Tofunmi said that the doctor said I wouldn't be discharged until they were sure I was fine. The doctor tried to have a one on one conversation with me, asking me 'why I felt the urge to try to take my life'. I told him everything. He advised me, repeating most of the things Tofunmi had said.

It was afternoon and I was already tired of seating in my room alone, watching 'Soundcity'.

I was slurping from my daily bottle of 'Lucozade Boost' with a straw, when Soma walked into my room. "I heard," was the first things he said, as he dropped his black school bag close to the door and made his way for my bed.

I smiled shyly at him, feeling so embarrassed as I let my gaze fall to my laps.

He sat down on my bed, making it sink from his weight as he stretched fort his right hand for my face, lifting it up to look at him. "How do you feel now?" he asked, with such a look that made my heart sink.

"Fine." my voice sounded more hoarse than I supposed it would be.

He sighed, then said, "Aunty Tofunmi said the doctor told her that, you didn't cut well enough to get the vein. But, you did lose a lot of blood from it. The action. And the years you had been trying, added to it, which rendered you unconscious." he paused to sigh again, then continued, "Toyo, what compelled you to take such an action?"

Soma only called me Toyo, when he was really not happy with any action I made.

I had planned before that moment, that I wasn't going to hide anything from him. But, the very moment he needed me to speak, my speech disappeared.

My lack of response, made Soma sigh. "Please talk," he pleaded with me.

The words didn't still want to come out, but I forced myself to speak. I told him everything I had Tofunmi. He listened calmly, without stopping me for a second to comment or talk. He watched me quietly and waited for me to finish. After I finished talking, he adjusted himself on my bed, making himself more comfortable.

When I thought he still wasn't going to talk, he suddenly said, "And you considered no one?"

He's sudden question hit me hard. I couldn't find an answer to give him, so I stared at him quietly.

He sighed as he began to rub the bridge of his nose with his right hand. "Your family, The triplets, Science, and myself. You didn't consider how any of us are going to survive without you?" he asked, lifting his head to look at me as he let his hand fall from his nose. "Do you know how school is for me without you?" he asked, but quickly answered before I could think of anything. "No, you don't. I mean, it isn't you. I'm the person who is going to suffer after all. You're the main person who gives me a reason to wake up and go to school every day, but all of a sudden you decided to leave without thinking about all the persons in your life. Not to be mean or anything, but it was a very selfish action. Whenever things like that happen, you have me. I'm always there, ready to fight for you and motivate you. I thought that's what friends are for. I mean, we're here to console each other right? To be one another's right hand. Having our backs. Helping you in ways you can't help yourself, and vise versa. Or, is it not so?"

I nodded.

"Science has been more dis-stabilized since he heard about what you did. He now thinks he has a bad omen or something. He thinks it's his bad luck that pushed you and Art into taking your own lives. He won't come out of his room, saying he didn't want to spend time with me or I will do same. He thinks his cursed and won't let anyone talk to him. My uncle tried bringing a therapist home, so he could help him. But, he won't let anyone in. And even when I told him you were well and okay, he still said he wasn't going to answer at all until he heard your voice and felt you. As for the triplets, they're fine. They wanted to follow me here, but I told them not to bother. They insisted and tried to follow me, but I escaped when we got to our usual dispatching place. I'm sure they'll be angry with me by tomorrow," he deadpanned.

I felt so bad. I felt bad for being selfish and inconsiderate about the precious and wonderful people around me.

"Well, I don't blame you. I blame the people that pushed you into doing whatever you did. And if you ever want to take a revenge on them, I'll be here to help you." he cracked a smile.

And all of a sudden, an idea clicked in my head.