If you guys want to read on go ahead but if at least one person cares please comment and tell me you do.

I've gone Head-over-heels for someone but I don't even know if they like me back. But I've found out they like someone else and to explain it in one word.

I'm Heartbroken

Honestly I don't feel like Drawing, Writing, or Anything I love. All I feel is Depression and Right now I'm forcing myself to laugh fakely and smile grimly.

EVERYTHING hurts. My world is black and White and all I feel like is misery. I don't know if the person they like is me but if it isn't I'm gonna have to push my self to support them because I'm one of they're bestfriends.

I've lived throught 8 LONG YEARS OF FUCKING STRESS I FEEL SO DONE WITH LIFE!

IM FUCKING FAILING IN SCHOOL

MY PARENTS ARE CONSTANTLY UPSET WITH SOMETHING, ANYTHING I'VE DONE

ALL I AM IS A FAILURE

Yet I hold myself together for my friends.

They have always been the light in my darkness.

They have supported me when I admitted I was Bisexual.

But then there is the person I'm in love with.

They are the best part of my day.

They give me a world with colour.

They relate to me.

I would go to the ends of the earth for this person.

I'm not gonna say if they have wattpad.

I'm not gonna say what they look like.

I am gonna say their a Girl.

She is special to me.

And I know I'm special to her but not in the way I want too.

All I know is that I need someone to help me.

I need to know if my followers care for me as a person or if they just like my books and don't care about my person.

I just feel so broken.

I've started taking therpy but its just adding more stress.

I cant even laugh right now.

I've watched the videos that make me laugh the hardest but its not working.

If you made it this far then thank you for listening.

I've Held a Knife to my wrist a Total of 79 Times.

I've held a Gun to my head a total of 18 but I've never pulled the trigger.

I need to know people care.

I feel like I'm worthless. That everyone will be better off with having me to drag them down.

Would you guys be better off without me too?