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Disclaimer : it's completely imagination don't compare with reality 💭 

December 4, 2023

Ashwin aa emathita...

Ippo jolly ivan kooda.. next yaro

Mothala sam aprom ashwin ippo ivana ?

Such a cheap Girl she is

She uses everybody for her fame. Poor guys...

Innocence ellam nadipu!

The glow of the screen dimmed as Ashwin closed Instagram, a sense of guilt and frustration weighing on him. He had been scrolling through her account again, mesmerized by the recipe video she had posted.

The way she effortlessly presented the steps, her infectious laughter, and the genuine joy in her eyes it all painted a picture of innocence that contrasted sharply with the harsh comments below.

Tomorrow it's going to be two complete years since Ashwin last saw her. The memories of their last encounter lingered in the recesses of his mind, a blend of bittersweet moments and unspoken words.

As he shut down the app, a pang of self-loathing settled within him. Ashwin couldn't escape the feeling that he was the source of her current struggles. The negativity surrounding her seemed to intensify as the time passes, both literally and metaphorically.

His mobile rang.

"Ashwin enga irukka ?" The opposite person asked. 

Ash : veetla than Raksha sollu he said in low voice.

Rak : deiii enna da aachu ?

Ash : onnu illa da

Rak : aprom yen dull aa pesara ?

Ash : Athan onnu illa da..

Rakshan huffed at his dominance.

Ash : ethuku koopta ?

Rak : onnu illa

Ash : mch.. tension agatha da

Rak : nee sonna na othukanu...na sonna nee othuka mattiya ? Ithu nala irukkey

Rakshan scoffed.

Ash : Machan he winced.

Rak : enna da un Prechana ?

Ash : athan..

Rak : machan Enna kolakarana agatha solliten

Ash : Raksha...

Rak : ozunga Enna pannitu irunthenu unmaiya sollu

Ash : ava new recipe reel pathutu irunthen. He asked in low voice.

Rak : ethuku pakura ? Athan un career than mukiyam enkitta pesathanu avala un life aa irunthu thorathitala ? Aprom enna da ?

Ash : Machan... please da... na avalukaga than pannen. Enala ava ivalo negativity face pandra...ippo kooda Pathan comments la... ithula nanga onna iruntha innum....than da varum.

Rak : deii... nee enna loosa ? 2 years back negativity varuthunu avala un life la irunthu poga sollita seri ok nee ava career kaga panna but avala pathi nenachiya ? Illa ippo avala suthi negativity illaya ? Nee pannathula enna nadanthuchu nu sollu ?

Ashwin's silence echoed through the empty spaces of his life, a heavy quietude that enveloped him. Rakshan's words lingered, a stark reminder that the absence of her direct presence had become an insurmountable hurdle. 

It was as if a silent force had tied his words, rendering him speechless in the face of the truth.

The absence of her direct presence was more suffocating than he could have imagined. Rakshan's words echoed in his mind, haunting him with the undeniable truth – nothing had truly happened because she was no longer a tangible part of his life.

Every step felt heavier, as if burdened by the void she had left behind. He found himself caught in a routine that revolved around her, unable to break free.

The mere thought of navigating a day without her influence left him feeling adrift.

His habit of stalking her had become an unintentional crutch, a feeble attempt to bridge the gap created by her absence.

Every scroll through her online presence, every glimpse of her captured moments, was a bittersweet reminder of what once was.

It wasn't just about following her physical movements; it was an attempt to grasp onto the fragments of the connection that remained. The screen became a surrogate for the presence he so desperately longed for, a way to keep her close, even if only in the digital realm.

He craved not just her virtual presence but the tangible, the warmth of shared moments, the unspoken understanding that came with physical proximity.

Rak : pathil pesu da!

Ashwin declined the call.

Rak mv : Ivan thiruntha mattan.

His mind played tricks on him, convincing him that he was the barrier preventing her from achieving greater heights.

Two years ago, fueled by a mixture of frustration and determination, Ashwin made the decision to step away. He thought it would be the key to healing, a way to untangle the complexities of his emotions.

Little did he know that the absence he sought would become a relentless ache, an emptiness that seemed to grow with each passing day.

The initial days were masked with a sense of purpose. He busied himself with new routines, convinced that distance was the antidote to his heartache.

Yet, as the seconds turned into minutes, and minutes into days, the realization struck like an unexpected storm – he couldn't be without her, not even for a single day.

The weight of his own perceived failures pressed heavily on Ashwin's chest. In his eyes, he had become a hindrance, a dark cloud casting shadows over someone who deserved nothing but sunshine.

In the quiet contemplation that followed, Ashwin couldn't help but entertain the thought – what if there had been no negativity surrounding them ? The hypothetical scenario unfolded in his mind like an unwritten script, painting a picture of a different, perhaps more harmonious, but reality hits hard.

As he envisioned this possibility, a wistful smile tugged at the corners of Ashwin's lips.

They could have been together, he mused, navigating the journey of life hand in hand without the interference of external forces.

The barriers that had once stood between them, dissipating like mist in the morning sun.

Ashwin's phone pinged.

Ashwin's eyes shifted to the screen, and the source of the ping revealed itself – a message from his fanpage. A edit of him saying.

Nambaluku onnu pudikum na intha universey atha senju tharum nu na namburen.

Ash mv : ennaku avala than pudikum. Ippo Intha universe ethavathu pannuma ?

The room seemed to close in on him, and unknowingly, his eyes closed.

Ashwin found himself lost in the maze of his thoughts, a maze where guilt and regret intertwined, forming a complex web of emotions.

The world around him faded as he succumbed to the exhaustion of his own inner turmoil.

Muzhusa unakkena naan vaazhuren
Pudhusa dhinam dhinam ena paakkuren
Azhutha thozhula naan saanjupen
Alavillaama aasai vekkuren... his mobile rang.

He picked his call in sleep and placed it in his ears.

Ash : hello... he said sleepy tone.

Sivu : ashwineey!!!

Ashwin immediately startled and sat up and checked his mobile.

Sivaangi ma 💜

His eyes teared unknowingly, it's been 2 years they met and they spoke.

Sivu : helo ashwineey... Sivaangi frown when she heard no response.

Ash : sollu ma... gulping his tears.

Sivu : Enna pandringa ?

Ashwin's forehead creased into a deeper frown as he stared at his phone in disbelief.

The name flashing on the screen was one he hadn't expected to see. The girl who he made distanced from him.

A perplexed mixture of emotions churned within him, a blend of happiness, confusion, surprise, and a tinge of anxiety.

"What is happening here ?" he thought, his mind racing to make sense of the unexpected call. Not understanding anything he responded

Ash : summa than ma. Yen Enna achu ? He asked cluelessly.

Sivu : nalaiku shoot la ashwineey athan innaiku free nenga instavum varalaya athan practice la busy aa nu pakka call pannen

Ash : practice aa ?

Sivu : ada enna achu ashwineey amensia va unaku ? Nalaiku CWC shoot la athuku practice pannalaya ?

Ash mv : cwc shoot aa ? 😳

Ashwin checked his phone and it showed March 1, 2021. 10.30 am.

Magic has begun 🪄...

kindly know Let me how is the plot ? 

Neenga soldratha vechu na continue pandren 😌 

Illana we will drop. 

Come on sollitu ponga 💜 

Makkalae I am screaming here 🤩 we got our EAP back.

Me : thanks kadavuley! 🙇🏻‍♀

Anyways I am happy...hope you are all happy too 😌❤✨