L U C Y

"I found him with his head detached."

I couldn't contain my horror as my trembling just begun. He has seen his own brother headless...

"Natsu...no.." I said and he let a tear slide down his face. My heart broke for him as I quickly wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him closer.

He sobbed into my shoulder letting me know how much pain he has held in for far to long.

"I didn't get to say goodbye!" He sobbed into my shoulder and I just rubbed his back trying my best to be his moral support while we're both breaking at the same time.

"Lucy he's gone and it's all my fault!" He yelled I abruptly pulled back and left my hands on his shoulders "Do not. Think like that. Natsu it was not your fault. You didn't tell those guys to come looking for him, did you? No. Were you the one who shot your friend? Absolutely not. Natsu...bad things happen to good people. Please don't ever blame yourself for something you had zero control over." I begged him to understand but I knew he wouldn't...not until he decided he was done being the bad Guy.

"I-I think I love you...Lucy." Now that was a shock.

I immediately made eye Contact with him, I felt the fear seep into my reality...its to soon.

"Natsu-" I started but he cut me off "Lucy...I know your not ready. Your terrified I can feel it." He said and he wasn't wrong I am terrified.

I wasn't ready for another relationship hell I don't even know my feelings, yeah sure I feel something for him but...love? I'm not ready.

{ FlashBack }

"The stars look beautiful tonight.." I commented with a bright smile looking up at the stars with my best friend.

"Yeah they do but...there's only one star who shines above them all." Sting said as he turned on his side, so now he's facing me.

I did the exact same thing and looked him in the eyes he had a small smile with a slight blush peaking through his cheeks.

I tried to hold in my inner fangirl at how adorable he looks. "And that star is you, Lucy." He started to lean in close to me while I leaned in as well, I felt my eyes drop shut as he pressed a kiss against my lips.

Butterflies exploded in my stomach before he pulled away quickly. "I love you Lucy." He sighed in content as he stared at me.

I smiled the biggest smile I ever done and cheered with tears of joy streaming down my face.

"I love you too, sting! So god damn much." He laughed and stood up pulling me with him.

We quickly embraced eachother.

I could stay here like this for all eternity...

Or so I thought...

{ Flash back End }

The memories were sour, he didn't love me.

Maybe at first but he became sick. Maybe Natsu won't  be the same way..I know he isn't but I couldn't be too sure.

"Natsu..." he stopped me again " I will give you time. You don't gotta say it, but I just really wanted to tell you. I'm not normally nice like I was to you...remember that night you arrived?" He questioned and I nodded silently.

He seemed like a completely different person, he seemed cold.

"That is how I am to new people but..something in me would not let me be like that towards you. I can't really remember much about it but...I read something on soulmates and uh, Lucy I think your my soulmate."

"I can feel what your feeling when we are together, I just..I feel at home with you. I have a pull towards you..." my eyes are tearing up again for multiple reasons.

1 being I'm afraid, I can't give him what he wants because I will always be afraid. I'm not ready and I wish I was so I could give him the love he deserves.

2 because He's such a sweetheart and when I'm gone he's gonna be so broken.

The last but not least 3, He makes me happy and I believe him. I completely understand and I knew it was true but I didn't wanna look too much into it.

"H-hey...don't cry. This wasn't supposed to make you cry." He exclaimed and I giggled. The fact that we were both looking into his memories about his past which was sad but now we are laughing lightly.

It's an amazing thing...to have someone to laugh with..

Foolish girl.

I may be...but I'm willing to be a fool if it means I can be around him.

"I may not be too sure on my feelings now...but when I am...Natsu I promise to say it back to you." I told him and he smiled the biggest smile I have ever seen.

I'm not exactly sure when I will be ready...or know when I'm in love but I'm willing to wait it out.

He makes it worth it...
He's the light in my very dark world.

"You don't know how happy I am to hear that..." he grabbed my hand pulled me towards his chest. I giggled and wrapped my arms around his back trying my best to return his hug.

~*~
We stayed at the gym for a few more hours he was showing where he does his matches and how he trains.

I even asked him if he could show me self defense sometime. He wasn't to pleased to know that I wanted to learn how to protect myself. Maybe he was afraid I would turn tail and use it against him? I don't know.

He kinda warmed up to it though, he was saying earlier about how he feels I will be a good fighter if I ever did any thing like that but I don't think I could.

Doing harm onto someone else is somthing that's not for me. I know all too well how it feels. You know just to be someone's personal punching bag.

The 'good ol' days.' Were such a bad time. How pathetic I am to even let myself be used like that...you know what. Never-mind. I need to stop thinking like that.

Your the one whose destroying yourself...don't blame it on your past useless girl.

There it is...that familiar insecurity.
Always there to truly remind me of my worth.

Forever...

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Hiya! It's been a while and I'm sorry! I'm in South Carolina right now so everything is messed up lol

Also I'm very sorry for the 180 up there at the beginning of the chapter haha. I completely switched topics so fast and didn't realize it.

Hope you all enjoy the chapter though, sorry for making you wait! ❤️