L U C Y

I don't like it.
I don't like my room... Its empty and cold, theres a surveillance camera up in the left corner of my room. It can see everything I'm doing...I don't like it at all.

There's one window but it's barred up almost like the windows at the prison. How can they expect a person not to go insane in here? Theres only a bed.. No nightstand.

"Don't worry Dear. This room isn't permanent, It's only until your not one of our high risk patients."

I didn't say anything just kept silent after all..what could I say?  I'm the one who landed myself here in the first place.

"I promise it will all get better sweetheart but for now...This is all you can do to help yourself. You just gotta heal."

After she got me situated on the bed and ended up teaching me how to use the 'assistance' button thats attached to the side of the bed frame she showed me where the bathroom was located.

I didn't even see the door that leads to the bathroom. My mind has been too focused on This morning right before they took me up here.

                        ~ F L A S H B A C K ~

Erza Pulled away from me with the tiniest of mostiure in her eyes and my guilt was instantly Tripled.

"Erza...I-" she quickly put her hand over my mouth and shook her head. "You don't gotta apologize to me...I know you had your reasons, it don't mean its okay but since your in the process of healing I will reschedule your beating for another time."

I can't tell if shes being for real or not but A part of me is almost certain shes not joking. I just let out a nervous chuckle thank ful that I get to miss out on getting beat by her.

Wow...she just threatened me but I didn't feel fear? Maybe its because I know she's being playful trying to lighten the mood even just a bit which i'm extremely thankful for.

After a bit more chatting with erza and gray - Natsu didn't bother saying anything which He didn't have too but I wish he would have.- the doctor walked back in with her clipboard.

"Okay Your room is all set for you. Are there any questions any of you guys have about this arrangement? I know it seems intimidating at first but think of this as a boost for her to get motivated."

I wanted to laugh because how is getting sent to the looney bin get someone 'motivated'

Erza spoke up first "How long would she be spending here?" I instantly looked down at my arm Its bandaged up with and I.V going up to my elbow.

I could feel his eyes on me but I couldn't bring myself to look up at him. After all the hell I just caused him and everyone in my circle? I shouldnt even have the title of being their friend.

The Doctor made a thinking face as she responded "uuuh, Depending on her healing process It should be about a week or two. We have to make sure she's stable enough before sending her back home. Most hospitals will send patients home after about 3-4 days of being monitored but that also ends up giving them a higher risk because after you go back to the place you harmed...you will uh have trauma."

"You mean like PTSD?" Natsu finally spoken up. I look at him and he's not looking at me anymore which I'm a bit thankful for because I don't wanna see anymore sad faces on them. I hate myself for causing them all this pain.

"Somthing like that...She's gonna have to talk to several people about what all really happened that night. Our patients have a very hard time opening up but this is somthing we can't rush. That's why I'm afraid you guys should be prepared for this to take longer than the estimated time frame."

"Will they be able to visit me..?" All heads turned to me after finally speaking up for the first time in a good while.

The Doctor gave me a small smile "I wish I had a better anwser but...until your atleast showing some signs of your Improvement we can't allow them to visit. My apologies." 

How the hell am I gonna do this? They are my rock I need them to tell me to keep going.

"Now You guys have until visiting hours are over then I'm afraid we will have to take miss Lucy up to her new room. Spend your time wisely." and just like that she walked out of the room.

It was deathly silent no one said a word, well technically the only sound was happy still digging through the doctors cabinets.

Oh how I wish I was as oblivious to the world around me like him.

                             ~ P R E S E N T ~

They didn't stay very long after the doctor left...

They all just kinda made up exscuses to leave early and walked out the door not really looking back.

What really hurt me the most was natsu.. He was the last to walk out. He didn't even say anything, he just gave me a kiss on my forhead and walked out the door.

I have no room to be the one acting hurt in this situation...I really fucked up. I seriously damaged them during the total span of 24 hours.

What kind of person am I to harm those who I claim to love so much?

"Alright lucy I have to go do my charts, Remember the button if you need anything also.. Breakfast comes at like 6:30am and Lunch is 3:00 Pm then we serve dinner at 10. Your medications will be given to you at each meal. Is there anything you wish to know?"

" actually... there is, what am I supposed to do around here when there's nothing to do?"
Dr. Greene laugh as if what I asked was a joke I only raised my eyebrow at her.

"Darlin if all goes as planned your time in this room will fly by. Try not to think on it so much take this time to sleep and heal. Give your mind a much needed rest." And just like that she walked out the door and I'm pretty sure I heard like 5 locks click.

"Yeah sleep...I'm sure it will be easy." If only...

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Well hello!

Its most certaintly been a while! I have finally updated so no worries about the story being discontinued It just takes me forever to get motivated to write!

Anyways I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter..despite how depressing It's been 😂.

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