Chapter 18

Songs for this chapter are;

Breathe Me – Sia

Hearts without Chains – Ellie Goulding

Not About Angels - Birdy

 Tobias

 My hands tremble slightly as I pick up the used needle and syringe that was left by the sink.

“What the hell, Tris?” I spoke aloud to no-one, just wanting to voice my thoughts.

Why did she have a needle in the bathroom? It certainly wasn’t mine. That’s when I noticed a small vial of clear liquid with the label Nourishment Serum in scribbled handwriting.

So this was her next serum.

It took all of my strength not to crush the bottle in my hand. This is the reason she has looked so frail, so weak lately. She thinks I haven’t noticed, but I notice everything about her. The way her petit body has shrunk, how her usually bright eyes are lifeless. And it was killing me to see her like this.

My blood boiled, who were the sick people who had done this to her? Made her a ghost of her former brilliant self.

I took in a shaky breath to try to calm myself and left the bathroom. I sat on the couch awaiting her return.

All too soon the door opened.

Tris walked in and it filled me with pain to see her so unsubstantial and exhausted. She sat the bags down on the floor, all the while looking at me with concern.

“Hey, is something wrong?” even her voice had lost its usual sound. The serum had taken everything from her, which in turn took everything from me.

I opened my palm to reveal the needle, syringe and the vial filled with the life-draining serum.

“Why didn’t you tell me?”

Her face drained of the already depleted colour.

“I’m so sorry,” she choked out as her eyes filled with tears. “I didn’t mean to, I just-“

“Tris, I trusted that you would be sensible about this!” my voice raised slightly.

“I am being sensible about this! I went to Katherine today to-“

“To what? Ask for more?”

Her eyes filled with a mix of sadness, anger and disappointment at my choice of words.

“Tobias, of course not! How could you think that of me?” her voice was just above a whisper.

“I don’t know Tris, how can I not? You’ve been so secretive about this whole thing, I am going to jump to the worst conclusions! You look so drained Tris, you look so ill and you’ve lost so much weight!”

“I’m fine Tobias! Really, I am an adult, I can manage this fine by myself!” she was shouting now as angry tears trailed down her cheeks.

“Damn it Tris! No you cannot! Look at yourself! Who have you become? Some science experiment? I have been so worried about you! This is not you and we both know that! You know how susceptible I have been about this whole thing and the fact that you have been hiding things from me really hurts me Tris! I have lost too much in my life and I am not prepared to lose the one thing I have left.”

“I’ve lost things too Tobias, my whole family! Being dead for 2 years really sets someone back and I thought you would have realised by now that I am fine!”

“But you’re not Tris! I am not going to continue to argue about this Tris, you need to sort this serum stuff out or I won’t be able to do this anymore!”

The only thing you could hear was our heavy breathing. The sudden silence was like the silence after a storm. The worst had passed, but the air was still filled with tension.

“So what then, you’re going to leave me?” her face was filled with the most bone-deep sadness you could get. Where it feels like your whole world is falling to pieces right in front of your eyes and you can’t do anything to stop it.

“Oh Tris, of course not.” Her expression made me forget my anger for now as I walked forward and took her defeated frame into my arms. She cried silently into my chest as I stroked her hair and kissed the crown of her head. My heart broke as I watched my strong girl fall to pieces right in front of me.

She looked up at me with blood-shot eyes. “I am so sorry Tobias.” 

okay so short chapter i know but oMG FOURTRIS FIGHT 

i was really looking foward to writing this chapter but i want to do some in tris's pov

so i might do i double update either today or tomorrow woooo

or

i might do a bonus chapter or something at the end of the book just as something short and sweet

so its up to you guys but just be warned i might repeat some of the stuff in this chapter if i do update again today so if that annoys you then please say ッ

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- kaitlyn Xx

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