author's P.O.V.

Rocky nods but his eyes doesn't left Olivia, who is sitting there lost in her thoughts.

"Olivia," Rocky calls out softly.

Olivia looks at him with teary eyes.

Rocky's heart clenches.

The Olivia he knew was always ready to bite his head off. Now, he can see the vulnerability in her eyes, and it breaks his heart.

"Rocky, did you know he was cheating on me ?" Olivia asks slowly.

Rocky continues to stare at her vulnerable face.

"Let's sit somewhere first," Jane suggests gently, and they all nod.

"I suspected he wasn't serious in the relationship, but I..." Rocky pauses abruptly. "Did you know, Olivia ? We're cousins."

Olivia gasps and shakes her head in disbelief.

Rocky sighs, "We're cousins. Lucas is actually my mother's brother's son. Our parents hate each other, which led us to dislike each other since childhood. I've seen him with other girls before, but he told me you two were in a casual relationship. I was foolish to believe him."

Olivia's heart breaks, but she sadly chuckles, "Not just you, Rocky. I was foolish too. I believed him. I thought... I thought he loved me too."

"No, Olivia, you're not foolish," Jane interrupts, "You loved him, and that's not your fault-"

"No, Jane, everyone warned me. Mason and Ria told me to stay away from him," Olivia turns towards Rocky, "Even you warned me, Rocky, but I never listened to anyone. I put him above everyone else. I trusted him, and now I'm paying the price."

Her voice is weak and slow.

"R-Remember, Rocky, you told me that this human race is selfish. Everyone remembers each other when it comes to work. But when the time comes, everyone shows their true colors ?"

Rocky nods solemnly.

"You were correct, Rocky. Lucas used me. He was with me because of m-money"  Olivia looks down as tears rolls down from her face.

"Olivia, I'm sorry," Rocky says softly, "I should have told you sooner. I shouldn't have believed him."

"It doesn't matter, Rocky," Olivia replies, looking at him through tear-filled eyes, "If I didn't trust my brothers, I wouldn't have trusted you either."

Rocky nods, then turns to Jane.

"I'm sorry, Jane. I bullied you," he apologizes sincerely, "I did it because Olivia always stood up for you. I enjoyed getting a reaction out of her."

Jane gasps, "So, you deliberately bothered me whenever Olivia was around?"

Rocky looks down and nods, "Yes, I'm sorry, Jane. I'll apologize to Noah too."

Jane smiles softly, "It's okay. You never really hurt me."

Rocky returns her smile.

"You guys talk. I will come in a minute." Jane excuses herself and left from there.

"Olivia" Rocky calls out again.

"Hmm"

"I know you loved him. But, he doesn't deserve these tears" He says softly, wiping her lone tear.

"Rocky ?" She calls out softly.

"Yes ?"

"Can you please do me a favour ?"

He nods his head without hesitation.

"I want a drink"

To Be Continued...

Sorry again one day late 😓...

I was stuck in dialogues. I want to make today's update a little emotional but today I felt like I don't know English language at all lol. Sorry.

Anyways,

What do you think about Lucas ?

And what about Rocky ?

One more thing : Do you guys want Olivia's love interest in the story ? (Of course not now, but later in the ending)

Next chapter will be the chapter I was waiting since from the beginning.

Spoiler : Drunk Confession !!!

Stay tuned for it !!!

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I will meet you guys soon till then stay safe, take care and Love yourself ❤️.

Byee Byee ... Luv ya 😘.

Published : 17 June 2024.

Total words : 4293 words 😁.