Later that night, I was so anxious about going on the date with Carter that I could barely sleep.

How do I welcome someone into my life when I'm feeling dead inside? But what if he's just what I need to make me feel alive? What if I lose him? Can my heart afford to lose again? All of these thoughts were scrounging through my mind. I didn't know what to think, or how to feel, which made me even more nervous about tomorrow night.

I sighed, as I reached over to my nightstand, to pull out my headphones from the top drawer. Maybe some music will calm me down, I thought to myself, and hoped. Plugging the headphones into my cell phone I began to search through my playlist.

"Here we go..." I whispered, as I selected Letters from The Sky which was my favorite song by a rock band called, Civil Twilight.

Slowly closing my eyes... I started to hum to the song. Then suddenly, it dawned on me to why I had loved it so much, it reminded me of how I felt when I lost my mom. "Ugh..." I groaned out loud, I could see what type of night this was going to be.