You can't live your life based on other people point of view.

Y/N:

"What is it?" he signalled me to get in to the room. I walked in opening the door for him to get inside. When he entered, I closed the door. He looked around the room looking to sit somewhere. I dragged the chair and placed it in front of him. He sat down thanking me. I have to go back to my room. I haven't talked to Taehyung yet about what he said. Now after everything I don't think I can bring that up at all.

"Well, you see how we found someone is leaking our information and that one should be a part of higher officials." I nodded my head remembering the conversation we had few days back in the meeting room. "This time we made sure to note down the names of the people who know about our security details" I know that. Namjoon told me and Taehyung about it when we told him about the situation.

"But this time nothing has leaked right? So how will we find the person?" I asked him confused. "We will plan a fake attack and inform the officials about it. Then we have to wait and see how it will turn out" so he means he want to start a gossip of attack on rogues. Whoever the person is will try to contact the rogues and we will find him or her when that happens. I am not sure if this will work beside people will get agitated if they know about rogues.

"It will become a big mess if pack members find about it" he nodded his head agreeing with me. "I know but we have to take the chance to find the person before we get any damage" he is right too but I don't think Namjoon will agree to this. "Have you told this to Namjoon?" he shook his head negatively. "That's why I am telling you first. I want you to convince him" I looked at him like he had grown two heads.

I can't even stay in the same room as him. So how can I talk to him about this? "I can't" he frowned sadly. "Why?" I didn't say anything. "Don't tell me it is about your mate thing" I glanced at him before looking away. "I thought you promised to keep it aside and help us finding rogues" I cursed Chayeon knowing she must have told him everything. "Chayeon told me what happened with Areum and others. I know you want to end this too. So just as for work convince him"

"Why can't you do that?" I sighed tired of this. "Cause he will listen to you for sure" he winked making me groan. "Fine, I will talk to him" I told him and he cheered happily. I had a feeling he has something else planned but I ignored it. I am too tired to think about anything else. I decided to take shower and change before going out. I smell like blood and sweat.

I had a quick shower and changed in to comfortable dress. I went downstairs looking for Namjoon. I will finish with it first since I am getting nervous. I walked in to the living room but no one was there. I frowned looked in the kitchen and dining room. But no luck. Where did they all go?

"Looking for someone?" I jumped in surprise turning around quickly. I didn't expect him to be so close so I was shocked. Namjoon stepped back and waited for me to speak. I looked at him for a second then realized that he asked me a question. "I was looking for you" his eyes widened at me answer. Of course, he would be surprised. "Do you need something?" he asked me looking with a smile on his face.

"Well, I wanted to discuss something with you. can we go somewhere else?" I asked him looking around the room. I can't just discuss with him about this when we are not sure who is helping rogues. We have to be careful of what we say in the pack house. "Um...sure" he looked unsure of what to say. He walked out of the house and I followed him.

"Where are we going?" I asked him when we were sitting in his car. He glanced at me before looking ahead. "I thought you wanted to go somewhere" I rolled my eyes. "We could have talked in your room" he smiled cheekily looking at me. "Well, if you want to we can go back then" he paused. "I don't think you want to go there after what happened last time in my room" my eyes widened when I remembered what happened.

I looked away when I realized I am blushing. Damn I never thought he would bring that up. Kim Namjoon, how shameless are you? he chuckled at me. My heart skipped a beat hearing his laugh. Even though I hate to admit, he still has that effect on me. "Relax, I was just joking" he said puling the car in to familiar restaurant. "Come on" he signalled me to come as he opened my door.

I was stuck in watching the place I didn't even realized he got out of the car. I got out and thanked him. He closed the door and guided me in placing his hand on my back. I was about to protest but I stopped when I observed how he was giving looks to all the guys in the restaurant. It must be his wolf feeling possessive. It would be better to shut my mouth rather than making him mad.

He asked for a private booth and waiter guided us to the room at the end of the hallway. We thanked the waiter and sat down in the chairs. "Do you remember this place?" he asked me hopefully. "I can't forget even if I want to Namjoon" I said remembering the place. "You promised to be there for me till the end of life even though you don't know what it means at that time" we came to this restaurant when we were nine and Jiyong visited us. They were leaving and alpha and dad took out for a dinner.

We all came together and Jiyong told us he is leaving next day and I cried. I left the table after a little tantrum then Namjoon followed me out and stayed with me. He tried to stop me crying but I kept crying. Then he promised to stay with me always and help me with everything. "I do know what it means but I just failed at keeping my promise" I know he is talking about the mate thing. "Hey do you know I met Jiyong?" I asked him trying to change the topic. "Really?" I smiled. "I met him when we visited his pack. I heard he is coming" I told him about our meeting leaving the parts of the attack. I don't think he need to know about Areum or any things happened in my life.

"Why do I have a feeling it is not the full story" my heart skipped a beat as I looked at him surprised. "I am sure we are not close enough to share everything" he frowned but nodded his head agreeing. "We should order something first" he said pressing a bell to call the waiter. I read the menu ordering some food. He ordered the same dish as mine.

"So, what did you want to talk about?" he asked me once the waiter left. "Jungkook told me a plan about finding the one who is helping the rogues" I told him about the plan and he listened not saying anything. "It will backfire if it goes out. People will freak out and it would be hard to control them" he said once I am done explaining. "Well, we can" I paused when I noticed waiter coming in. he placed the dishes on the table asked if we need anything.

"We will only inform few members who are high rank officials" he rolled his eyes. "What is the guarantee that the person will not tell the members. They will get more chance to inform rogues if we are distracted" I pouted. I didn't think of it. See this is why I said Namjoon will be a good alpha. "I didn't think of it" I admitted slowly frowning. "Though idea is not bad, we will think of something else"

I know he is saying that not to make me sad but I felt bad for not thinking a small point like this. "Ok" I said playing with fork in my hand. "Why did you bring us here? we could have talked anywhere" I asked him placing my fork down. I didn't feel hungry after the discussion. "I thought I could get some time to talk to you" I was scared and nervous when I thought of speaking with him but now I feel comfortable.

"About what?" he shrugged his shoulders. "Anything, everything" I looked at him confused. "I wanted to talk about us" I sighed knowing where is it going. "Namjoon-" he cut me off placing his hand on mine. "Please just listen to me" I took my hand away and he looked down retreating it back. "Sorry" I waved it off.

"I want to take you somewhere else before I tell you. will you please come with me?" he asked me pleadingly. I couldn't say no when he looked so desperate. "Fine" he smiled showing his dimples when I agreed to go with him. He got up placing some money on the table and signalled me to leave. I mentally scolded myself for forgetting my purse. I should have paid some amount. It is not right for him to pay completely.

He politely declined saying it is his treat when I told him the same thing. I sat in his car waiting for him to take us where he wanted to take me. In the middle he stopped the car and got some flowers. "Are we visiting someone?" I asked him looking at the flowers. "Something like that" I got even more confused with his answer. I shrugged knowing I will find out soon anyway.

I got out and stood there frozen when he brought me to cemetery. "Come with me" he said pulling my hand gently. I walked in side slowly feeling a little tense with the place. He led me to my father grave and stopped. He placed the flowers and greeted him. "Hello Mr.Kang, its been a while. I wanted to come but I was scared your daughter will see me here" I looked at him not understanding what is going on here.

"I am sure you are confused. I will tell you everything today" he said turning to me. "I come here every week since he died" it can't be possible right? I mean I come here every week too then how come I didn't see him. "I used to visit him on Sundays. I know you used to come on Saturdays" he is right. "I felt bad that he died saving me. when my dad told me he saved me I felt like I should pay him a visit. Then it became a habit"

"Why didn't you tell me?" I asked him. "It was not that easy. You know you were my first love. I used to like you since childhood. I used to get jealous every time you spend with other boys. When your father died I thought you would hate me. I was scared of rejection. I avoided you because of my fear. But when people started bullying you I was scared of losing my position. I never involved but never stopped either"

"I thought they will stop it one day but it never got better" this is all too much. "When I found out you are my mate I was happy but scared too. I was scared how would people react if they know you are my mate. I rejected you in confusion. I had sleepless nights thinking about you. I wanted to sort everything out but I couldn't. I was just an eighteen old normal kid who couldn't solve anything. But when you left I learned the things. I realized I should put myself first and think of my happiness"

"Then what about Jiyeon? Why did you sleep with her?" I remember the pain I felt. He can't say he was confused about this too. "My wolf was forcing me to mark you. You don't know how hard it is to control your wolf when your mate is in front of you. I want to fuck you so hard now too" I looked at him shocked at his choice of words. "I needed time to clear my mind. I didn't want to do something that might hurt us both so I just did one-night stands but I didn't know you can feel the pain until dad told me about it when you left the pack"

"I know what I did was wrong but I was scared. I am not asking you to take me back but I want you to know that I will do everything to get your forgiveness." I stood there processing everything. This is all too much. God can't my life be normal like others. Why does it have to be so complicated? "Can we go home?" I whispered not looking at him. I don't know what to say after all this confession.

I mean my mate said I am his first love and he still love me. He is ready to start a relation if I forgive him? what should I say to him? the ride back was silent. He didn't say anything and I was thankful for that. I needed time to wrap my head around this. He can't expect me to say I forgive you after everything. "Thanks for today" I said before walking out of the car. I walked in and saw Taehyung sitting in the living room.

"Y/N?" I looked at him. "Where were you? why weren't you answering my calls?" I checked my phone and saw 20 missed calls from him. "Sorry, I was with Namjoon and-" his eyes widened. "You were with who?" he took my hand leading me to our room.

"Tae" before I could finish my sentence, I felt a pair of lips on mine. My eyes widened when I realized Taehyung has freaking kissed me. 

AUTHOR NOTE:

Hello readers... So how do you like the chapter? Who do you support? 

Team Taehyung or Team Namjoon? 

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~SN_ANGEL~