as soon as seonghwa finished his text conversion with his friends, he sprinted to the mall to buy hongjoong his cinderella dress and tiara. he knew that materialistic items weren't the proper way to someone's heart, but he figured it could up his chances a bit.

"ok seonghwa, you got this. just tell him how you feel... tell him how much he means to you. he'll definitely say yes." seonghwa said to himself as he drove from the mall to hongjoong's house, giving himself a much need pep talk.

i mean, he'll definitely say yes... right?

seonghwa started getting nervous again, his haunting thoughts clouding his brain just like they did before. he didn't know if he was rushing things or if this was even a good idea, but he couldn't hold back any longer. he wanted to officially make hongjoong his.

all i want is hongjoong... his beautiful eyes, his precious smile, his impeccable style, his flamboyant personality, his soft skin... but what if he doesn't want me back?

before he could think any further, seonghwa's car pulled up to hongjoong's house.

"damn, how did i get here so fast? i guess i was overthinking so much that i didn't even realize..." seonghwa said to himself as he hit his head on the steering wheel over and over again, trying to rid his mind of the negative thoughts that were flooding through.

if i don't get out of this car right now, i'll never get out, seonghwa thought to himself.

seonghwa put his car in park and unbuckled his seatbelt before turning the car off with a loud sigh. he grabbed the wrapped cinderella dress and tiara that was sitting in the passenger's seat and held onto the box tightly in fear. he took a deep breath and stepped outside of the vehicle, slowly shutting the door in hopes to pass more time and ease his nerves. he then waltzed his way to the front door and took one more deep breath before ringing the doorbell.

well here goes nothing...

seonghwa heard the little footsteps of hongjoong's tiny feet pitter patter towards the front door and saw the boy look through the peephole in curiosity. when hongjoong realized seonghwa was outside the door, the boy squealed in excitement and quickly swung the door open for the older.

"seongie! you didn't tell me you were coming over today, i would've put some pants on if i knew!" hongjoong covered his mouth in embarrassment as he giggled, wearing only a big yellow crew neck and matching boxer shorts.

"it's ok honey, don't worry about it. i just wanted to talk to you for a bit, is it ok if i come inside?" seonghwa asked a bit shaky, his nerves taking over as he spoke. hongjoong's heart immediately dropped after hearing what seonghwa had to say, but he moved to the side and let the boy in regardless.

"is there something wrong?" hongjoong asked worriedly as he shut the door behind seonghwa, a frown forming on his face as he spoke.

seonghwa quickly realized that his comment could've been taken the wrong way and he started panicking even more, waving his hands in the air before he spoke, "no! no, i'm sorry that it sounded that way. there's nothing wrong, i promise! i just had a question for you." seonghwa reassured the boy and hongjoong let out a deep breath, smiling widely after hearing seonghwa's cute apology.

"oh ok! you made me nervous." hongjoong gigged as he put his hand out for seonghwa to hold onto, "do you want to go to my room to talk about it?" hongjoong asked.

"yes, that would be great actually." seonghwa nodded his head.

before walking upstairs, hongjoong's mother walked into the hallway from the kitchen and stopped the boys in their tracks, "seonghwa! i haven't seen you in a few days." she greeted the boy kindly, opening her arms wide for the boy to hug her. seonghwa quickly let go of hongjoong's hand and hugged the woman back tightly, still holding onto the box filled with hongjoong's gifts.

"hi chinsun. how was work?" seonghwa asked, not wanting to sound rude by leaving the woman after one simple hello.

"it was great. i got to travel to guam. i mean, granted i couldn't really do much there... but it was still beautiful." she smiled and seonghwa smiled back, matching the woman's excitement.

"that's all great and whatever, but me and seongie have stuff to talk about! we can talk later. bye mommy!" hongjoong interrupted and grabbed onto seonghwa's hand again, dragging the boy up the stairs.

seonghwa and ms. kim both laughed at hongjoong's actions, waving goodbye to each other as hongjoong guided seonghwa upstairs and into his bedroom. when they made it to the room, hongjoong allowed seonghwa to walk inside before he shut the door behind them for some privacy.

"why are you standing there so awkwardly?" hongjoong asked the boy when he turned around, noticing that seonghwa was shuffling his feet back and forth in front of hongjoong's bed rather than just sitting down like he usually did.

"i-i-"

"are you sure everything is ok? you're acting really off today. did i do something wrong?" hongjoong asked as he ran up to the boy who was standing awkwardly in his room, looking up at the taller with doe eyes.

"joongie, i can't tell you enough that you did absolutely nothing wrong. a-and neither did i, for the matter. i'm just a little nervous right now, is all." seonghwa admitted while scratching the back of his head, his other hand still holding the gift for hongjoong.

"i don't know why you're nervous, but i'll help you feel better! me and sangie always help wooyoung when his anxiety gets bad, i'm good with easing people's nerves! come on, let's sit down." hongjoong waved the boy on as he skipped towards his bed, plopping down on the bouncy mattress with a bounce. seonghwa laughed at hongjoong's adorable behavior and followed closely behind, taking a seat beside the boy.

"well, i think i should give you this before anything else. maybe it'll help calm my nerves a bit." seonghwa handed hongjoong the box with the boy immediately accepted.

"yay! i wanted to ask if this was for me, but i didn't want to make you more nervous than you already are." hongjoong giggled as he quickly ripped open the paper. after opening the paper, hongjoong read the world famous disney logo on the box and shrieked in excitement. he quickly opened the box and it revealed the cinderella dress that he'd been dying to get, along with a matching tiara.

"oh my gosh! seongie, how did you know i wanted this dress? and this tiara, it's so pretty! oh my gosh, thank you so much!" hongjoong cheered out loud, standing up and jumping up and down as he held tightly onto the sparkly white costume and bedazzled tiara in his hands. seonghwa gave the boy a warm smile as he looked into hongjoong's overjoyed eyes.

"a little birdie told me you've been dying to get it so i thought i should give you what you wanted. and how can i buy you a dress without a matching tiara? that would just be criminal." seonghwa said before hongjoong attacked him in a bone crushing hug.

"thank you so much! you're the bestest boy ever!" hongjoong said as he dug his head in seonghwa's neck and smiled widely. seonghwa rubbed the boy's back as he held onto hongjoong tightly.

"nope, you're the bestest boy ever!" seonghwa said after hongjoong let go of him, bopping his tiny nose after he took a seat on the bed once again.

"hehet, stop it!" hongjoong giggled as he covered his face with his tiny hands. seonghwa grabbed onto both hands and moved them away from his face, smiling widely as he looked into hongjoong's sparkling eyes.

"you're beautiful, don't cover your face from me." seonghwa said to hongjoong, the nerves that were once running through his bloodstream suddenly flowing away.

"thank you." hongjoong said as he looked down into his lap. seonghwa put his finger on hongjoong's chin and lifted it up, meeting the boy's lips with his own.

their kiss was quick, but sweet; the electricity intensely running through both of their bodies. seonghwa backed away from the younger and took a deep breath before speaking.

there will never be a more perfect moment than right now...

"so joongie, there was a reason i came here today." seonghwa said as he looked seriously into hongjoong's eyes.

"what is it?" hongjoong asked as he met seonghwa's intense gaze.

"as you know, we've been talking for a while. now yes, did i mess up a few too many times? hell yeah. was i not always the best to you? totally. but after the countless mistakes, i realized that there isn't another person on this planet better for me than you. i've never met someone so kind, caring, and loving than you, joongie. i'm in love with you, and there's nothing else in this world that i want than to be yours. so, kim hongjoong, will you be my boyfriend?" seonghwa asked, his heartbeat suddenly increasing after allowing the burning question to leave his lips.

hongjoong's heart immediately dropped to his stomach. now yes, he obviously wanted seonghwa to be his, but he couldn't help but think of all the bad times; all the times he was heartbroken, all the times he was done wrong, all the times seonghwa messed up.

the silence from hongjoong messed with seonghwa's head. he immediately regretted asking hongjoong, feeling like everything they worked towards was now completely ruined.

"i-if you don't want to, that's ok too. i, uh... i just needed to ask." seonghwa stuttered out as he tried his best to hold back the tears that were threatening to fall from his eyes.

"wait," hongjoong said, "that's not it. it's not that i don't want to be your boyfriend, but i'm just scared. how can i know you're being serious? what if you just go back to your old ways again? you did it a few different times, and i'm scared it'll happen again. if we make this official and you end up hurting me again, it'll hurt even more." hongjoong admitted as he looked down into his lap.

seonghwa began panicking, his heart racing as a single tear fell from his eyeball.

he was afraid of this happening.

"hongjoong, that person isn't me anymore. that person was the old me. i was always a terrible person, someone i hated... but you, you've turned me into the man i am today. you made me realize that loving someone is possible, that loving someone is special. i've never felt this way about anyone in my entire life, and i give you all the credit. hongjoong, you mean the whole world to me and i want you to know that i would never, ever hurt you again. and if you give me the chance to be yours, you'll see that i'm a completely new person. and if i ever do something to hurt you, i give you all the permission to break my heart. but i can guarantee that'll never have to happen because i love you, joongie. i love you so much and i'll never hurt you. so, will you give me the chance?" seonghwa asked once again, pouring his heart out to the boy in front of him.

hongjoong thought about his words and smiled widely. even though seonghwa had hurt him in the past, he wanted to give the boy the chance to be his. he wanted to be exclusively seonghwa's.

"yes seonghwa, i will be your boyfriend." hongjoong said with a smile. seonghwa's dull eyes instantly lit up, the older going in to attack hongjoong in hugs and kisses.

before he could touch hongjoong, the boy stopped him, "wait!"

"what?" seonghwa asked, sounding nervous as he spoke.

"like you said, if you ever hurt me, i won't hesitate to hurt you back. you better not mess this up, seongie!" hongjoong giggled as he spoke, finally opening his arms to allow seonghwa to hug him. seonghwa quickly accepted the skinship, attacking his boyfriend in a big, warm hug.

"i love you so much, joongie. i promise you won't regret this." seonghwa said as he hugged hongjoong, breathing in his boyfriend's comforting scent.

"i better not!" hongjoong joked as they let go of each other. seonghwa playfully hit the boy, leaning down and giving him a kiss on the cheek afterwards.

"so, do you wanna watch the princess diaries?" seonghwa asked and hongjoong's eyes lit up.

"watching the princess diaries with my boyfriend? wow, my childhood dreams are coming true!" hongjoong exclaimed as he stood up and ran out of the room, not even bothering to wait for seonghwa. seonghwa chuckled as he stood up and walked out of the room, not forgetting to shut the lights before exiting.

i swear, i'm completely and utterly in love with this boy, seonghwa thought to himself.

yeah i like double updating, and what about it?

btw my friend left for college today and it was really sad, all my friends were crying🥺(i didn't cry because 1. i'm not emotional and 2. he's my ex boyfriend and he did too many shitty things to me for me to cry over him again) but like still, it was sad :(

-vic