TW(S):ripping out hair, flower husbands(angst, im sorry), crying, implied panic attack, very angry axolotl woman

Really quick, in this au, milo is a crazy ex for one easy to explain reason. 
Scott=gay
milo=cannon ex boyfriend
pearl=female
scott+pearl=besties
milo=one cannon boyfriend that isnt jimmy so i dont have to make up a character
Scott+Milo= Trauma B E C A U S E A N G S T 
Simple as that :)

(lets go two months into the past first shall we?)

{scotts pov}

i sighed, sitting myself up Dec. 14. 

(really really quick clearing: scott asked jimmy out on the 11th, then became boyfriends on the 14th, am i changing this from the previous chapter? yes-  do i care.. no. lol)
I had... big plans today. 
I got up and quickly got ready.
my binder
a black t-shirt with a discreet trans flag as the neckline
a light blue jacket with a few embroidered patches of random doodles
dark denim ripped jeans
and lastly, brown cyan and green patchwork boots

i then quickly went down the hallway to katherine, shelby, and false's dorm.

*knock knock..*

"Hellloooo oh! scott hi!" katherine greeted
"Morning katherine! Do you have the flowers?" i asked her
"Yes! yes i do!" she said and quickly turned around to go grab the bouquet
"Hereya go!" She cheered, handing me the flowers..
Poppies, Peonies, Roses and Sage, into a gorgeous assortment
"this is perfect!! thank you so so much!!" I cheered and she smiled
"Of course! Good luck" she smiled 
"Thank you!!" I called before walking back to my dorm

~2 Hours Later~

"Hi Jim!" I called seeing jimmy on his phone in the hallway
"Oh hey scott!" he replied and smiled
"Hey erm.. i have a uh.. i have a question.." i stuttered
"Oh? Well alright, ask away!" he smiled
"okay.. jimmy. we've recently been on our first date. annd... i dont want to just be.. 'talking' or 'friends' anymore.. but in all pure honesty.. Ide love, with all my life.. to be more." I stated
"..scott are you..?" he questioned, shocked
"Jimmy. will you be my boyfriend..?!" 
"pfft. me and you? hah. hell no. never. " was his reply
"...what.. what do you mean..?" i was confused.. 
"i MEAN i would never be with you, not ever, not a chance, you think, that ide date an adopted owl elf hybrid whose probably dating me for the fun of it?! yeah hell no, my heart isnt gonna shatter like ice.. lizzie was right. you are just like your brother" jimmy spat

But then i woke up abruptly, I was breathing heavy and sat up, leaned against a wall and cried into my knees
"today is not the day for stupid dreams like that..!" i mumbled to myself 
I took a few deep breaths to collect myself and got dressed in the outfit i had pre-picked out for myself.
The outfit ide seen.. in the dream.
but i pushed past that, still got the flowers from katherine.
I headed downstairs collecting myself every little second on that elevator
And headed off and got to the student center.
I took one last deep breath and opened the door
and i saw jimmy, standing with our group
"Hey guys!" i called and smiled
"Hey scott!" Shelby replied and smiled
"Hey jim, would you mind coming with me for a minute?" I shot the question
"Yeah i dont mind!" he smiled and came with me 
"whyd ya call me out here??" He asked as we stood in the field outside
"Jim.. i have a question for you" I mustered up the courage to ask
"Oh? alright!" he replied
"Look, weve only been on one date. But i dont want to be referred to as 'talking' or.. or friends.. anymore." I stuttered out
"scott, what do you mean.?" he asked, clearly now nervous
"what im saying is... I want.. i want to be more." I mumbled out
"wait.. wha.." he stopped himself
"Jimmy.. will you be my boyfriend..?" i pulled out the flowers from behind me and he. looked. shocked
"oh..my..cod.. " he mumbled out
"yes!! yes scott yes ill be your boyfriend!!" he said and hugged me tightly
i squealed with excitement and picked him up in a hug, he then got down, and grabbed my fingertips gently in his.. as he kissed the back side of my palm, i blushed at how ever so gentle he was
I then took his hand in mine and we walked back into the school.. confidently, as a couple.

~Present Day~

{Jimmys POV}

I woke up and my phone chimed, first i saw the date, Feb. 14, and two messages.

Tango🔥❤️
Mornin'!!

Tango🔥❤️
wanna hang out today??

Jimmy🐟💙
Yeah sure!! <3


Jimmy🐟💙
When??

Tango🔥❤️
Whenever works
for you my gorgeous 
golden canary

Jimmy🐟💙
how about.. in 2 hours? 
at noon? that work??

Tango🔥❤️
Works for me!!
Talk to ya later 
Rancher!

Jimmy🐟💙
Byeee! Talk to you
later <3

I closed my phone and took some time to get ready today
I brushed and styled my hair
and lastly, got dressed.
A sage t-shirt
brown sweater
jeans 
and black boots
simple, but i liked it!
Ide been hanging out with tango alot, and i loved it!
he was so nice, sweet, and i dont know!!
there was something.. special about him.
as if we were... linked

{Scotts POV}

i spent hours last night planning the perfect anniversary and valentines day date for me and jimmy, i was now in the park setting up, jimmy had been spending a lot.. of time with tango recently and i was very happy to finally get some alone time with him, my phone then rang
"Hey where is you??" Shelby spoke
"at the park, why??" i quizzed
"joel was wondering because he saw you leave this morning" shelby replied
"ohh okay, that makes sense-" i responded
"welp, ill talk to you later, also happy 2 months!!" she stated happily
"thanks shrub! talk to you later" i replied and she hung up

ive spent atleast an hour on this by now trying to get everything perfect, another 30 minutes sense shelbys call and my phone chimed, i dropped what i was doing to check

1 unread message..

i opened the message to..

Jimmy🌹❤️
Heya! so sorry petal
cant make it to our date
today, hanging out with
tango today! Sorry again
love you!❤🌹😘

I was stunned. he acted like.. he didnt even know.. like our anniversary meant nothing..
I just packed up all the stuff, choking back tears as to not cry in public. but it didnt work as multiple tears flowed down my cheeks. one the stuff was packed i gave myself a minute. 
I paced in pure anger as i pulled out bits if my cyan hair from frustration and sadness.
I kicked a tree with my injured leg, yes, the brace was off but it still wasnt healed fully. and another surgery would be needed to take the bars out of my leg that fixed the shattered bones.
i didnt feel much for a few second but then i was hit with a huge wave of pain, i fell to the floor next to my stuff.
"AEOR DAMNIT..!!!" i screamed and pulled on my hair as i sobbed
I pushed it all off. and stood up now with my bags.
i cried my eyes out as i walked to my car, not making a sound.
I sat in the drivers seat of my car and just let myself cry for a few minutes. tears fell to my sweatshirt and on the steering wheel.
I wiped my eyes which now stung, but i drove back to the dorm.
Ive had enough of today already..
i parked and left the stuff in the car, tears still flowing out of my eyes as i tried to wipe them away with my sleeve
On my way down the hallway to my dorm, still trying to wipe away the tears i ran into someone 

"Goodness im so sorry i- ... scott?" Cleo quizzed, i looked up a little 
"wait.. whats wrong?" she asked gently
"CLEO COME ON! WE HAVE A DND TOURNAMENT TODAY!!" grian shouted
"HOLD. THE. HELL ON GRIAN!!" she shouted back
"LANGUAGE!!" grian yelled back and cleo rolled her eyes
"whats wrong..?" cleo asked again, still gently.
"...j..i.." i tried to start but every time i opened my mouth all i could do was sob,c cleo wrapped her arms around me 
"CLE..o..?" pearl broke her loud voice 
"'ey whats going on here?" she asked
"im not sure..can you talk scott.?" cleo said, her voice soft
".." i tried but the only thing that came out of my mouth were quiet sobs, cleo held me close
"..'ey, dont push yourself 'ight?" pearl assured, i nodded
"lets get back to your dorm, kay?" cleo said
"mm..mhm.." i hummed

they walked me back to the dorm and i handed cleo my keys. she unlocked the door and the three of us went inside.

"oh your back earl... what happened?!" owen interrupted himself getting the attention of xornoth and joel, who were both getting ready.
"we dont know, we tried to figure it out but he isnt able to speak" cleo assured them
i felt a set of arms wrap around me, xornoth.
i held him close.. we soon sat down as an attempt for me to regain my breath.
after around 30 minutes theyd helped me regain and regulate my breathing.

" can you talk now, bud?" xor asked, his hand resting gently on my back 
"..i..thin..k s..so." i muttered 
"alright, can you tell us what happened?" pearl asked
"..just erm... ran into someone at the park.. the..they werent the nic..est.. " i lied
"what did they say.. and who?" cleo quizzed
"i..dunno.. they made fun of my hair and cloths.. especially the scars and eyepatch.." i lied again, acting like i was now fine
"i..im okay now. it just erm.. took me by surprise." but every bit of that was a lie.
"thank you for telling us okay??" pearl smiled
i nodded
"alright, cmon pearl, lets go and make it to the second match" cleo added
"bye guys" pearl said and they both walked out. 

i talked with the others for a bit until they all had to go to their dates. i was wildly jealous but just told them jimmy and i were meeting later on.
i laid in bed, my face soaked with tears, feeling around the spots underneath my hair where ide ripped most of it out from pure frustration.

~a week later~

I walked down the halls, me and jimmy haven't communicated in a week. not once. no messages, no talking.. nothing. there just wasnt a time i could see him without freaking tango!!! but avoiding jimmy meant avoiding the whole group.. who were warming up to tango splendidly... in my place. 
I sighed, walking on the other side of the hall of where the group was standing my headphones were on, my hands were in the pocket of my hoodie this was my well known 'do not disturb' mode. On top of that, ide barely slept all week, all i could think about was him. And i hated it.
every time i would close my eyes i would have the reoccurring nightmare's of jimmy saying he never loved me and is choosing tango over me. And now the group would join saying that tango was always better than me.. ext.
I couldnt get those thoughts out of my head.
They turned into the voices of my friends telling me i was an attention seeker.. or purposely getting injured for their affection.. that i was never a good edition to the group.. i cried at the thought and hid my face in my wings.
But soon i felt a finger tap my shoulder
My wings fell and i turned around to see who said person was. Lizzie.
I slid off my headphones and swooped my hair out of my face, still leaving enough to cover my frozen magic eye.
"Are you alright.? youve been really distant and.. havent spoken to jimmy or.. anyone all week" lizzie spoke
"..erm.." i questioned what to say
"wait are you crying?! scott whats wrong?" lizzie asked worried, she caught the attention of our group
"..im fine." i said blandly and looked down and to the side
"no your not! you havent spoken a WORD to anybody nor have you even come near us WHAT IS GOING ON?!" lizzie shouted
"..im sorry.." i muttered
i felt her arms fling around me 
"do not be sorry.. i just wanna know whats wrong okay?" lizzie assured me
"..your brothers the problem.." i muttered 
"what did he do.?" lizzie muttered back, moving away 
"he.. bailed on me on our anniversary.. to.. to hang out with tango.." i muttered
"JAMES COD SOLIDAIRITY SHADOW!!" lizzie yelled definitely grabbing EVERYONES attention
She marched up to him and pinned him to a wall so he couldnt leave
"LIZZIE WHAT THE HECK?!" jimmy yelled
everyone watched in horror of what jimmy did
"you.. BAILED on scott last week?!" lizzie yelled
"OH come on!! it was ONE date!!" jimmy argued
"think of the date.. feburary... fourteenth. THE FOURTEENTH." lizzie yelled
"oh.." jimmy cursed under his breath
"WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU JAMES?! your- your crazy!!! bailing on your boyfriend to hang our with tango?!" lizzie argued, i stepped back, tripping against the wall
"WAIT jimmy!! you told me you didnt have any plans?!" tango yelled
"WHAT THE HECK JAMES!!" lizzie exclaimed again
"look im sorry alright?! it was one anniversary he'll get over it." jimmy argued pushing his sister off him and storming down the hallway
i was in tears. i had tears streaming down my face. he said he would never hurt me.. he.. he promised
joels arms soon wrapped around me and i sobbed into his shoulder
i didnt know what to do.
"He.. he.. promised.." i mumbled to joel
"i know.. we'll talk to him okay? everything will be alright" he spoke comfortingly back

yet to think a week ago today shouldve been the best day ever..
now.. it turned it into..
(nearly) the worst week..
of my life.

(im sorry please dont kill me)