The lights shine on the dance floor...

People inhaling death to their lungs...

Watching corpses bend and twist in front of me...

Is euphoria to the brain...

...

But I still can't smile,

Because the feeling isn't there...

Like my soul said goodbye a long time ago...

And that's where the orders come in...

...

Upper's make me feel alive...

Like I belong in this world...

For the next 2 hours...

Until I come back down...

Like God denied my request to his kingdom...

"You're too young to come in"

"You're not ready yet"

Screaming in my memories...

And now the people disappear...

All that's left are the bottles of satisfaction...

Let's drink away the rats in my veins...

...

Gulp after gulp,

The more I see the pain that lays in me...

It has pillows and covers...

And my body is the bed...

Sleep tightly on my heart...

Tell it all the lies you've been thinking of...

Because at the end of this day...

I can't feel my eyelids close...

...

I've become a bird that can't feel the wind...

I know it tickles,

But where's the life in it?

I've drowned many times,

And I can't feel my own breath...

I've carried many knives,

And I can't feel my own blood...

I've lusted many women,

But can't feel their lips...

...

Numb am I?