{A/N} : thank you all so much for the support ❤️ I'm sorry for the crappy chapter below!
L U C Y
"Hey Lucy, wanna grab a bite" I jumped in fright as gray appeared out of no where. I put my palm over my heart in attempt to chill out.

"Hey! Bitch boy. Don't scare her, bozo!" Natsu said and pushed gray and he just laughed.

"Your whipped man." He smirked and Natsu scoffed.

"Puh-lease. Oh hey! Isnt that Juvia I see over there?" He put his finger on his chin as if in deep thought and gray about fainted.

Natsu broke out into a fit of laughter and I was just left confused, whom is juvia? Does gray admire her?

"What ever. Let's go get some food, I'm hungry." He muttered about Natsu being a bone head and lead the way while me and Natsu trailed behind him.

I really hope they won't make me eat anything. If I do I won't be able to keep it down. Perhaps I could just get a water with ice and grapes?

That counts right...?

No. Your not allowed to eat. Remember when..
Stop.

I won't eat.
I don't need it.

I kept my eyes downcast as Natsu started to catch up to gray and had a conversation that I didn't bother listening to.

I'm tired and really wanted to go home dang it.

Home?
Home?
You. Don't. Have. A. Home.

That's right. I don't have one.

"Lucy!" Natsu grabbed my shoulders and shook me as if to wake me up.
I just stared at him like he was crazy.

"H-huh?"

"I was asking if you cared where we went." Oh. I just shrugged and smiled at him "I don't mind." He beamed and ran toward a tavern, it looked pretty old fashioned.

It had a wooden porch with a few chairs and tables outside, there was 3 people smoking and laughing at jokes.

"Yo! Natsu. Whose your friend?" A orange haired guy asked, he happened to be accompanied by a rather hefty fellow.

"Oh jet, this is Lucy. She just came to town a few days ago." Jet -his name as Natsu called him - just stared at me with narrowed eyes.

"Why would you come to a run down town like magnolia? Are you a spy? Tell me. Are you aware of somthing called 'magic'?" And before I could blink he was in front of me his eyes happened to be full of rage and hate.

Hate?

I'm trembling?
Indeed. I could hide it, I am afraid of this guy. He acts as if I had just hurt his puppy, which I would never do such a barbaric thing.

He moved his arm way to fast for my liking and I shrieked and cowered back.

"Stop it!!" Natsu pushed jet away from me, while gray came up and tried to stop Natsu from going at him.

My whole body was shaking, was a random stranger actually about to hit me?

"Yo, what the hell is your problem jet?!" Gray.

"Since when do you act out on anyone whom you don't recognize? You just about hit her for fucks sake!" Who was that? That was a voice I didn't recognize.

"No. I won't let another spy weasel their way into our life, so when we end up letting our guard down they take their chance and take someone or even worse kill them! Not again." His next words left me feeling cold,there was a slight tremble to his voice.

"Not since levy. Never again will I trust an outsider."

"Lucy isn't like that!" Jet just laughed coldly,"think what you want Natsu, you can be the one who gets somthing precious taken away from you. Right before your very eyes." Those words were enough for Natsu to loose what little control he had left.

"Oh I have. I have felt the same exact rage you feel right now. Except I didn't threaten other people! We all suffer through somthing Jet! It's best you learn that now, if you even say some stupid shit like that again to Lucy, well. You won't be to happy anymore."

Jet scoffed loudly " is that a threat Natsu? Do you really wanna start somthing, over a blonde bimbo! I bet that her whole personality is fake! It's probably just to throw you off!" Natsu was about to respond but before he could his hefty friend - the one voice I didn't recognize- joined in.

"Enough! Jet look at her! She's crying! You used to hate it when girls cried.." he sounded lost.

I'm crying?
Weak.

"Let's go back to the house Lucy. I lost my appetite." Without another word he just walked away and I picked myself up and followed after him silently.

~*~

Guilt.

It was eating me alive. It's been 3 days since then. Natsu hadn't came to see me nor I him.

I can't possibly expect him to wanna see me though...I mean I didn't cause a fight with just my being there.

Why am I so weak?
Why did I have to get a reaction?
Damn you sting! You ruined me...

I hadn't eaten either, Gray and Erza have offered me food but I just told them I had already eaten.

I lied.

Sighing I leaned back in the bed and stared at the ceiling.

Letting my thoughts drift away, all to soon I fell asleep.

A sound of the door creaking open woke me up instantly.
"Sorry did I wake you?" It was Natsu. I was immediately alert and sat up in the bed with my cheeks blazing.

"N-no...it's fine." He just chuckled and came to sit next me on the bed.

A few moments of silence and I started to speak, "listen..I'm so-"
He cut me off. "Don't. Lucy I don't want you to think you caused that fight...it's not your fault. I promise, it's just; Jet has lost his sister to a little problem we had a few years back. So some of us have a hard time trusting. " I nodded in understanding because I knew all too well.

Oh yeah I knew exactly how it felt; just to have everything you ever know and loved turn their backs on you, destroyed your trust and love for others just for their own selfish deeds. I knew all to well.

"For some reason though...I seem to trust you a lot more easier than anyone else in my life. It's that damn pull I feel toward you." I smiled softly at the darkness in the room.

"Lucy. I'm sorry for not talking or coming to see you these past 3 days. I just needed time, I hadn't been that angry in forever, and when I tend to get really angry ...it um takes a bit for me to calm myself. " I decided to take a bold action; I put my hand on Natsu shoulder and smiled at him.

"Please don't apologize for your actions, no one is at fault." He sent me one back but it never really reached his eyes.

"Okay! Enough with the depressing things, hungry?" I forced a smile and nodded my head.

It's okay. I'm fine. I can do this.

I mean I could always throw it up later right?

"Good cos we are going back to the tavern for some delicious steak and potatoes!" His eyes seemed to be glowing when he was talking about food. I honestly felt a little bit relieved that he finally came to me, I was scared I ruined my bond with someone amazing as him.

I think...I'm falling.

In love again...
Dear god, send me help please?