ANGST HAH!
more fluff next chapter i promise...                 im so sorry-
TW(S): character death, past memories, blood, gore, weapons
Bold Italic: SHOUTING/YELLING/SCREAMING
Italic: Memory

(this takes place a month earlier than the next chapter on NOV. 10 {scotts irl birthday})

{Scotts POV}

I woke up and immediately knew what day it was. 
I grabbed my red pen from my bedside table. 
flung my legs over the side of my bed
stood up on the thick cast, grabbing my crutches shortly after
i slowly made my way over to the calendar hung on the wall of my closet.
I checked the date
November Tenth.
i sighed scraping off the day like every other, throwing the pen harshly at the wall.
I opened my closet and grabbed out a tan oversized hoodie with dark blue accents.
My binder
 A pair of black-denim cargo pants
My black and brown boots
i grabbed my black, silver studded belt and put it on, the hoodie hiding it.
I grabbed a grey pair of socks with a few rainbow and black accents.

i sighed again, lighter. less full of anger.
dreading the day to come.
My birthday was one of my least favorite days of the year. 
The day my parents left us.
The day our old foster parents, in which we thought we be forever passed away.
The very day we were labeled unwanted.
That very day, 6 years ago. 
was when i started to paint and write.
Its also when my old chronic pain from acrobatics come along.
I would paint and write for hours.
to this day i still have issues with my back, wrists, neck, shoulders and legs.
All from standing, bending over, painting, holding out my arms, everything
I hated the "happy birthday" comments. 
This was one of my least happy days of the year.
I just knew, my friend group knew what today was, unknowing of the events.
Most didnt even know i was a goddamn foster child for Aeors sake!

I hushed my negative thoughts and grabbed my headphones, beginning to go make tea, and blare music into my ears. 
Astronomy by Conan Gray was the first song that came on.
I hummed the pleasing tune as i made my tea and headed out the door to get to school early.
I made my way out into the hallway, laptop in hand.
My bag swung over my shoulder.
I headed outside to the library next to the student center where we normally hung out.
I sat down at a table next to the window.
The outside corridors were visible to where i was sitting.
I opened my computer.
My tablet.
And my stylus.
I plugged in my tablet to my computer and turned it and my stylus on.
I sat there for 3 continuous hours, sketching out a new piece i would line and color later.
I was dreading the start to school knowing xornoth would use our birthday for attention.
Our names would also be called over the announcements 1st period.
Just two more things to dread about the day.
Despite knowing exactly where ide be headed the second the 10th period bell rang.

I saw something out of the corner of my eye. 
I looked up and out of the window.
I wasnt taken back by what i saw, in fact i suspected it.
I saw...
Gem, Fwhip, Sausage, Lizzie, Jimmy, Joel, Shelby, Pix, False, Xornoth, Owen, Joey, Katherine, and Oli standing outside, waiting 
I sighed, unhooking all my technology and sliding it into my bag.
My laptop slid into a separate leather pocket ide sewn on and embroidered in red poppies.
I did that last night.
My fingers were bandaged, red and swollen from pricking myself with needles, i brushed it off as ide experienced worse.
I headed out, not taking off my headphones and fiddling with my sleeves as i walked over to the group.
To my surprise xornoth hugged me 
He was in a good mood, which lightened mine a bit. 
to see my twin genuinely happy
Some of our group hadnt known our birthday.
I was hoping to keep it that way
I looked at joel and shelby. a glare in my eyes.
They both had not known the events of my birthday besides us being given up.
"Is nobody gonna talk?!" Gem finally said
"Nah was just planning to keep it silent." Joel joked
Their voices were muffled. I still had music blasting in my ears.
Coffee Breath by Sofia Mills was now playing.
The second that song ended, Daddy issues, by The Neighborhood came on.
Ironic day for that to play..

"Helloooo~ plan to be lost in your thoughts all day?!" Xor joked slapping me lightly
"Oh i uh- sorry. " I muttered, sliding my headphones down to my neck and turning off the song, keeping myself from tears as the lines replayed in my head.
"No need! lets just gooo cmon!! Todays a special day for you two!!" Shelby said, excited
"Whats today exactly Shelby?" pix asked
"The twins birthday!!" She exclaimed excitedly 
"Wait really?! Happy birthday guys!!" Lizzie exclaimed super hyper
"i knew i shouldnt have given you coffee this morning.. " Joel muttered
"Yeah, bad idea. Lizzie on caffeine?!" Jimmy said, i blushed at the sound of his voice, that blush quickly faded into my normal pale skin. 
My feathers moved, ever so slightly in the wind before i felt a large pressure be held on my back, the soft texture of the unlively skin and the stitched feeling on the wrist gave away who it was.
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU STUPID SCOTISH TWINS!!!" cleo yelled
"hii cleo..." i mumbled, smiling a bit
"hiya Gatekeep!!" cleo said, jumping off my back
"well hello to you Gaslight" I said, leaving the others confused
"Wheres girlboss?" cleo asked
"Im shocked shes not with you" i stated
"Nope, wanna go see the sand peeps?" She asked
"why would girlboss be with the sand people-? isnt she normally with BigB?" i questioned
"okay okay.. WHAT THE HECK. ARE YOU TWO EVEN SAYING?!" fwhip exclaimed
"Joel knows!" cleo stated
"cleo dont you dar-"
"SMALL ETHO!!" cleo chanted
"CLEO DO NOT START THIS" joel yelled
"whats going on..?" false questioned
"Do not. ask." jimmy said, i smirked.
"I wont..." false mumbled
"Good choice!" Xornoth said, ide told him all about the games we played
"Oh also scott!" cleo said
"yes?" i questioned
"I have a surprise for youuu~" she said
"Oh?" i questioned
She ten whistled as if making a signal
"Hiya Seashell" i heard a familiar British voice say
"i.. MARTYN!!" i called dropping my crutches and pulling the blonde into a hug
"hiyya scott!" he exclaimed, hugging back
"cleo i- how?!" i quizzed
"I might have had something to do with that.." pix mumbled, smiling
"My god i love you two so damn much!!"
"I love you too Gatekeep" cleo smirked
I laughed
"Bringing back the old nicknames are we?" Martyn asked
"martyn dont you dare.."
"Dont worry timmy i wont make aha jokes, no promises about Gri though.." martyn said, i chuckled
"are we completely disregarding the fact is xor xor and scottys birthday nowwww?~" joey asked
"okay for one, dont call me that, and two, ide prefer to leave this on the downlow.." i said before turning away and just walking towards  the schools main doors.
"oh come onnnn!! its your birthday scott! we gotta celebrate a little!" gem bursted out
"Ide prefer to not." i spoke bitterly. 
I just grabbed my sketchbook and a pen. 
Then my headphones were flung back over my ears as i ignored every little thing my friends were saying to me. 
I walked to the small school library, this time inside the actual student center.
I walked quicker, as to get away from my friends. 
I needed to be alone for a bit.
I sat down in a small corner, which had blankets and rugs, pillows and more.
It was soft and comfortable.
I grabbed my sketchbook and flung it open.
Then grabbing the small mechanical pencil and clicking lead out of it.
I scribbled down some lines.
Lines that made up..
A stag. 
But not a hybrid like myself.
Just a stag. 
With poppies intertwined in its antlers.
and with that i took out the small mirror i keep in my bag.
And took off the usual black beanie i wear. 
Even around the dorm.
It revealed my small, not fully grown stag antlers, they were easy to hide.
I had the ability to grow them out but it hurt like hell to do.
But if i ever needed to.. it was a possibility.
I then felt a hand on my shoulder, my head shot up.
"Jim?" i questioned, taking my headphones off
"Yeah, i just wanted to check on you.. uhm, are you alright? its your birthday and your sitting alone in a corner of a library-" he stated
"Im fine. just- not that fond of 'birthdays'." i stated
"Wait- what-? how-!?" he questioned confused
"..their just not my thing." i said, looking back down at the drawing. more scribbles on a page.
"what did ya draw?" he asked, changing the subject, which i appriciated
"..a deer. a stag more like.. " i said before quickly realizing i didnt have my beanie back on 
"Oh cool! can i see?" he asked
"uhm.. sure" i said handing him the book
"you drew this?! this is amazing!" he said smiling
I scrambled to put my beanie back on, which i luckily did successfully
"thanks.!" i said smiling at him
"i draw too yknow, more flowers but uhm.. if you wanna take a look.. go ahead!" he said, handing me a small, simple black sketchbook
I opened it cautiously as to make sure he was sure, he nodded and i flipped past the cover
"these are awesome jimmy.! i see watercolor is quite your thing?" i said, handing the book back to him
"yeah!! idk why.. their just- fun!" he said and smiled

we talked about art for a good half hour before the first bell rang

"Cmon lets head to first period! what do you have? ill walk ya there!" he said helping me up
"i think chemistry today-" i said
"oh same!!! cmon we can go together" he smiled
"okay.!" i said, attempting to keep my usual, bright voice but dreading the questions from the rest of our group

we walked out, talking and headed to first period together. 
The whole time i could feel fwhips eyes on me

{Joeys POV}

I sat in the hall, not really sat as i was actually mid air
"Hi joey!!" i heard xor xor say
"Hy xornyyy!!!" i said flying over to him
"Hey i have- a question for you-" he said
"Oh?~" i questioned
"do you er- like anyone-?" he asked, nervously
"well yes xor xor, yes i do!~" i said trying to give him a hint- or 6000
"alright i dont have a plan for this so uhm- joey will you go on a date with me-?" he said, blushing
"oh finallyy!!! its about time you ask xor xor! so yes, yes i will!!" i said smiling 
"Wait- what do you mean finally-!?" he asked 
"ive been dropping you hints for like- the past 2 years!!!" i explained
"thats what the nicknames were about-?" he asked
"yesssss thank god you finally caught on" i laughed
"how desperate were you for my love bird boy?~" he asked, now flirtingly
"oh very desperate" i laughed, he joined
"ill see you tomorrow night.. attt- Starlight trail. 9:00 pm" he said smiling
"see you there! its a date!" i smiled
he smiled back

We went our separate ways to our second period class

{Scotts POV}

During first period i heard our names over the announcements at the end. I hated it completely.
I buried my head in my wings and could feel the feathers becoming wet.
I had started crying, without even knowing it.
I muffled my crying with my feathers. it was nearly inaudible
I covered my face with the wings framing my face, i saw the water from my eyes now dripping onto my desk and wiped my tears slightly with my feathers, it didnt do anything as i couldnt stop myself.
I didnt even wait for the bell.
I just grabbed my bag and walked out the door, walking outside.
I heard the bell ring from the courtyard
i just sat there with my notebook.
Not my sketchbook this time.
I wrote poems in this one.
I let the tears soak the pages and my face.
I let my forehead hit the sketchbook.
The heavy tears from my eyes made the ink bleed on the page.
I dropped my pen in the grass. 
I wanted to leave.
I didnt want to go back inside.
But i didnt have a choice.
I stood myself up.
I collected myself and sighed.
Taking a few deep breaths before crutching back inside cautiously
I felt arms wrap around me the second i was at the doorframe
It was shelby.
I dropped my crutches and hugged her back, burying my face into her hair.
"whats wrong..?" she muttered. concern peeking in her voice
I knew it wasnt only her there.
But i just focused on shelbys voice.
"..i..i hate this day.. every damn year.. im just reminded... reminded on the fact i wasnt wanted. REMINDED ON THE DAMN FACT I WAS FVCK!NG GIVEN UP!!" i snapped 
"...sorry.." i muttered, she hugged me tigher.
"Its okay.. look, i dont know what your going through..  but ill help anyway i can okay?" She said
"We both will. " joel added, placing a hand on my shoulder.
"thank you both.. sorry for yelling again.. " i muttered
"nonono.. its okay, we understand!" joel said and joined our hug. 

We then went about our day, they checked in on me in-between periods, i appreciated it. alot..

The end of the day came. 
I exited the school.
I felt eyes on me for some reason.
I didnt look back, i just moved faster.

~35 minutes later~

I found myself outside of a very specific cemetery.
The cemetery that my old foster parents were buried in.
I felt tears stain my face. 
I opened the gate slowly..
two different flowers in hand.
A gorgeous red poppy.
And a beautiful blue orchid.
My tears fell onto the flowers and the ground.
I still felt eyes on me. I was horrified.
But i continued walking. 
up to two specific tombs.

Apoali Ambrose
 and
Verosica Ambrose

i sobbed at the sight of the two tombs.
The haunting memories.. flooded back into my mind.
flooded into my brain and came pouring out my eyes.
I focused only on the memories.. i didnt know why. but.. they were so.. vivid

"Scar!! Scar!! come here!!!!" xornoth yelled, i sat up on my bed and set my small drawing pad off to the side
"Yes xor?" I said swinging my legs over the side of our bed and swinging down the ladder stretching out my wings to slow myself down.

"Just come here!! i promise its a good surprise!! A surprise from Mrs. Bek!!" Xornoth yelled and i jumped off the ladder and flew quickly over to him 

"Just follow me!!" He said, pulling my beanie over my antlers as he knew i didnt like them. 

"Okay..?" i questioned dropping to my feet and following him

"Scarlette, Xornoth, This is Verosica and Apoali Ambrose, Verosica, Apoali, This is Scarlette and Xornoth Rivendell"  Mrs. Bek stated calmly

"Well hello darlings, im Verosica.. This is my husband.. Apoali.. we want to adopt you two.." Verosica spoke, calmly.
I took a cautious step back, covering my face with my wings and hiding behind my brother
"They wont hurt us Snowflake! theyre gonna be our new parents!!" Xornoth stated excited

"pa..parents..?" I murmured peeking out from my wings
"I apologize Mr. and Mrs. Ambrose. I should have informed you, Scarlette has autism, and is a little shy" Mrs. Bek explained
"That will not be a problem dear.. we promise to love these little ones no matter what comes up" Mr. Ambrose. or Apoali stated
"you guys... dont.. dont care..?" i muttered
"Of course not darling! You two are adorable, Snowflake he called you?" Verosica spoke gently

"mmhmm.. i uhm.. love the cold.. for uh. some reasons im able to.. to.. show y..you if you want..!" I said, finally smiling

"We would love to see darling! How about we help you two go pack up and you guys can show us everything you want at your new home okay?" Apoali spoke softly

He moved a piece of hair out of my face
"is your eye... frozen..?" Verosica questioned gently
"..its been like th..that for years.. i can create.. cre... create snow... snow.. snow and ice. uhm.. we think.. thi.. think thats why.." i stumbled over my words

"Oh darling. does it ever hurt?" Apoali asked
"some...sometimes but..not.. not- ex..excruciating" i mumbled
"excruciating? thats a big word for a 9 year old" Verosica stated
"Ah yes, Scarlette is overly talented with words, vocabulary, and writing! Their some of her hobbies, xornoth on the other hand is much more sports oriented" Mrs. Bek spoke
"Yes i am! I love sports, like.. hockey.. football.. i just like tackling people!!" Xornoth spoke and smiled
"An aggressive little one we got here!" Apoali spoke, ruffling xors hair 

three months past. the end of the fostering. theyd.. been perfect. i didnt wanna be given up again...

"Xornoth, Scar! Breakfast darlings!" Verosica yelled upstairs
"Coming Mum!!" xornoth yelled grabbing my wrist
We ran downstairs

"Morning my little birthday twins!" verosica smiled
"Morn..morning!" I said and smiled

"Well good morning my little owlette!" Apoali spoke, sipping his coffee

"Go sit down you two, breakfast will be at the table in just a moment!" Verosica spoke

"Okay mum!" xornoth said, his tail swaying
just as we sat down..

SLAM
"m..mum wha..what was that..?!" i spoke, scared 
"im not sure.. stay puu..AHHHH.. come..come here you two.. no..now..!" Veroisca spoke, worry spiked in her voice
We flung out of our seats and ran to them, i fell on the way but xor helped me up.
*BANG BANG*

the blood curdling screams that came from Verosicas throat will forever be imprinted in my mind
"whats.. whats going on..?" i spoke nervously

"quiet scarlette... stay close to mama okay?" She spoke, now in tears
"o..okay?" i said, grasping her leg, xornoth clung in my wing

"GIVE ME ALL YOU FVCK!NG GOT ASSHOLE!!" a hooded man yelled 
"i.. sir we.. we dont have much please... please leave my children alone..!" Verosica yelled

"WELL GIVE ME ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING I DONT HAVE ALL FVCK!NG DAY LADY!!!"  the man yelled
"B- BUT SI...SIR!!" verosica screamed

*BANG BANG, CRASHHHH*

"MAMA..!!!!" I screamed, my throat stung as i fell at my mothers side tears falling from my face

*CRASH*

Xornoth had grabbed a knife and stabbed the dude in the chest. blood oozed from the bodies.

Horrified screams left my mouth as i forced myself to not throw up on sight
"Come on.. lets get out of here.." xornoth said grabbing my hand and guiding me upstairs to our rooms and our parents.

we packed our bags, both sobbing
Xornoth grabbed a red, rubied bracelet. and grabbed me a Cyan and Gold.. locket.. it had a photo of Verosica and Apoali on one side. Me and xor on the other. 
we walked back to the agency, with our bags. But continued to cry as the door creaked open and we were welcomed back in. Covered in blood and tears.. Both mostly unharmed besides a few cuts and scratches.
Mrs. Beks sweet words as she helped us back inside.. 

Those memories, forever vivid in my brain..

I felt arms wrap around me as i held the gold locket in my palm.
"shh.. its alright.." i heard jimmys light comforting voice say, he spoke words of comfort to me until i was to calm down.
"i.. im.. sor..sorry.... " i mumbled
"dont be.!" he said and hugged me tighter
"i miss.. miss.. the.. them.. " i mumbled, my voice muffled my his shoulder
"may i ask.. who were they.?" jimmy questioned softly
"..me and xornoths old foster parents.. they.. were shot.. during a break in.. the day they were supposed to make it all... all.." i sobbed
"official..." i finished
"Im.. im so sorry.. how long were you two fostered.? if your comfortable that is" he said and smiled lightly
"..sense birth. our parents gave us up on the spot for being such rare hybrids. Never knew any more about them besides my father was an owl. Like me. and my mother. she was a witch." I spoke lightly
"thats awful.. im so sorry you two had to go through that.. is that why you..?" he didnt finish
"dont like our birthday..? yeah." I finished for him
"lets get you back home alright..?" he said gently
"Okay.." i knelt down and placed the blue orchid next to Apoalis Tomb, the red poppy next to Verosicas. 

we walked back home talking, i fell to xornoths arms sobbing when we got back. we all hung out at our dorm with snacks, getting our minds off the incident.. as much as i hated the memories.. I loved the way this birthday ended.. It was.. nice.. for once. So sorry for the angst todayy- Too much fluff :) (more fluff next chapter i promise-) 
I love you all/p
Have a great/night,

Leo