Maybe if i wasn't so fat...
Maybe if i wasn't so annoying..
Maybe if i kept my mouth shut....
Maybe if i didn't have so many problems....
Maybe if i didn't have voices in my head...
Maybe if i didn't have any scars...
Maybe if i was a size 0....
Maybe if i wasn't me...
Maybe if i didn't keep fucking up...
Maybe if i got rid of all my blades...
Maybe if i didn't bring up the past...
Maybe if i just let things be....
Maybe if i was beautiful....
Maybe if i just shut up....
Maybe if i dug the blade deeper that first time...
Maybe if i never went to the mental hospital and just went and finished it..
Maybe if i never told anyone what was wrong...
Maybe if i kept my scars hidden better..
Maybe if i was a better girlfriend....
Maybe if i was enough...
Maybe if i actually ended it...
Maybe, just, maybe...