A/N : FOR SOME ODD REASON, I keep listening to this damn song. Send help? haha

                        L U C Y

Tattoos are painful.

Not as painful to what I had experienced but its on the scale, There shouldn't even be a damn scale. Oh that's right! I never told you where I got my tattoo.

I got it placed on my thigh,natsu was watching Gajeel the whole time trying to make sure he wasn't peeping which I thought was cute until I flinched when Gajeel hit a nerve in my leg.

I wish I could have gotten his reaction on video, Natsu about strangled him for hurting me on Purpose. Mentally rolling my eyes, If he wanted to do it he would without a second thought.

And he will. you will always be hurt, your not fine now.

I thought I told you to shut up?

I'm you. Only you can make me shut up. You know the perfect way to do so.

Where's my anti depressants? We are back at the house and I'm in my room, Natsu was tired and wanted to go back to bed so I just left him be. However sleep wasn't on my mind just like it hadn't been all night.

That's another thing, I haven't felt tired. I have work today as well  how did I forget about that?

They won't care for my tattoo would they? Oh well. I wonder if I can learn some self defense from someone.

You will run and hide the moment someone raises their hand toward you. Coward.

I felt anger rise in me which seems almost normal now. I got up from the bed and went into my drawer and pulled out my anti depressants.

Stupid voice.
Stupid girl.

Popping 3 down, the third one is to make the voice stay away longer. After a few minutes they kicked in and I felt tired so I went to lay down. As soon as my head hit the pillow my alarm went off. I groaned and reluctantly got up to get ready.

Maybe staying up all night wasn't the greatest decision, on the bright side I got a tattoo that will remind me to carry on.

No matter what fight don't lose! I overcame so much, I can do this.

Hopefully...

~*~

Walking into the tavern - No customers were here yet - MiraJane was just finishing up some dishes before she seen me.

"Oh good morning Lucy!" She smiled a sweet smile and I returned it, She Seems to be the nicest one here. Other than Natsu of course, I can't even believe the complete 180 his attitude was with me. The same night we met, he was cold and guarded. No emotion showing on any of there faces.

I wonder what all they went through in life? Never mind. We all have our secret battles.

"Your earlier than yesterday it that's okay. I could really use the help!" I told her to put me to work where she needed it.

Soon enough the tavern was getting filled with people, I kept my smile on my face today. A few people gave me off looks but I didn't acknowledge them; keep on smiling.

"Hey Lucy! Gajeel needs his order." Lis yelled and I flew to pick up his drink then brought it to his table. "Hey blondie. How's the tattoo? That you forced me to do on you at 3am." I laughed a bit "I feel a little brand new."

I love how he never brought up the fact that he hated me the moment he walked in through the door. Now we just Carry on like normal human beings, if people would just give me a chance and see I'm not here to harm them.

I mean I'm scared to death of anything with violence but sometimes its Somthing that helps you survive. That's why I wanna ask someone here to teach me how to fight.

"Happy healing blondie. Happy damn healing." He mumbled as I was walking away to pick up the empty mugs that were left on a table.

I wonder if Natsu woke up yet? Most likely: The day flew by faster than I could blink, which I'm grateful for.  I did not miss all that standing, but I'm not gonna complain! I need to save up, then I can get me a home and not have to stay with Natsu anymore. I mean I don't mind it honestly I love being near him all the time; that and he's kinda playing a big part in my life right this second.

It's strange and I can't really ever get over it, How the hell am I able to love again?  I mean You would think I would never be able to trust someone so easily, Maybe its because of the bond I feel towards these people? I mean They feel like family, I enjoy every moment I have here Except for the moments I got scared shitless.

I still am scared, Very much. I'm just hiding it I wanna be able to Look whole no matter how much I dont think I do.  Whole. Somethin I'm just pretending to be, This tattoo though that's my sign. The sign that I will overcome this.

''Hey Lucy Natsu is here, Your shift is over as well. You did a great job today,it's like your a new person.'' Mira Complemented and bingo That's the  Idea I want you all to see.  

I bid Mira a goodnight and walked outside the tavern to see Natsu leaning against the pillars he had a bored look on his face until I came into his line of view. ''Hey you.'' He greeted and I smiled at him ''Hows that tattoo treating you right now?''

''It's good. Hurts a bit but i'm welcoming it with open arms, at least it reminds me that I am still in fact a Human and can feel pain.'' It took me a few seconds to realize I over shared and immediately put my hands to my mouth. Oh my did I really just do that? I'm so used to being around natsu that I didn't even have to think my words over they just came tumbling out.

He sent me a sad smile ''It's okay lucy. I understand. You don't have to hide anything from me.'' I nodded ''So uh...How did you sleep?'' He blushed and scratched behind his head. ''I actually just woke up haha-Hey do you care if we go to the store on the way home? It's kinda my turn to do the shopping. Haha'' I nodded and ran to be beside him and grabbed his hand. ''Bold move there, Luce.'' He smirked and tightened his grip on my hand. The whole time I was a tomato,but a happy one at that.