TW: Illness, Vomiting(not descriptive because ew.), Implied panic attack

Angsty Fluff

{Xornoths POV}

"Oh Thank Aeor your awake!!" I yelled as my brother sat up on the bed in the nurses office 
"I wha' happened exactly..?" he questioned trying to sit up but failing
"You fainted scott.. you couldve told me you didnt feel well before you passed out!!" I yelled back at him 
"Sorry.." he muttered 
"Its alright. You probably just felt bad because of the fainting spell, cmon lets go back to our dorm" I demanded 
"Okay." he said before i picked him up
"I- xor!" He said, i just smiled. 

{Scotts POV}

sh!t.. sh!t.. sh!t sh!t sh!t sh!t.. he forgot about my motion sickness.. despite already being sick in which he quickly denied. 
It was a long walk back to the dorms and i quickly began to feel ill. more ill than i did before...

(HEADCANNON: Scott experiences easy motion sickness as a result of previously being an acrobat for a circus [forced on by another foster parent] and it having negative tolls on him, mentally and physically.)

i buried my head into my brothers chest, closing my eyes as to try and break the spell of nausea that washed over me.

~10 minutes later~

"We are.. are you- okay?" Xornoth said/asked
"y..ou.. f'rgot.. i ge' motion sicknes'.. did't y..ou.." i muttered, my words slurred 
"Fvck- i- sorry-!!" He said setting me down and putting an arm around me.

{Xornoths POV}

I felt absolutely awful. I forgot one of probably the most important things to be remembered

{TW BEGINS} 

I guided him to the restroom, where he hunched over and threw up. I felt awful again for forgetting something that makes him so incredibly sick.
This went on for about 10 minutes when we thought it was over, we thought wrong.
We luckily sat there for another 5 minutes as a just in case, and we got lucky we did
I could see tears stream from his eyes, freely down his face as his emetophobia was being triggered awfully as he got sick.
I rubbed circles on his back as i attempted to ease the pain ever so slightly, there was nothing else i could do.. and i hated that.
we thought it was done again.
But guessed wrong once more.
This proceeded for about 30-40 minutes before his stomach finally settled. as he rested the side of his head against my chest as i continued to run circles with my hand on his back to calm him down as he was crying but had no expression on his face.
{TW ENDS}

I walked him back to his bed where i carefully laid him down, he was very visibly shaking and shivering. I grabbed and fanned out a kind of thick, fluffy purple blanket and laid it over him. He melted into the warmth and put his hand under the pillow for comfort. 
I began to walk out 
"Wai'.. xor..?" He mumbled weakly 
"Yes Snowflake?" I mumbled back 
"Stay...?" He mumbled, i smiled
"I cant this time snowflake, i still have classes. You rest. for me." I said smiling softly 
"'ine..." he mumbled, his words slurred as he cuddled into the bed, wrapping his wings softly around himself for more warmth
I smiled and walked downstairs. 

{NOBODYS POV}

Xornoth went down stairs and finished up all his classes. getting the occasional question of where he had been for the past hour. He didnt explain. He didnt owe anyone an explanation.
He met back up with joey, joel and owen. 
"Oh hey xor is scott okay?" Joel asked, joey and Owen confused
Xornoth just nodded, kinda just shooting him a glare, he got the memo as he shut up about it.
"Diid something happe-" owen got cut off by lizzie
"Hey xor! Uh did he uhm, wake up?" Lizzie said, the two confused as xornoth turned around and shot her a glare, she just looked back up at him and nodded, before walking away, getting the gist  xornoth didnt want to talk about it.

{Joels POV}

Given the expression on Joey and Owens faces, they had no clue anything even occurred. How did Xornoth not tell them.. How did they not know-!? I thought to myself "Can we just go back to the dorm?" Joey suggested, xornoth nodded. as we all talked and walked back to the dorm. 

Xornoth opened the door with his keys and stated "You better have a fvck!ng very. good reason for being out of bed." Before walking in. We were confused as he peeked inside to now see xornoths arms around scott and scott leaning on his shoulder. 

"Im 'onna be r'lly 'onest... i don'...." scott mumbled, his words slurred "You are a fvck!ng idiot Scott Major." Xornoth said, scott just hugged his arms around him. "Ughh- look im going to bring you back to bed okay? DO not. get up without telling me.. please?" Xor said, guiding an arm around his brother as they walked down the hallway. 

"I wonder what that was about" Owen questioned
"Only thing i saw was him pass out in gym, maybe this is just xornoth being the overprotective twin he is" I said 
"wait, he fainted?" Joey questioned
"Yeah, i found it weird he hadnt told you guys" I said

{Xornoths POV}

Scott sat down on his bed, hed been mostly sleeping sense passing out earlier. despite the motion sickness, which was my fault.. 

I laid him back down and let him rest. Hed been mostly fine so i took it upon myself to just assume he was exhausted. "Im going to the library, i have study session with Shelby" I said, walking out of the dorm. 
(HEADCANNON: Xornoth tries as hard as he can in school and will do study sessions with Shelby and sometimes gem to keep his grades up for Football, yes he is a football player (AMERICAN FOOTBALL) because idk)

~Time skip 12:00 AM~ (because writers block..)

{Scotts POV}

i woke up very suddenly, i was sweating but felt freezing. I was so utterly confused. why had i even woken up? My head was spinning when a sudden shock wave of pain hit my head "fvck.." i mumbled to myself laying back down under the thick covers xornoth had draped over me. 
I laid there for a good 20 minutes until the shooting pains became too much to bare and i just began silently sobbing
My hands grasped at my head as i gasped for air
I laid there crying for 5 minutes until..
"Scott?" Came a voice from behind me, it was joel.
I looked up, joel had sat up on his bed and was looking over at me
"hh..hmmm..?" i hummed 
"wait- your, your crying are you okay?" Joel said panicked
"'m fine.. " i mumbled 
"No! do not play this act on me!!" Joel said 
"im okay joel.. just a nightmare.." I said, making up a lie.
"You sure your okay?" he asked 
"Mmmhmm.." I mumbled burying my head into my pillow to block out the hallway light.

Luckily i made my way back to sleep, numbing the pain while i wasnt awake.

~3:14 am~

I woke up again suddenly, tears and sweat rolling down my face sitting up swiftly. 
My breathing was heavy and staggered, i felt like i was going to throw up again.
I was horrified.
I felt like i had swallowed glass, slicing every inch of my throat every breath i took and every time i swallowed.
My breaths were coming out as quick pants or gasps
I had started crying
eventually i felt my stomach twist and tighten 
"sh!t.." i thought to myself
I flew the covers off myself and quickly yet quietly made my way out to not wake up joel and owen.
~after- that..~
I sat on the floor of the bathroom, crying my eyes out horrified.
I felt myself grow exhausted my body felt drained. Entirely
I leaned against the cabinet and rested my head in my knees. 
I couldnt bring myself to stand, my eyes felt heavy.
I was still in pain as i could fee myself drift into a light sleep leaning on the counter, sitting on the bathroom floor, hiding my eyes from the blaring light. 

"h-- wak- up.." I heard a tired voice say and felt a hand on my shoulder, my brain couldnt comprehend all of their words right now. "did you.. sleep here.?" Xornoth mumbled to me "mmm.." i hummed in response as he hugged me, i put all my weight into him feeling his hand rub gentle circles on my back 
"Your shivering..! Lets get you changed and back to bed okay..?" Xornoth said, i could hear the worry in his voice, "mmm.. 'kay..." i mumbled as he helped me stand, even with him helping i stumbled and swayed on my feet as a quick wave of dizziness flushed over my whole body
I felt his hand guide strongly against me as he opened the door to me, joel and owens room. 
"Im gonna go get you a hoodie and sweatpants, please stay seated until i come back" xornoth said, i just hummed and nodded in response to him.
Joel and Owen were still asleep, it was only 7:18 am afterall, school didnt start til 9:00. 
He came back, i changed and laid back down. closing my eyes willingly.
Xornoth sat down behind me and stoked my hair gently, as a way to keep me calm.
"Wait- i should've done this sooner-" xornoth said, putting the back of his hand on my forehead 
"oh sh!t your burning up!" Xornoth said somewhat panicked, i was just dazed, cuddled up in my pillows. 
He continued to stroke my hair gently for the next hour until owens alarm went off, when he stopped being startled by the sudden sound. "Mornin'." Xornoth said as my eyes slipped closed. "Oh morning xor! what're you doing in here?" Owen said

{Xornoths POV}

I gestured towards scott, whom was resting on my legs. Owen sat up "Is he alright?" Owen asked me "I think.. he was fine most of the day before fainting in gym, and he fell asleep in the restroom last night, i woke him up this morning and he has a fever, its pretty low right now but still cannot be healthy" i said, owen frowned standing up and sitting down beside us 
Owen placed his hand gently on scotts forehead "yeahh.. that cannot be healthy.." owen mumbled

"I hate seeing him like this.. but what can we do?" Owen stated. "Im not sure.. im gonna stay back today and take care of this stubborn little owl" I chuckled. 
Scotts wings fluttered lightly as he wrapped them around himself. Owen smiled at the cute sight of our brother being wrapped in his own large wings. I pulled the same decently thick purple blanket over him as i could see him shivering "Just dont get youself ill aswell- scott being sick is enough, not that hes needy hes just scott- no illness of his is ever light" Owen said, i smiled "I know.." i continued running my hands through scotts hair as joel woke up 

"You assh0les are loud." Joel said sitting up "Actually we werent being loud" I had accidentally changed my whisper to a normal toned voice "'oud...." scott whispered and groaned. "sorry.. sorry.. " i said, quietly. Joel looked confused 
"...'ts..'ine..." scott slurred, burying his head into my thigh, i slowly ran my fingers through his blonde hair.

"Ill explain heading to class alright joel?" Owen said, joel nodded 
~they got ready~
{Owens POV}

"Bye xor, tell scott we said bye okays?" I said, smiling "I will, ill keep you updated aswell" he said and smiled.
We waved and walked out.
"soooo?" joel said
"scott is uhm- sick- oddly sick-" i said 
"what do you mean by that?" he asked
"well he has a fever, but its not as bad as it typically gets, hes been able to sleep decent which he normally isnt and im not sure its just- different" I said looking over at joel
"Isnt it a good thing its not worse than this though" he said 
"Youve got a point-" I said and we laughed and continued talking.

{Scotts POV}

I woke up, around maybe 3 hours later. the hallway light was on as i looked over, my eyes burned in the glistening light, I wrapped the purple blanket around me, and my leg being entirely numb i limped out of the room, putting only a little bit of pressure on my toes or the base of the cast.
"oh your awake, you couldve texte- WHERE THE FVCK ARE YOUR CRUTCHES?!" xornoth yelled and i saw guilt in his face as i winced, both at the loud noise and in pain "..'edroom.." i mumbled, stumbling and almost falling 
"No no no, your complexion is scaring me." He said, quickly coming over and putting an arm around my back gripping me tightly, guiding me over to the couch as we both sat down.  
"...'orry.." i mumbled 
"Please dont apologize bud" xornoth said sitting back and leaning against a pillow near the arm rest. I was visibly exhausted and wrapped the blanket tightly around myself seeking warmth, i tried to get as comfortable as i could, my brothers thigh as my pillow, the hard, heavy cast resting over my other leg as i got as comfortable as possible.

~A few days of scott not being sick because i felt like it.. and drama duh~

I woke up, feeling awful again. I groaned ever so quietly checking the time "6:45 AM" i thought to myself as i read the time. I sighed, trying to get over the sicky feeling in my throat i swallowed, hoping to clear up a bit of my airways, i failed.
I still had get up, take a shower and got ready. I had a maths test today i could not miss. 

I sat up in my bed and flung my legs over the edge of it causing a strong wave of dizziness to wash over me. I shut my eyes again, willingly letting my body fight against the dizziness that had come out of nowhere. 

Todays gonna go lovely.. i thought to myself standing up, leaning heavily against the bed frame of my bed. Still careful as to not wake up owen and joel. 
I took about 45 minutes to get ready, still feeling awful afterwards but i ignored it. I threw on a black mask a left before the rest of my roommates.
I stopped in the art room as to clear my mind and rest before school actually started.
I tried to keep away from my friend group when the actual school day started, as i knew ide get a crap ton of questions.
Such as "you okay?" "why are you acting weird" "whats wrong" "why are you wearing a mask?" "where were you this morning?" and more. 
I avoided them as much as i could, swapped seats in class and covered my face with my wings when i could. Especially during the test.
When it got to math i was decently prepared. Grian, Joel, Jimmy and Lizzie are in my maths class. So four people to stay away from. I hid my face in the small wings on either side of my head when the paper was glided down onto my desk.
As soon as the paper glided infront of me. I panicked.
I was crying within the first few questions.
I couldnt do this.
I didnt know what i was doing.
And on top of that i felt god awful.
Both for avoiding my friends and any conversation and just not feeling well.
I sat at my desk and tears tracked out of my eyes and fell on my paper as i guessed every answer. I guessed as much as i could. I didnt actually know any of the answers.
This was maths, and im me, i couldnt do math, not at all.
It was my worst subject by far.
The chime of the clock paced my ears and rang with every little tick.
My large elf ears picked up on every sound as my usually neat handwriting now looked like little tear stained scribbles.
Even filling in dots and charts was messy, my lines were shaky and tears traced my face, drenching the black mask and my face framing wings and feathers. Pieces of my long out grown fringe stuck to the sweat that grazed my hairline.
I was visibly shaking.
My breathing was heavy.
everything was spinning.
My ears rang as the clock chimed.
i picked up on very pencil writing,
every time the delicate graphite lifted up from others paper. 
Only 10 minutes had gone by.
50 were left.
I couldnt do this.
I couldnt sit here.
But i did.
I sat there, scribbling down answers.
15 minutes felt like hours as i attempted and failed to calm myself down.
Once ide finished all 64 questions i put on my noise cancelling headphones, pulled out my phone, turned on my favorite playlist, laid my head down on my desk resting on my arms as tears stained my sleeves and face. I sat there for the next 30 minutes of class, listening to music, humming the songs in my head and just silently sobbed into my sleeves. 
Not like i could just leave. 
I felt like throwing up.
I still, couldnt leave.
I couldnt talk.
It felt like i had swallowed the words sharpest glass shards.
And they traced down every little bit of my throat.
I heard the bell, through my phone into my pocket, keeping my music playing, grabbed my bag and darted towards the door, tripping on the large metal and silicone crutches. 
It was already open so i just, crutched out. 
My breathing was shaky and heavy as i turned a corner and fell against a wall.
I slid down it, sitting down on the cold school floors, hugging my knees to my chest, and just cried, my crutches fell beside me, creating a loud, ringing, echoing sound.
I couldnt stop, my body wasnt letting me.
My brain wouldnt shut up.
It felt as if the headphones were doing nothing.
I could hear voices surrounding me.
I peeked up from my knees and all i was able to see were dark grey figures, with white and purple eyes.
Staring at me.
I got up and ran towards the courtyard, i continued to trip as i attempted my escape from the voices.
A safe place.
A place nobody ever went.
I leaned against a tree and sobbed my eyes out. 
Until they were dry and stung.
The crying only make my throat ache worse.
I felt insanely sick after my mental breakdown.
Or was it a panic attack?
I had zero clue what had happened.
My brain blanked. 
I felt a strong hand on my shoulder and a soft, comforting voice.
I rested my hand on the base of my headphones and slipped them off.
"Hey.. you alright..?" It was jimmy, he was looking at me with concerned eyes.
"i.. don' know.. if im bein' honest..." I mumbled burying my head back into my knees
"Whats wrong, do you want to talk about it..?" He asked, his voice soft yet concerned
"I..don' knmow..." i mumbled, my words were slipped up, i could barely talk.
"Im here okay, talk whenever your ready, can i touch you?" He said/asked
"ngmm.. mmmmhmm.." I hummed as he pulled me into a tight hug.
I felt circles rubbed onto my back.
"Im not going to leave until your comfortable okay?" He said with a comforting smile on his face.
"o..kayn..." i mumbled completely under my normal tone. my words slipped out and were messed up entirely.

{Jimmys POV}

I saw scott run out of the school, tripping on his crutches many of times while doing so, i filled to the brim with anxiety and concern.
"I-uhm.. ill be right back." I said, not waiting for a response from either lizzy, grian or joel. I just walked towards the door, but fast. I had to be sure he was okay.

"Scott..?" I called, softly as i spotted him crying under a tree in the courtyard. His appearance wasnt as put together, his wings were tangled in eachother and his head was buried into his knees. 
I approached him slowly and sat down in front of him "Scott.." I called again, in a gentle voice.
He looked up as i placed my hand on his shoulder. 
He grabbed the support of his headphones and slipped them down against his neck, i could then hear the music he was blasting into his ears the current song playing was "Juliet" By cavetown.
(A/N: One of my fave songs, listening to it as i write this part currently so thats what made me think of it :D )
"hey.. you alright.?" I asked, trying to make my voice comforting,
"i.. don' know.. if im bein' honest..." he mumbled back, his voice was shaky, cracked and raspy, concern filled me once again as i sat down fully in front of him, he buried his head down into his knees. The small face framing wings he had drooped on either side of his face.
"Whats wrong, do you want to talk about it..?" I asked, nervously
"I..don' knmow..." he mumbled back, his words muffled and soft, yet his voice shaky and cracked
"Im here okay, talk whenever your ready, can i touch you?" I asked him that last part anxiously awaiting an answer
"ngmm.. mmmmhmm.." he hummed, his small hums soft as i pulled him into a hug. A tight comforting hug. I moved my hand in a small circular movement as I attempted to comfort him 
"Im not going to leave until your comfortable okay?" i said/asked, trying to keep my voice light and quiet so he could hear me but i wasnt too loud, i moved myself back slightly and smiled at him, he gave me a shaky smile back 
"o..kayn..." He mumbled, there were un-needed sounds meshed into his words, I pulled him back into a tight hug, moving to his side 
"can i touch your wings?" I asked, wanting confirmation before doing so.
"Y..eah..z..'ust be..be care...careful..." he mumbled back.
I pet his wings comfortingly as he hummed a pleased sound, a couple soft hoots and quiet squeaks left him as he got comfortable I laughed at the small noises he made, but he stretched out his two enormous owl wings and spread them around us 
"I.. thin'.. i.. can...nnghh.. tal..talk no...now.." He said, but i noticed a subtle wince, mid sentence.
"Okay, what happened bud.." i mumbled, trying to comfort him.
"I.. panicked.. i- my ear...ears we..wer..ere picking up on every little sound, every little tick of a clock, every little ta..p of a pe..en..ci.. pe..cil.., nggh.. everyth'ng.... Voices.. door creakin' and...an... when i ran...ran..r.. out of the r....roo.. room.. they.. were.. all just.. ngghhh... staring at... m..me.. i..hate.... hated it....it...." He said, rambling, he was repeating words, stuttering and wincing at something.
"Are you okay scott..?" I mumbled
"I...d..don..t....fee..feel.. feel... g..oo...good... " he was able to mumble back
I frowned..
"I can walk you back to your dorm if you need me to." I said, offering my hand to him
"o..ka..okay..ngghhh.." he said, once again wincing as he took my hand and practically fell onto my shoulder.
"Its okay bud.." I mumbled words of comfort to him as we walked back towards the school 
"why dont you put back on your headphones before we go back inside okay? There will be people in there and i know noise bothers you." I said before he nodded, grabbing the headband of his headphones and slid them on.

He had one of his crutches, the other one i was holding. He limped against my shoulder using me and his other crutch for support, he still had tear stains running down his face, the mask he had been wearing now dangling from his ear. 
I could see grian, joel and lizzie out of the corner of my eye, concern filled their eyes, yet i ignored them, I kept my full attention on scott, he needed my help right now and im not going to divert my attention from him for anything. Anything at all. 
it took us around 10 ish minutes but we got back to their dorm and he handed me his keys, i opened the door as i helped him inside
"Room or couch?" i asked 
"I.. don' ca..nngghh...care..." He mumbled 
I helped him back over to the couch and laid him down onto it. He shifted onto his side. 
"May i ask whats currently wrong so im able to help?" I asked kneeling down in front of the couch
"Headache a...an' s're throat.." He mumbled leaning his head onto his arm
"Have you eaten anything?" I asked, he weakly shook his head
"Ill make you something to eat okay? Please rest until then" I said, a warm smile appeared on my face as he nodded and curled up on the couch, his eyes drifting shut.

{INSERT EPIC COOKING MONTAGE PT4, JIMMY AND SICK SCOTT EDITION}

I walked back over to the couch and shook his shoulder gently as his gorgeous bright cyan eyes fluttered open. 
"Hey, soups done!" I said, a cheer to my voice as he gave me a soft, forced yet genuine smile.
We sat next to each other and turned on a show, i did most of the talking as he barely could but i didnt mind, i liked talking! We chatted out the shows that we scrolled past, music and other stuff. He had ate around half of it, not wanting to eat the rest, i just smiled and told him it was alright. Satisfied with his actions i went back into the kitchen and cleaned out the bowl "you want to move to your bed?" I asked 
"Th' couch i' more comfy tha' i reme'ber.." he mumbled, cuddling up against one of those hard, decorative pillows 
"Im gonna go get you comfy pillows okay? also do you want a blanket?" I said/asked
"mmmhmm.. " he hummed and i smiled

I came back a couple of minutes later with a thin purple blanket and a few pillows laying them on the couch removing the decorative pillows. 
"than' you..." he mumbled, resting his head on the warm, soft pillows as i covered him gently in the blanket. I could see him huddle into the blanket, shifting to get comfortable. 
I sat down and he rested a pillow on my thigh, resting his head on it. I smiled and began to play with his hair. It wasnt long before his cyan eyes drifted closed behind his long blonde fringe, and he fell asleep. 

{Xornoths POV}

"THE FVCK YOU MEAN YOU SAW JIMMY FVCK!NG HELPING MY DAMN BROTHER WALK, WHO HAD FVCK!NG TEAR STAINS ON HIS FACE THEN TELL ME YOU DONT KNOW WHERE THEY WERE FVCK!NG GOING JOEL!?" I yelled 
"Look, xor, i wouldnt be shocked if they were in the dorm, calm down please.." Grian suggested 
"Fine.. sorry.." I mumbled crossing my arms 
"lets finish classes okay? I am not ruining my perfect track record for you, sorry." Lizzie said, earning a few chuckles
"yeah.. we should finish class.. i guess." I said unfolding my arms as we headed off to our separate classes.

A/N
500 Reads?! Damn!! Thank you all so much!! Next chapter will be a part 3 to this

This ended up being 4500+ words which is insane- but uh-
Its getting a bit too long and i gotta get something out
I will not be able to work on barely anything from tonight (its 1:29 AM right now)

to October 16 as im on vacation and will most likely be on the beach, 

or sleeping.
Hope you guys enjoy the angsty fluff, not sure what im going to do
once the (COUGH COUGH 1ST COUGH COUGH) sick scott era is done
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Next chapter WILL have a different name: A Time Of Comfort

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