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"You look a bit tense there...still," Gajeel commented but I chose to ignore him.

I'm just gonna see where tonight goes...I'm so confused and obsessed...? Like I don't wanna lose Lucy and I most definitely don't wanna hurt her anymore but...what she did scare me shitless.

I don't wanna abandon her in her time of need but...what if she does something like that again? I don't think I can handle losing her...dealing with the fact that she wouldn't be in my life anymore...

Maybe our love is real? Maybe I'm just too afraid to face it for real.

"Okay, Dragneel. You really need to take that sunken expression off your face and down more of that jack Daniel's your babysitting."

Yup. We are at the bar that's inside the tavern and I'm not completely living for it because I don't know what to do.

Gajeel huffed at my silence and quickly asked for 4 shots of tequila then twisted my chair to face him.

"Okay. I get it your dealing with some soft mushy feelings and shit about blondie but you need to get wasted tonight. Forget all your troubles. Just for tonight, whatever it is...throw it out just for tonight! Okay?" I sighed and nodded

I guess I needed this. Anything will work to take my mind away from Lucy...hopefully.

The bartender came back with our shots and he handed me two while Gajeel got the other two.

Didn't waste a second and both downed them at the same time. Not even making a disgusted face at the horrible taste.

"Hell yeah!!" Someone from the other side of the bar yelled and I laughed.

Fuck you depression.

L U C Y

Well... These days sure have been more different than I had originally thought...I actually got the rest I needed. Which I'm happy about. Once I got my mind to shut off for the first 3 days I took advantage.

I decided to tell dr. Greene about my eating disorder as well but she already knew that I had one and didn't wanna rush me into it telling her because most patients kept quiet.

Anyway today I get a roommate and a whole new room. I'm kinda nervous about meeting new people because I don't know who exactly to trust and If they are gonna judge me.

I'm terrified the only reason I'm not with the doctors is that I need to get better for...for nastu.

Plus the others obviously but I feel the need to heal for him more...I need to figure so much out.

''Lucy. Are you ready to head to your new room?'' Dr.Greene questioned as I quickly stood up, I almost fell right back down but kept myself upright. Staying in this room has been real and all but I just wanna do what must be done so I can finally get out of here. 

She laughed and I felt my cheeks grow hot..I hate embarrassing myself. When she was done she led me out of the room and we were now currently on our way to the next wing, This wing that I have been in is the one where we are needed to be watched more often than the others. There happen's to be 4 individual wings on the 5th floor. The one we're currently on is the 2nd, The first one Is where you enter through the elevators and are greeted by the receptionist on this floor.

The other 3rd wing is where I'm moving to apparently that's where the ones who are required safe enough are able to be grouped up to help with the process of being here alone. Well, that's in my words... In dr.greenes words, it was 'Rehab for the troubled' Which I didn't really disagree with. I was a very troubled person, Which I'm surprised I admitted it..Wow, This place is starting to work wonders.

''Lucy, When you're here, you do understand that it is required that we pair you with a therapist...'' She suddenly spoke which made me freeze. A therapist..I didn't even bother thinking about one of those. Sighing I slowly nodded figuring I might as well give it try.

''That's great! Now we are almost to the 3rd wing. Are you excited to meet your new roomie?'' She smirked and it honestly made me happy...Dr.greene was a pretty good doctor if I had to say so myself. I mean so far she was pretty chill. 

After a few more minutes of walking the halls just to get to the 3rd wing, we finally stopped in front of 2 giant wooden doors that had a couple of fewer locks than what I was used too.

Which was a relief and scanned her I.D card and quickly turned back to me with a giant smile on her face before opening the two heavy doors and I held my breath, My heart slightly speeding up because I happen to be nervous.

When we walked in there were groups of teens and young adults all around It looked almost like a high school but more...fitting. No one looked like they were out of place and for some reason that made my heart feel full. Despite everyone being here for some serious reason I felt like I was connected to them in some way...I didn't even know anyone here.

I looked at Dr.Greene with my mouth dropped open in shock she was still smiling like a mad man. ''I knew You would like it here. No one here judges you...wanna know why?'' She tilted to her head as she asked and I replied with a 'why' and she said ''Because They are all here for something similar to you. For the better...to survive.''

I nodded thinking about understanding what she meant...I love this feeling. ''C'mon let us go get you settled.'' and with that, I followed her down a hall. I was slightly sad that we left what seemed like the main part of this wing where all the others were. 

We Came to a stop in front of a metal door that had a barred window and I just dismissed it Excited to meet my new roommate.  She quickly popped her head inside the room and when she spotted who she was looking for she opened the door for me to walk inside. Suddenly I felt nervous again...What if My new roomie is gonna hurt me? What If they think I'm fat and look like a troll? What if, What if, What if. That's all my mind kept saying and so to prove to myself I can do this I walked inside. 

''Hey.''

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Hi guys! Peep the new cover 'V' Also Sorry this story hasn't exactly been Nalu Friendly but I Promise we will get there :)