I stood there with dropped jaws as Zara drew closer to him. The tears I had almost succeeded in pushing back, began to itch out again. Why I was feeling so hurt? I didn't know. I wanted to turn away and leave because it was a sight I couldn't bear, but my legs weren't moving when I tried to leave, so I just stood there and watched them, seeming like a creep. It was like everything around me had slowed down and began to move in slow motion, as I hearing only my own heartbeat.

But before Zara could fully press her lips to Soma's lips, he almost aggressively pushed her away as he shouted, "What the hell is wrong with you?"

Zara shrugged. "What? Why are you acting like a kid?" she asked him with a facial expression that was meant to make him feel down or belittle him.

But, Soma wasn't having it with her at all. "Seriously?" he asked angrily. "What is your plan? To get back at Emmanuella for dating John? Seriously? Doesn't this make you feel low?"

Zara laughed. "Feel low? What low?" she asked with a wide smile. "It's just to make her feel jealous, come on. We just have to act like couples and make her feel jealous." She paused. But, didn't wait for Soma to say a word or reply as she continued. "I mean, it is obvious you like her. And if you want her back, you've got to make her jealous, it always works." She shrugged.

Soma shook his head. "You're an awful person," he said in disbelief.

"Awful? Just for wanting to get you what you want as I get what I want? I mean, it's a win-win situation."

"No, Zara. It's not only even about that. I mean, look at what you did to Arts, and yet you still have the audacity to move around school with your heads so high and still try to ruin more people lives. Don't you feel nauseous about yourself, because you're freaking meant to."

Zara scoffed. "Dead guy." With that, she turned away from him, immediately jamming eye with me. She cracked a smirk and quickly spun around and kissed Soma, then walked off. "Dead people," she commented as she worked off.

I knew it was planned and all, but yet it still hurt a lot. I didn't know why I felt so betrayed. I was really try hard not to cry, but the moment my eyes jammed Soma's, the tears slowly began to roll down. He had more than one expression on as he looked at me. It was like he was sad, but was still trying to be mad at me. I couldn't look away from, as I let the tears roll down. He began to work forward slowly, stopping a few steps away from me, before he shook his head and made an attempt to walk away. I reflexively grabbed his arm in an attempt to stop him, making him halt.

"Don't you have class?" he asked calmly.

I shook my head, before finding the strength to reply, "We both know damn well that we don't have classes anymore, due to the external exams preparations"

"Then we should be preparing." He gently removed his arm from my grip and began to walk away again.

"Why are you doing this to me?" I shouted out in frustration, making him halt.

He chuckled. "Why am I doing this to you? Seriously? You're seriously asking me that?" he asked me calmly, as he turned back to look at me. I was about to talk, but he quickly cut me off. "Hol' up, what the heck am I even doing? I'm simply living my life dearie, trying to survive."

"You're avoiding me and all and even now, just now, you're trying to avoid me."

He scoffed.

"Do you really like me Soma?" I asked. "Is that why you've been acting this way? Ehn? Avoiding me and treating me like I'm some deadly diseases? Is it because I'm dating John you're acting all up? Is that why?"

My voice got higher, making Soma reply me with a higher tone too. "You're really smart, but you act like you really dumb a lot of times and it is really, really frustrating." He took in a deep breath. "How can you seriously not know that I like you, goddamnit?" His voice got lower. "I showed it in almost everything I did for you, I tried to not let it show, but it so much of an overwhelming feeling that it showed itself. I mean, I don't just even like you, I'm pretty sure what I feel is love. And this stuff hurts. It hurts real badly." I didn't know if he knew, but he had gradually began to tear up. He looked so hurt, that my own heart began to hurt on his behave. "Most of the time, all I think about is you. And it's so annoying, because what you mostly talk about is them other boys. And then, you went into a relationship with someone who is supposed to your enemy. Someone who hurt our friends and people around us." He squeeze his face up in disgust as his words came out cracked. "I don't know how you lived with yourself, but you have blindly and slowly become like the ones you kick against and complain about. I mean this dude, hurt you a couple of weeks before you started dating him, what's your problem? You're changing"

"I'm doing it for us," I tried to defend myself as I walked closer to him, making him step back.

"How?"

"I'm trying to get back to John and his gang, I already know his secrets, it is only to expose them that remains," I said with a smile, hoping to make him feel better.

But, he shook his head. "You're just as bad as they are," he said with disgust all over his face. "Look what you've turned to. I'm pretty sure Art would have never wanted this." With that, he walked away without looking back, as he cleaned both his eyes.

It was like a certain kind of realization hit me, making me realize the kind of terrible plan I had and how awful I was thinking. Like Soma had said, I was intelligent but also pretty dumb.